24.09.2010

Tonight is a lonely night.

I'm alone, mentally and physically.

There is no one that I can talk to.

How pathetic life I had.

I only left music that can accompany.

Maybe I should do some research for my assignment.

Hmmm. What a good idea.

Bye.

♥

♥

我想我不会爱你

虽然已经爱上你

可是我会远离你

只因为爱你

非能人所能

我宁愿强迫自己

忘记你

都不要放任自己

喜欢你

只因为爱你

非能人所能

只能说

我没有

在对的时间

遇上对的人

♥

Hey Bro!

Hey!

I seriously don't know what was in your mind!

I didn't expect you to treat me like your girlfriend!

BUT PLEASE RESPECT ME AS A FRIEND, CAN OR NOT?!

I hate people keep making jokes on me OFTEN!

Once in awhile I still CAN bear with that!
BUT NOT EVERY TIME WE MET!

Like you slap on my face then you say sorry!

Is this how you treat your friend?

I DON'T THINK SO!!!

DID I DO ANYTHING WRONG THAT DESERVED YOUR HUMILIATION ?

IF YES THEN TELL ME!!!!!!

I WILL IMPROVE !!!

BUT I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT I HAD DID TO YOU!!!!

I don't deserve what you did to me, OKAY!

I had already try to tolerate with you! EVERY TIME!

BUT what I got at the end was your insulting !!!!

HEY, don't you think you are A LITTLE BIT TOO OVER !!!

I'm just human, a girl who had done nothing wrong to you.

I'm a girl, physically and mentally .

PLEASE DON'T SAID THAT

"stop acting like a girl"

If you really that hate me then FINE!

Then please don't mess up MY LIFE.

I'm fine if you dislike me or hate me.

BUT PLEASE DON'T MESS UP MY LIFE.

Life without you is fine for me.

I don't even give a damn on it.

So if you really hate me then just bog off.

If you still treat me as a FRIEND,

please please at least RESPECT ME.

Ya, I talking about you Vincent.

I'm sick!!!!

Tomorrow got quiz some more!!!

really ..................

So cold :(

Running nose :((

Sore throat :(((

Stomachache :((((

STILL HAVEN'T FINISH REVISION :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

22.09.2010

Happy MoonCake Festival !!!!!

This is the first time that I celebrate without family and chinese lantern.

Well, I feel kinda lonely? and pity?

Tomorrow will be my Marketing Quiz so tonight I need to STUDY!

I think my parent are lonely too :(

Because now the house only left my dad, mom, sis and my grandma.

If compare to last 7years ago, my house sure very crowded.

All the relatives came and celebrated together.

We played chinese lantern and sometimes we accidentally BURNED it!!

However, now my house no longer crowded like last time.

My brother, sister and I were at KL.

I miss my family.

I want go back Sabah xD

For those who are same situation,

let us do our best :)

GAMBATEH !!!!

Today,

in the middle of Human Com class,

I suddenly found out that my wallet was not with me!

So,

after finished class,

I dashed out from the class.

I sprinted to desk there,

asked friends whether they saw my wallet or not.

Unfortunately,

my wallet was not there!!

OH MY!!!

I was damn worried!!

My IC, ATM card, resident card and etc all inside it!!

If I really lost it, I will definitely in trouble!

Then I thought of maybe Eunice help me kept it

So i sms her but wont delivered then I went to her classroom.

BUT BUT BUT!

The lecturer was still there teaching!

I waited and waited until she finished class,

then she told me that my wallet was with her~ LOL

To be honest, at that time I was ANGRY!!!

BUT I'm not angry my friendssss laaaaaa~

SERIOUSLY !! I MEANT IT!!! >.<

I know my face like shit when I was bad mood >.<

I'm sorry!!! I'm just too worry about my wallet!!!

我不知道我的心里

是否住着一个你

也许我只是害怕承认

因为只要一旦承认了

我会奋不顾身的陷下去

爱你真的是非能人所能

更何况我不知道你的心

是否住着某某人

我是个胆小的人

我并不勇敢

所以我不冒险

请容许我小小的骄傲

来维持我的尊严

♥

Meaningful lyric to me :)

"为什么

心揪在一起

我不想再哭泣

把我的手交给你

再微笑

是因为我有你"

This is the a part of the song's lyric

I can't remember the rest , so.... haha

Oh ya.. This is a church song.

21.09.2010

Babe Stephy and Me

Today is her birthday

Happy Birthday ya Babe :)

Today she fall down at college

What a poor little girl (emotive language!)

Be more careful arrrrrr

love♥♥♥.

I have a nice day today.

Have a nice conversation with Jie Jie.

She is so funny, I MEANT IT!

Since a long time didn't I have a good chat with her.

We should always do that la JIE JIE.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Today I ate tom yam TWICE!

First time is with Jie Jie

( I forgot the restaurant name >.<)

Then went to secret recipe with Eunice them after moral class

LOL

JIE JIE!

Please stop eating fast food and sweets.

Please stop drinking cold drinks!!

Please drink more water!!

If I caught you eat any junk food and fast food and drink cold drinks,

WATCH OUT!!!!!

Hungry jor~ want go eat!

tom yam fried rice!

OH MY!

I'm so TOM YAM today

~.~

Sometimes

I just don't know

what is in my mind actually.

I don't understand myself.

I don't know what I want.

Confusing.

♥

20.09.2010

Today is not my day. I've lost my ONLY pencil case in college. Really OMG-ing!!!

Today is not Yann's day. Her stomach was not feeling well. She went to toilet during the class!!!

Today is not Eunice's day. She got annoyed by a stupid fellow!!!

=In conclusion, today is just not our day!!!!!!

Seriously, I feel like I've lost my way.

Pressure on my shoulder is so heavy.

I have tons of assignments, I mean it.

Feel like wanna give up, but I cannot.

Life isn't that easy.

Love isn't that simple.

And Meh isn't that strong.

再坚强的人也有脆弱的一面

更何况我并不是坚强的人

我尝试独当一面

可是岁月却不允许尝试

我一定要独当一面

有时候

真的很想哭

我想回家啦

朋友们

不要再想

撮合我和任何人

好吗？

我会有压力的

学业已经快要了我的命

不要再增加我的压力

p/s: 我抗压性真的满底的

习惯

这世界上

从来没有

不习惯

这三个字

习惯

只是时间

所累积的

动作而已

不知

从何时开始

想你

变成了习惯

习惯变了

只因为

有新的习惯

代替了

原本的习惯

我在想

几时会出现

新的习惯

代替属于

你的习惯

我依然还是我

我依然还是任性

我依然还是霸道

我依然还是不讲理

我依然还是爱耍脾气

我依然还是我行我素

怎样？你不给哦？

不爽就不要在那里烦

我依然还是这样？

所以？干你事吗？

本小姐心情不好

不想跟你聊

你不给吗？

不要跟我说

“你还是这样”

我是怎样都好

都不管你的事

我不会为了无谓的人

作出任何的改变

如果你认为你在我的心里

有足够的分量的话

欢迎你来改变我

如果没有任何分量的话

请你不要在我前面说废话

I love you.

How I wish I could control my feeling toward you.

You don't love me.

I know it since you told me three are better than two.

You are waiting for your special one.

This is what you told me that broke my heart.

Even though I just met you once in my whole life.

But I just cannot restrain myself from being in love with you.

You broke my heart, and it no longer beating.

I'm heartless because of your words.

I'm not the one that you want.

But You are the one that I want for now.

You never know that I am actually loving you.

I had give up putting hope on you anymore.

The moment you read this, the moment you leave from my heart.

All the best for you :)

14.09.2010

I dumped my blog for about 3days already, I know it is quite rare for me to do so.

I wanted to post something at least, but I just do not have that mood.

Maybe I was too tired last three days? I guess so?

Because I was really lack of sleep recently~

Jie Jie love this post ~ PEACE

Jie Jie said I look nice with my new spec

What about you? Do I look nice with my new spec?

Talk about Jie Jie

She is sick :(

I'm so worry about her

hope she recover soon!!

Recently Baby Theng quite hyper

ya, somehow she is erhemmm

But cannot blame her also

She is going to meet horse soon!

Yann and Roy are like usual

nothing happen recently

HAHAHAHAHA

Today Tirzah told me that I look fierce if I don't smile

Well, this is not the first time people told me this.

So I will try to smile every moment so that I won't scare people away from me!

I'm going to Roy's house BBQ tomorrow night

Then the next day go Broga Hill go see sunrise :)

Then go find my brother and sister!!

Im so happy and excited ~

Oh ya~ I'm going to my sister's house this weekend!

Yeah~ Finally I can play dragonica already!

I cannot use college and resident's line to play any online game!

SO SAD!

I'm going to show some picture that I edited today :)

I love it and hope you too :D

Eunice and I :)

They love to kiss me~

I also don't know why?

So i come out with a conclusion

which is they all love me very much :P

This is my laptop wallpaper

It may be simple but I love it so much :D

They may not a perfect friends

but I love the way they are.

Final Destination 4

Just finished watching this movie

I know that this movie was released quite long time ago

I wasn't managed to watch it when it was on air

I took this movie from Vincent since he had in his hard disk

I'm so regret to watch this movie

No point to watch if all the characters all died at the end

Am I right?

This movie was "S"

09.09.2010

Yesterday my sister called me and ask me to come to her house tomorrow(today).

Today she said she will pick me up at One Utama, so i follow Nicholas's car to there.

Wanna say thank you to Mr Lion King, I mean LIONEL CHOOI!!!

Thanks for accompany me back to hostel and wait for my sister.

Oh ya! And Denzie tooooo :) Thanks a lot ya!!!!

Well, Lionel and I found out that both of us VERY ANNOYING today :P

Today not only me go to my sister there, her boy friend's brother too :)

So after fetch me then go Sunway fetch him, by the way, he study at there.

My sister just came back from Thailand, she bought a lot of things.

She bought many cloths, and she gave many to me(because she doesn't fit.)

That's why she gave me "many"!!! hahahahhaha

And she said this is my birthday present !!!! LOL!!

A formal skirt.

A PINK formal shirt.

Very Girlish Shirt~

A t-shirt :)

My Facebook Profile Picture :P

So FUNNY!!!

This Is Michelle :)

She told me a very bad news.

Take care ya darling :(

Now is 12.29am. I should lying on my bed now but I'm sitting in front of my computer.

Feel like wanna write something here but I have nothing to write actually.

I suddenly felt that my life is lifeless? Sometimes I just sick of it :(

Wondering how long can I stand for this? Can I survive until I graduate?

I'm not a persistent people, I don't know when I will give up.

I'm trying to be more consistent, hope it work? Perhaps.

College life had begun, life getting busier and more works is coming.

Now I started to feel stressful compare to the last semester.

Something changed simply meant it had changed.

I'm trying to be more mature but sometimes it just don't work for me.

Suddenly memories like video play back in my mind.

Memories include memories with HIM.

Maybe because of today incident, let me think about him.

Well, as you all know that he is not a good boyfriend.

But why I would miss him at this time? HAHA

Memories are beyond my control, I also don't know why.

Sometimes I will think about :

"If he were loyalty to relationship, I would love him very much."

But in reality he is not, so this is impossible to happen :P

So what to do?haha~ nothing to do actually >.<

Something over simply meant is over.

There is no turning point in our life.

I should sleep now.

Good night.