23.02.2011

It's true that I have many nice, good, best friends in KL. =)
But my life in here is suck till the max max max! =((((((
It's so lifeless to live in hostel! >____< I miss my home!
Internet is the only entertainment I have in here!
Now sleep became my another hobby already! Duhhh..
No wonder I become fatter and fatter already!
I want tv! I want homemake dinner! I want big room!
Okay la, complains stop here. HAHA

Wanna say thank you to Mr Jackson Koh! =)
Thanks for teaching me Econs!!! I appreciate your hardwork!!!
I will try my best not to fail my midterm la okay?
If i didn't fail, I treat you lunch =)
I know you will stalk me so yeah! HAHA
Come and clain your lunch if pass my midterm! HAHA

Today went to startbucks with mui mui they all.
We play webcam at there! haha! omg, so embarrassing!
If wanna see what picture we took, please go to my facebook and seee!

I have dilemma! Should I sleep now or study now or watch drama now?
HAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

23.02.2011

有时候，有些事，是我们无法控制的。
好比如说，爱上他，想他，或梦见他。

爱上他，不是我选择的。
想起他，不是我控制的。
梦见他，不是我计划的。

不爱他，是我选择的。
不想他，是我控制的。
不梦他，不是我能计划的。

反复无常的剧情，不是我所能承受的。
我累了，所以我学着去放手。
一开始，真的非常困难。
可是久而久之，感情都麻木了。
爱，早已被时间侵蚀了。
早已不明白自己在执著什么了。


现在，
不会再刻意留意你脸书的状态。
不会再停留过去美好的回忆。
不会再无时无刻的想起你。
也不会再去无谓的执著。

退一步，真的会是海阔天空。
何必活在那痛苦的枷锁呢？
枷锁其实只是自己紧握的双手。
只要松开双手，快乐就在等着你。

九个月前的月亮和九个月后的月亮是一样的。
唯一不同的是它照亮大地的原因变了。
不再为他发光发热了。

马华

马来西亚是个多元种族的国家，这是我们的特色。

我国虽没有那些先进的国家那么发达，可是我们算比上不足，比下有余。

虽然有时候身为国民的我们都会批评我们的国家，可是试问有谁不曾埋怨过？

因为多元种族的因素，我们的发音会不标准，尤其是英文与中文。

我们所讲的英文或中文都会混合其他语言或方言。

这是不能否认的事实。好听的话就是特色，难听的话就是缺点。

无论是什么都好，我都会很荣幸的说我是马来西亚华人！

我会写这篇短文是因为某人的脸书状态，

你受不了马来西亚华人的话语腔调，我没话好说。

因为这是你个人的感想，我只能说抱歉因为我们的中文让你感到反胃。

可是当你说 “什么时候才可以彻底消灭马来西亚腔调华语”的时候，我真的感到很愤怒。

你说要消灭马来西亚腔调华语是要消灭马华的意思吗？

生长在多元种族环境的我们，导致我们的中文不标准，难道是我们的错吗？

既然你说听我们说的中文等于在虐待你的耳朵，那么请你滚回你的国家吧！

容许我提醒你，你的男朋友好像是马来西亚华人。

当你在大众面前说你无法忍受马华的中文的时候，你是不是也在批评你的男友？

你有没有想过，当你在大众说这些话的时候，你是公然挑衅所有的马华。

既然你要当个无知的人，我也不能阻止你。

只能说你是个相当白目的人。

19.02.2011

Hello people! =) I'm having my midterm examination!
But glad to say that I just left one more paper to go! x)
My last paper is Econs which on next Thursday.
Jackson Koh will be my tutor for this subject! HEHE

One word to describe today's exams, DIE !
For statistics, I don't have enough time and the questions were kinda tricky @.@
For Psychology, the only part I don't know how to do is the case study with worth 20m!
See, DIE! ~.~ I don't want to fail =( I think no ones want to fail >.<

Lazy to type so long, photos time! lol

Randomly took when I was outside residence

Today FULL MOON weiii =)

远远又圆圆的月亮

Me =)

囧囧家族大弟子-我条羊

Dedicated for Jie Jie Tsen Choi Ling 

I bet this is Renee's favorite xD

That's all for today! gonna sleep like a pig until tomorrow afternoon !! HAHA

17.02.2011

First time of my life I felt bullied by others.
First time of my life I cried because of a rude person.
First time I called my family and cried because what that person did to me.

You do not deserve my tears you this moron!
I don't revenge because I have my manners!


IF YOU INSIST TO DRIVING ME NUTS!
I really will kick your ass off ! DUMD ASS !
I never met such a bitch person like you!
BIG CLAP FOR YOU! Twit!

Sorry for being rude but I JUST COULD NOT STAND FOR WHAT THAT STUPID OLD WOMAN DID!

超级无敌西北烂人

我一直不和你计较是因为你老，算是长辈，我才不出声。
你唠叨，自言自语，听歌有时候不用耳机，看戏的时候喜欢突然大笑，还要一直不停地笑，我都忍你了。
因为我也是有缺点，所以就将就以下。
可是你真的是他妈的他马的过分，好不好！！
你没有问过的我同意就擅自拿我的书来看！
请问你知道什么是“不问自取，便是偷”吗？
一次就算了，可是一直有第二次第三次。
在你想看我的书的时候，你难道不可以问过我的同意先吗？
 在我回家乡的时候，你更加的离谱！
我的书放在桌面上被你拿我还可以接受。
可是连在我抽屉里的计算机你都有本事拿来用？
我接受不到啦！我真的很接受不到咯！！
夸张的是你还拿了我姐给我的小枕头占为己有！
你会不会有点过分啊！你不是有点，是很过分！！
算，我给你！就当作是我施舍给你。
可是你竟然把我洗澡的毛巾拿来抹手？
你有没有过分一点？你超级过分好不好！！
你懂不懂什么是卫生？你那么老了因该不需要我教你吧？
你脑袋装草是吗？看我不出声就得寸进尺是吗?
和你住在一块真的是我上辈子欠你的！
你不要挑战我的耐性，我抓狂起来可不是好惹！
你真的是他马的他妈的好过分！

16.02.2011

This is just another stupid post. The paragraphs is not related to each other.
Don't say that I didn't warn you that this gonna be a boring post.
Its just a random topic that I suddenly think of it. Well, I'm a random person. >.<
So if you are not interested on it you may leave now. =)

This is happening again. I don't like to deal with this situation.
Well, I don't think anyone likes it if you are the one who suffer?
Not really suffer but I just tired to deal with this again and again.
I'm not going to blame or putting hope already, just follow the flow.
I used to be blame and putting hope on it but now I learnt to not to do so.
The more you blame and wish, the more you cannot let go. Right ? =)
Anyway, I should take this as a lesson for my life.
Life is not easy but you can make your life fill with joy.
When you are stuck in a problem, try to view the problem from an different angle.
You may find out something surprise you =) This is an advise for you and for me.

Everyone of us have different personality. We see the world in different perspective.
Something that seem important for you might not that important for me.
Because we have different background and thoughts.
However, there are neither right nor wrong on this matter.
This is what I learnt from someone when we are talking about life.

Somehow I admit that I am a weirdo. =S
I know that I should not behave like that but I just could not restrain myself.
I know that I should not think in that way but I just could not control my mind.
Sometimes, I feel so guilty for what I did and what I thought about someone.
I really want to be a better person but sometimes I just cannot behave myself.

I realize that I am a fortune people compare to others.
I have a family that love me very much.
I have many friends that always take good care of me.
Even though I did experienced something horrible, but its over now.
Sometimes people like me should learnt to be thankful for what we had.
I should not demanding so much since I have more than what I need. *smile*

Mermaid is glad that having you such a nice friend =) Good Night! ^v^

My Valentines Day

You can see couples everywhere during Valentine's Day.

All of them are holding hand or hugging, so sweet but in the same time @.@

Anyway, just a feeling of a lonely single lady. HAHA =P 

Please bear with me, I never celebrate Valentine's Day lol =S

Today went to MidValley with Harry.

I need to do a spare key because my one was left in KK >.<

So today he will be my temporarily date for Valentine's Day! HAHA

Since he also so free, gf is not around ~ LOL~

We only best friends! =) Don't think too much!

We had dinner at Sushi King! We love SUSHI <3 HAHA

We ordered "lou shang" HAHA NICE WEII 

This is ME @.@ Please ignore my fringe =.=

And DON'T ASK ME WHY IT BECOME LIKE THIS.

Since we already in Midvalley, so we watched a movie!

There are so many nice movies on air, I want to watch all of them! @.@

Today we watched Mr and Mrs Incredible!

It was damn funny, you could heard the laughter around you =)

You should WATCH it, SERIOUSLY!!

That's all~ See ya, CIAO =D

14.02.2011

Happy Valentine's Day =)
For those who are single or couple, wish you all have a nice great day!
This year is another single valentine for me =( HAHA
Nahhh.. Just a little bit imba when think about it~ Overall still okay =)

Somehow I still will miss you.Somehow I still like you.
But even how I miss or like you, make no difference at all.
I'm no longer stuck in the past but feeling is not under my control.
After missing you, will continue move forward bit by bit.
Until one day I left you behind and move on by myself. =)
Mister =), Happy Valentine's Day =)

I'm satisfy and happy with what I have now =) *smile*

天秤座

传说里，有一种鸟儿，自出生起，一直流浪飞翔，不停。它从来不歌唱，天空任何一个角落，都留下它流浪的足迹。直到看到它心属的荆棘，才会落脚，将自己的胸脯插入荆棘里，自流出鲜血的嘴里，唱出一生最动听的歌曲，直至死亡。

其实十二星座里，天秤的灵魂就像荆棘鸟。

“朋友满天下，知己无一人。”就是天秤最佳写照。

聚会里，天秤不会是最光彩照目的那一个，她会笑着看众人喧嚣，微笑以对。但是冷场的时候，出来活跃气氛的，绝对是天秤。

每一个朋友里，都有天秤用心对待的一部分，却不是全部。面具重重地盖在脸上，天秤小心翼翼地将自己的真心，分给朋友，不会只给一人。因为天秤承担不起背叛。如果把真心给一个人，承受的背叛，将是没顶之灾。

所以，真正陷入爱情的天秤，是悲哀的。爱上，就代表，把自己的弱点，都交予了一人。

天秤就是这样。每个朋友有他留下的友情，却无法让他不安的灵魂落脚，他总是一直在默默流浪寻觅，那属于自己的荆棘，属于自己的落脚之地。

当天秤寻到的时候，宁可荆棘刺穿自己的胸脯，他也会很认真地歌唱，把生命交，在所不惜。

未真爱上的天秤，眼泪是为朋友而流的。不会在朋友面前流，坚强、微笑地安慰着不幸的朋友，一直到朋友转身，背地而流。

君子之交淡如水。天秤对每个人的好，换来的是一些不懂天秤的不屑。当那些误以为自己只是点头之交的朋友，获得幸福的时候，有些人会忘记天秤给予的友谊。天秤只会在那些朋友的背后，淡淡微笑着祝福，就算那些朋友离开了，也不会责备。

天秤隐忍，为朋友所伤，在心里，却依然能微笑如故。直到朋友越来越不把天秤放在心上的时候，天秤的真心，被伤得鲜血淋漓的时候，天秤会很优雅地说声：再见，一定要珍重。然后平静离开那个，伤害自己太深的朋友。

于是，这些不了解天秤的人，坏脾气地指责天秤绝决，不重视友谊。其实他们自己没有反省，自己伤天秤更深。

其实，友谊上没有谁对谁错。天秤只是脾气太好，容易把周身的人，都宠成坏脾气。天秤喜欢黑夜，因为黑夜是他最好的盔甲，阳光下只能见到他隐忍的微笑，只有月亮才看得到他隐忍了一天的悲伤。

所以，天秤积压在心底的伤口，靠着他一个人砥，很累很累，直到他找到心属的荆棘这时，小心翼翼地接近。

天秤其实不是流连花从的花蝴蝶，只是一直在寻找落脚的归属，一个让他伤得太重时，容他砥伤的避风港。天秤不会将一切困难心事都向避风港哭诉，只是等着悲伤过后，才装作不满地样子，跟着挚爱撒娇，说着一些无关乎悲伤之事。

如果天秤找到了真爱，他同样不会在最爱的人面前哭泣。但是他的眼泪从此不再留给朋友，只为挚爱而流泪。

那些关乎友谊的悲哀，关乎爱情的伤，他会隐忍，直至最后不能承载，彻底信任你的时候，向你倾诉。

不要怪天秤的淡然。天秤只是为了保护自己太重。真爱你的时候，会慢慢向你畅开心怀，但是不要太急。

天秤的心灵就像是含羞草，慢慢绽开枝叶，受不得一点点惊吓，如果在未全开放之时，就伤害天秤的心，那天秤的心从此闭得更紧。

不要怪天秤不把心事告诉你。天秤的心事，自己承受，是为了不让挚爱担心，但是天秤的眼底，容易让挚爱看穿，那不要追问。只需要将天秤轻轻拥抱，就是最好的安慰与容纳。

天秤同样喜欢朋友，但是朋友给不了天秤，劳累的归属。如果你与天秤确定了关系，就成为他的避风港，不需要逼问，不需要强迫，只需天秤的悲哀，承担不起之时，给他一个避风港，就替他承担了所有的悲哀。

真爱天秤，就承担起属于天秤的悲哀。如果一味地埋怨他流连花从中，指责他，实属无辜。如果真这样，请你自问一下：你给天秤的安全感，够了吗？他的悲哀，你都能承担吗？

如果你无法容纳这样的天秤，无法承载关于天秤的悲哀，请你一定要坚决地回绝天秤，远离天秤，如果你宽容天秤，反而让一味自以为是对人好的天秤，更深地依赖你，当你实在承载不起这种悲哀之时，天秤受的伤，将会毁了整个天秤。

真正被毁掉的天秤，你见过吗？对爱情不再期望，对人不再信任，剩下的，只是对爱情的嘲弄，以及，一个真正的花心冷血之辈，诞生。

如果你无法这样承担天秤的悲哀，为友情而争风吃醋。请你远离天秤。

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12.02.2011

我是个善变的女生，心情就好像过山车。
一时这样，一时那样。我都不知道我到底在想什么。
说好了这样，可是过两天后又改变主义了。
有时候因为这样自己都觉得很懊恼。
自己快要被自己给逼疯了~汗
有时候真的觉得做人真的很累，世界真复杂。
也许我还真的不够成熟，思想还是很小孩子。


我可以放弃我的承诺吗？我可以失言吗？
笑一笑没什么大不了，是真的吗？
我笑了，可是心中的苦涩却无法忽视。
虽然只有那一瞬间，可是却刻骨铭心。
我劝我朋友不要那么执著，其实我也是五十步笑百步。
我放不下是因为我太执著，在执著什么，我也想知道。
也许和我朋友一样，只是心有不甘。
也许只是单纯放不下，我也不知道。
反正我的心情一直都在变，无奈。


我的朋友们一直提醒我“看开一点，开心一点”。
我知道啦，其实我也很开心的。
只是有时候还是会犯贱一下下，真的只有一下下哦～
但是我不担保我会不会作出什么惊人的举动啦～
你们知道的啦，我是一个善便又突然的人。
我也不知道下一秒又在想什么或做什么。


大佬讲把人生当作一场游戏，把自己的角色玩好就好了。
不要太过于执著，凡是看开一点，开心一点。
笑一笑，也许真的没什么大不了。

10.01.2011

This is how I look like now >.<

Oh yeah, I cut my long long fringe already.

Because my sister keep nagging me to do so~

Anyway, even though my appearance changed, Melissa is still Melissa =)

Today is the second day after I back from Kk.

I skipped 3 days' class that's why I'm totally lost now~!

LOL, I seriously don't know what they are talking during the discussion @~@

Well, I need to study hard now i guess? HAHA

Quiz, presentation and also mid term are waiting for me~

Who said the final semester is the most relax one?!?!

I should be very stress now but I don't feel any, because I'm too lazy!

HAHA, at this time I just don't have the right mood to be hardworking~

IT'S STILL HOLIDAY WEII! CNY!! LOL

I need more holidays =( I want back kk!

Well, it's true that I miss my KL friends very much.

Especially those who purposely fetch me from KL Central =)

Thank you very much! I appreciate everything that you all have done to me!

But home is always the best, right?! HAHA

I'm sick, not only homesick but physically, lol @.@

Am I acting a bit too sentimental ? LOL

HAHA, i think i should stop here. =)

I don't feel like continue to keep that promise.

But promise is a promise, even though it hurts.

I will smile until the end of my day. =)

08.02.2011

HELLO PEOPLE!!!

Do you miss me?!?!?! HAHA

I have been missing for so many days~

Due to some reasonss!! LOL

I know I'm kinda late but still I wanna wish you all

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

GONG XI FA CAI!! 

Sorry for missing so many times @.@

Just don't feel like posting anything here , not in the right mood.

My cny eve was suck till the max! I mean it.

Anyway, let's forget about it!! I don't want to remember!

Well, overall my cny was quite fun and I enjoy it very much! =)

What I did during cny was eat and eat and eat, as well as gamble too! LOL

Scare you can't recognize me anymore because I'M TOO FAT! 

My family love to gamble! But we only gamble in cny laaa...

So don't blame me that I love to gamble, because ITS GENE PROBLEM! haha

I took many pictures with my lovely cousins during cny, but need to wait my sister to upload.

Will upload soon right after she upload to facebook! =)

Going back to KL sooon!!!

I don't know this is a good news or bad news >.<

I really don't like going back, I wanna stay at here~!

But in the same time, I miss my kl friends so much too!

OMG, I'm going back to HELL LIFE =(

May God be with me all the time! LOL

在一次偶然的机会下

听见了一首很有意思的歌

可是却想不起歌名和谁唱的

它的歌词非常有意识

有一段的意识大概如下

“偶尔想起你的时候心还是会揪

再怎么难受的寂寞还是会习惯

谢谢你的离开让我得到真正的自由”

也许是唱出我的心声所以才会那么喜欢

虽然还是会想起他

可是心却开始放得下

当然偶尔还是会看不开

时间是唯一的解药

既然无预测未来也改变不了过去

那只好把现在当成珍贵的礼物

把握当下

如果每个人在这个世界上都有一个价值的话，那么我的价值又是多少？

我想是没有价值吧？尽管我很努力起将自己增值，可是这根本就是徒劳无功。

我在家里因应该算是最没有存在感的人吧？因为我样样都不好，没办法，人是现实的。

连家里辈分最小的妹妹都没有把我放在眼里，我这个当姐姐可真是失败。

我还真的没有听她认认真真叫我一声姐姐，她像其他人一样叫我的乳名。

在家里受了委屈，在网上抱怨，结果还被朋友说教。

他说我不应该在新年里抱怨多多。我当下是呆了。

为什么连我唯一发泄的机会都要剥夺？为什么？

谁说在新年里每个人都会是幸福开心的？

唯一抒发情绪的机会都被剥夺，还要被姐姐说三道四。

对，我是无理取闹。

对，我是乱发脾气。

对，我是小气鬼。

对，我是爱哭宝。

对，我不因该破坏新年气氛。

对，什么都是我的错。

你们满意了吗？我道歉，好不好？

对不起，我不应该那么小气！

妹妹因该不把我放在眼里，她是对的，我错了。

对不起，我不应该破坏新年气氛和乱发脾气。

就算受了多大委屈都好，我都不因该在大众面前抱怨，发脾气，我错了。

对不起，我不应该无理取闹和哭闹。

就算再怎么伤心或委屈，我都不可以哭。我错了。

这一切都是我的错，你们开心了吗?

是不是要我消失在这世界上你们才甘愿？

为什么连我那微小的存在感都要摧毁？

如果是那样，那就不应该把我生出来。

31.01.2011

Last night my sister said: Eh, tomorrow wake up on 7am. Help me to do something.
Then I replied : Ermm, 7am? You sure ah?
Then she said : "YES!!" Well, at that time I bet she cant even wake up on 7am!
Well, I was right! HAHA~! We woke up on 11 at the end, LOL ~

Today I helped my sister to clean the house =S
Actually being force to help >.< HAHA
What to do, she is the eldest~
After finish all the work, I was really fatigued!!
OMG, DAMN TIRED WEIIIIIII~!

Tonight I have family dinner at don't know where =)
The food was nice~! YUMMY!! HAHA
I know I'm getting fatter but CNY lor!
What to do =( Need to keep fit and on diet jor T T

After dinner, went out with

Eric Yapp Gor Gor 

and Ah Bao Gor Gor 

We decided to watch Shaolin =)

That cinema sucks la =.= 

The chairs are so so so small and uncomfortable =(

Anyway, the movie was not bad =)

Quite enjoy it =) HAHA

This is the second time I hang out with two of them =D

Every time I back from KL also will go out with them!

This like a tradition ? HAHA~! Anyway, I enjoy today so much!

That's all for today.

I'm sleepy now =D

Date me out if you are in KK =)

Byeee