I'm trying to handle things in more mature way.
But it seems like I always fail to do so.

None of my friends dare to speak with me in that way.
None of them would throw their temper on me before.
No doubt and you are the first one.

I cried not because of you but I feel grievance.
Its not fair for me being scolded and I have done nothing wrong.
None of my friend treated me like this before.

I hate get scold when I'm not even do anything wrong.
I hate people throw their temper on me when I don't deserve it.
But you did all this to me. You know what, I don't deserve this.

I don't know what miserable things happened on you,
but scold me for no reason and treated me in an unfair way,
don't you think you are a bit overdoing ?
I didn't even do anything wrong!

I was so sad and not happy for what have you done.
I was really angry for what have you did to me!
But I guess that's it, I'm gonna let go of my anger.

I don't want to be a childish person.
I don't want to get involve in you anymore.
I don't want to torture myself by my own anger.

It's time to let go myself for being a slave of anger.
It's time to move forward and not backward.
It's time to learn to be more mature.

I choose to forgive and that's why I accept your friend request AGAIN.
I don't want to act like a child, angry you, unfriend you, or block you.
I guess that's the end, it ends tonight.

I'm free after tomorrow.
Wish you all the best.

22.09.2011

Today's me.

Hello! Today is just another kinda hectic and yet joyful day?

Woke up early in the morning then rush to college to meet my group mates.

We are going to shoot a short video for our assignment.

Basically I just help them to shoot and the time i showed in the video is not more than 10 seconds.

Well, I'm just a "kay leh fay" LOL ~

Even though is kinda tired during the filming but it was really fun?

Enjoy spend time with them :)

Seow Yun , Meh Meh, Pek Ling and Wei Ann

Meh Meh and Seow Yun xD

Wei Ann and Meh Meh :D

Pek Ling and Meh Meh =D

After we finished our video then I started to play around with friends! LOL

sa sa de wo men =p

And I met Mr Jackson Koh at DSA

So I took some photo with him!

His friend said he looks like a psyduck! OPPS!

HAHA

I guess this photo prove that he actually got some potential to join Kueng2 Family !

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Well, I know Jackson will read this eventually since he like to stalks me!

Erm, just wanna thanks for teaching Econs when I was in foundation =p 

Tomorrow is going to help my friends on their video assignment!

Omg, gonna wear formal again =[

Hope its fun like today :D

Can't wait for tomorrow.

K la, I guess that's we call for a day.

Good and have a nice day!

See ya.

20.09.2011

Hello people!

I'm super tired today and yet I'm happy too!

Tired because my class is back to back from 8am till 4pm!

No break at all! =(

Happy because today went to celebrate birthday with my Stephy babe ♥

Now already 12am so I can wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY , BABE =)

Birthday Girl and her lovely boyfriend.

Wish you have a blast and stay beautiful forever =D

Although we often say this to each other, but I love you babe ♥

Happy birthday again to you ~!!!

Upload some photos that we took~

Still got more but not with me!

I just uploaded those in my phone ><

Me and Birthday Girl  =p

Yann and Meh

Yan and Meh 

Meh and Xiu Han 

Meh and Guai Lan

Meh and Short

Jie and Meh 

Our small yet lovely family ♥

Guai Lan 1 hao and temporary guai lan >< 

They ♥ Meh

Sze Yung and Meh Meh 

Remember I mentioned guy named Cheng Fai in my previous post?

Mei Yan uploaded photos on fb! So I can update you guys too!

Cheng Fai and Meh

Group photo 1

Group photo 2

Today post is fulled of photos instead of words.

Because I'm lazy and tired.

Gonna ciao.

BYE 

♥

Random Post.

Now its 3.44 a.m. and yet I'm still awake in the middle of the night.

Actually I was just woke up not long ago, haha!

I fall asleep in a blink of eye, you can see how tired I was.

Recently did not have good sleep/rest due to quiz and other personal problems.

Yesterday after Steph Babe finished their exam, we went to have lunch together.

I just love to spend time with them, they are sweet ♥

Then left short short and I have a girl talk in corridor ~

Let's work hard together, 加油!! 

♥ i LOVE this ♥

Gonna back to sleep!

Later class back to back from 8 till 4 =( 

See ya.

我不在乎了也接受不到

我会生气，因为我在乎。
我在乎是因为你在我心中有一定的份量。
如果我连生气你的力气都要省下，那意味着我不在乎了。

我这个人是很直接的，喜欢就喜欢，不喜欢就不喜欢。
不必躲躲藏藏，也不用隐瞒着什么。
我是个可以开得起玩笑的人，前提不要踏到我的地雷。
我的地雷不多，可是一旦你踏到，后果自负。

昨晚发生了一些让我很不开心也很生气的事情。
昨晚我确实很生气很生气真的很生气。
因为我觉得那位先生作的很过分很过分！
我会很生气是因为我还当他是很好的朋友。
然后他也做了让我很生气地事情！

如果我和其他男生要好是我的错
那么我是不是不能有男生的好朋友？！
前提他不也不是我的男友，最多也只能算是好朋友！
自己吃醋然后在facebook block 和unfriend 我 ！
对不起，我接受不到咯！

昨晚我确实很生气，不过现在我连生气他都累了。
因为我想通了，他不值得。
我不必为了他跟自己过意不去。
我不必为了他让自己的心情不好。

就算他现在没有block我了
然而我也已经block他了
虽然现在我没有生气他了
可是他之前所做的
我真的接收不到

16.09.2011

Today I have carried out my experiment that for assignment purpose.

Thanks to my two lab rat that participate in this experiment.

And also thanks to Bear that tag along xD

After we finished our experiment, we went to Midvalley.

At first we planned to watch a movie, but But BUT the queue was damn long :(

So we decided to go play pool! I <3 pool ! 

After that,

Jann 

Bear

and I went to Sushi Zanmai to have our dinner xD

Jann's master piece! awww

He stressed on " This is EATABLE" 

AHAHAHAHAHAHA

Today I'm happy that I meet a friend called Bear.

( for so far I have know about him)

He is nice and a good friend to talk with! xD

Actually today overall is awesome and great until something not good happened.

I just hate people do that to me, just get out of my life.

Pissed.

The following paragraph are full of bad words.
If you are under age please go click "x".
If you don't want read/know please just click "x" too.

15.09.2011

Todayy I went to Cheng Fai's farewell party at  Ampang 大長今.

He is going to UK study soon.

Well, actually I'm not that close with him.

But when I realize that he is leaving, I feel a bit sad.

I got took photo with him but its now not with me.

So I just randomly steal take a photo from his facebook.

The white colour shirt is Cheng Fai 

And the black colour shirt one is Kai Sheng.

I personally think that Cheng Fai is a very nice person.

But in the same time he is also very "废"

He is definitely a funny person to talk with :)

Just wish you all the best in UK and study hard!! xD

We planned that we meet at the restaurant

but at then we all reached there around 10something.

And I don't know why yesterday was so jam.

Sometimes I wonder why traffic here is that jam. WHY?

HAHAHAHA

Jie Jie and Meh Meh !!

Melissa and Stephy !!

Thanks to Cheng Fai that I'm able to meet my Jie Jie and Stephy too!

This was the first time I met them after I came back from Kk.

And hor that day Sze Yung don't know why wear so nice!

Then I took a photo with him :D

Handsome nia ~ =p

After finished our dinner we went for second round!

We went to Cheng Fai's house to cheong k!! =3

We stayed at his house until 4a.m. !!!

I was just finished shower and waiting to go for second round xD

My and my Stephy Babe xD

Meh , Steph and Jie <3

I don't have the group photo, it is with Mei Yan XD

Planning to bug her to upload but she is having exam so just forget about it ~

That's for today :D

14.09.2011

I'm learning to understand more about myself.
I know myself for almost 19 years but what sad to say is I don't understand myself well.
Through day by day, I know a bit more about myself.
Until now, I still don't know what am I thinking and what I feel.
I want to know what's on my mind.
I want to know my true feelings.
I want to know more about me.

I don't like tonight because I don't feel good about tonight.
Just a bit negative and emotional, and I'm going to walk it off.
Good night.

Lenka - The Show

I know this song is old but still I love it.

The lyric describe me the best at this moment.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle 

life is a maze and love is a riddle

I don't know where to go, cant do it alone

I've tried and I don't know why

Slow it down make it stop
or else my heart is going to pop
cause its too much, yea its a lot
to be something I'm not
I'm a fool out of love
cause I just cant get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
life is maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, cant do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why

I'm a just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared and I don't show it
I cant figured it out, its bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show

The sun is hot in the sky
just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the signs
and synchronize in time
Its a joke, nobody knows
They've got a ticket to the show

I'm a just a little bit caught in the middle
life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, cant do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared and I don't know it
i cant figured it out, its bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show

Da dum dee dum da dum dee dum
just enjoy the show
Da dum dee dum da dum dee dum
just enjoy the show

I'm relieve cause at least there is someone there to listen to me.
And I know I'm not alone to face the problem.
Thanks ya :)

Today is a happy day!

Something good happened today.

Wonder what it is?

But I'm not going to tell you  :p

Today went to Midvalley to buy hair dryer!!

I went there with 

Mr Hee :)

One of my good friend!!!

I like to talk to him :)

Wanna know my secret? ASK HIM

Harry! My dear cousin!

He always take good care of me!

He sayang me in another way!

Such as : SCOLD ME :D

I enjoy my day!

I had fun with my friends!

For someone which I don't know whether you will read this or not.

I will remember for what you said to me!

Don't forget to keep your word :D

I will remind you anyway :p hahah

That's all I guess.

See ya =D

09.09.2011

大家好！

近来的我非常弱

一直在食物中毒当中

屁股还被医生打了一枚针

非常感谢我的一位朋友

载我去看医生

还让我去他家过夜

因为学校这里没有营养的食物吃

非常感谢他这三天对我的照顾！

最近的我一直在睡觉

也许是因为药效的关系吧？

哈哈哈哈哈哈和 

好了，不多说

其实只是来这里哈拉几句就要闪人睡觉去

哈哈哈哈

看的明白这个姿势的人

我想你们了

最好给我快快出现我的面前！

自首无罪哦~

06.09.2011

Second semester has started and yet I'm not ready for it.
Holiday mood is so easy to on but difficult to off.
I'm working hard to adapt into kinda "new" environment.
Don't want to complain much about how bad my hostel life is,
but just want to say that a good roommate make your life better!
And what sad to say is , my life now is suck =(

Despite my hostel life is not good, but my college life is not bad.
New subjects are quite challenging and I hope I can handle it well.
I hope I can prepare myself to study before next week start!
I really want to have a good result and I don't want to disappoint my family.

Every time I came back from my hometown, something changed.
Something as in my thoughts, views, opinion and etc.
And I think this is what people call "growing".
Well, everyone is still growing , mentally.

You know what, I'm sick. Homesick.
I miss home >___<

Drunk = Sober

套句老话说：“人生究竟有多少个十年？”

把握当下应该是我们应该做的

何必为了区区那小件事而闹的不开心呢？

有原则固然是件好事

可是有时候太过执著

最辛苦的可能是自己

再套句老话说： “

忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空”

也许忍一下事情能有更美好的结局

或许退一步事情会有不一样的结果

何必为了执著而搞得大风大浪

大风大浪的确有它独特的风味

可是安详的大海不是更好吗？

没有男朋友并不是一件很可悲的事情

也许有时候会很孤单

也是有时候会很羡慕别人的幸福

可是一个人也可得很好

人生并不是只有爱情

还有其他也很重要的成分

好比如说家人，朋友，和信仰

没有爱情，可是我却拥有家人的疼爱

没有爱情，但我却拥有朋友对我的关爱

没有爱情，我还有神对我的不离不弃

没有那个女生不渴望拥有美好的爱情

我也只是个很平凡的女生

只是我觉得没有爱情

我依然还是可以活的很开心

也许有时候会敌不过夜晚的孤单

也许有时候会敌不过一个人的孤独

但这些，只要熬过去就好了

一个人的时候

咬紧牙关

忍一忍就好了

不要为了寂寞而随便找个救生圈

因总有一天我们也会遇到我们一生的挚爱

头疼了

酒精作祟

也许醉了吧

但也是清醒的

不说了

晚安

咩咩 笔

改观

从小我就是个体弱多病的一个女生，没有弱不禁风但却很容易生病。
以前我很喜欢生病，因为我喜欢被人关心，照顾，和呵护的感觉。
被人关心和呵护真的感觉很幸福，人都是希望被爱护的。
可是经过了昨天晚上，某些事情让我改观了。
我不再向往生病，反之我更渴慕有一个健康的身体。
昨晚也许是因为情绪高昂，和朋友聊天聊得太兴奋了，哮喘发作了。
这是我第一次感觉自己真的快要窒息，感觉随时都会忘了呼吸而死掉。
用了Inhaler，但却没有效果。只好吃我最讨厌的药丸。
我不喜欢那药丸因为它会有副作用，手会一直发抖，使不上力。
也许是因为inhaler用太多，然后又再吃药，心脏有点小小负荷不了。
无需把脉，无需用手去放在胸口上，我都能清楚感觉到我心脏的律动。
扑通，扑通，扑通。它跳得比平时的快很多，好像快要跳出来了。
这一次，我的心真的“痛”了。
那时候我才发现，原来，心脏是脆弱的。
那时候我很感触，传了一封很奇怪的短讯给我一位朋友。
我告诉她，我很喜欢别人对我照顾到无微不至，但我更渴望有一幅健康的身体。
呼吸困难真的很辛苦，情绪太过高昂对我来说也是一种负担。
有时候我会很怀疑，我这副烂身体能支撑多久？
我想这个问题只有我们的神才能解答 :)