24th September 2012

I promised him to blog about this, so that's why I'm here. LOL
I'm the kind of person who will keep my promise but it might be delayed. hoho~

Last year 24th September was the day that I started a journey together with HIM.
The beginning of this journey was not easy, because there were a lot of obstacles.
However, we managed to overcome those obstacles together with each other.
I was once thought about giving up during that time, but luckily I did not made that choice.
He was the one who stood firmly for our relationship.
He had eased all doubts, insecure, and sorrow during back time.
He was the one who held me tightly when I thought of giving up.
I feel so lucky that his faith was so strong during the hard times.

He said he fall in love with me at first sight.
He said he love me first before I've even fell for him.
He said he slim down just because to see me.

I was touched when I heard for what he said.
A guy who fell for you just because of a fb picture?
A guy who still insist to love you even after met in real life?
A guy who exercise extremely to slim down just to meet you?
Okay, I'm touched =)

He still loves me although I'm not the girl that he expected
He pamper me a lot no matter in what circumstances.
He had never really scolded me from the beginning until now.
He has almost all the qualities that a girl who wish her bf would have.
He is not anyone but a very important person to me.
As he is my guy, my man, my bf Enough talking, lets the picture to tell the story :)

A surprise from HIM

Wo de sha bao bei!

A gift from HIM

Dinner time

HIM

ME

The guy that would act silly with me in front of the camera! 

Love this picture and I don't know why! >.<

Gift for Him

A very ugly scrapbook that made by me T_T

A card that my by meee :)

L.O.V.E

Put everything inside the box, including a disc.

A disc that full with love <3 p="p">

HIS & HERS

Lastly, end this post with his fav picture of us <3 p="p">

 Good night! 

04.10.2012

Thought of planning to blog about my birthday and my anniversary as I promised to someone.
But I've change my mind, I think maybe it's time for me to do some reflection and improve.
Thought of writing this in Chinese, but don't know why ended up with English. LOL

I know that I'm lacking some skills that is vital for survival in this society.
I know that I have tons of shortcomings that could affect my survival in this society.
Yet, I'm learning them bit by bit and improving in a very slow pace.
Indeed I've changed and improved, and I thought I had a good progress.
But in fact, it was not enough at all. At least, not good enough.
There are still more things for me to be improved, tons of them.

Sometimes I speak without processing the words carefully,
and it ended up with offence or hurt other people.
I didn't really meant to be sarcastic or bragged,
I just blurted out as a joke and I know it's a bad joke.
I only realized it after the words was out of my mouth.
I know this would damage the relationship,
but it was not my intention at all and I don't want this to happen either.
So, sometimes I rather to keep my mouth shut,
because I'm afraid of getting people offence of what I said.
As I really don't want to lose any friends because of this silly mistake.
I try to change when I realized, but it has already became one of my bad habit.
I will try my best to learn how to talk wisely, but it takes times.
I hope it's not too late for me to start changing right now.

Sometimes, when I get frustrated or annoyed by something,
I will show a "shit face" without realizing I was doing it,
and throw a temper in front of people without realizing it.
Maybe it seems to be so normal for me to behave in such way,
therefore me myself is not even aware of such misbehavior.
I know that I have a bad temper since long time ago.
When I say bad temper, it is really BAD.
Although I have changed and my temper is not as bad as LAST time.
However, it is still "not good enough".
I know the people around me do not deserve for my bad temper.
For people who tolerate with me, they are just simply being kind to me.
But I know that they don't owe me, they can just push me away.
So, I want to change for my own good and also a return for them.
I am trying to improve my temper, trying so hard, yet little progress.
Because of this, I also make other people upset about me.

I'm a person who have a short "antenna"- insensitive
I don't realize my misbehavior as it has became a bad habit of mine.
So, I really need someone to point out my shortcomings for me.
As I really did not realized about what I've done was bad or
I didn't even realized about it at all.

Sometimes, I feel like there is something wrong with me.
The something wrong here means a weakness.
I really want to change but I do not know what is that weakness.
I cannot pinpoint the flaws by myself, as my eyes are folded by my big ego.

If I've said or done anything stupid that offense you, I'm really sorry about that.
I promised I will try my best to improve my weaknesses.
But I don't guarantee how efficient I am going to be.
After all, I'm just a normal human that with lots of weakness waiting for me to improve.

18.09.2012

Yesterday, I was burning the midnight oil.

As I was reading journals to prepare today's meeting.

And what he did was really touching.
He stayed awake and accompanied me throughout the night.

He made a cup of coffee for me to stay alert.

He entertained me whenever I was sleepy or bored.

He can choose to sleep on his comfy bed, but he didn't.

He chose to stay awake just to accompany me.

Throughout the night that we spent together, I realized something.

I love the way how we talk to each other.

I love the way we love each other.

And I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with this man.

08.09.2012

Currently having mood swing.
It was like falling down from heaven to hell.
Tears was like unstoppable.
It burst out from my eyes, I cant stop it.
If you were to ask me what's wrong with me,
I would tell you that I have no idea at all too.
Maybe my life was too happy and I have stored too much of tears.
So maybe it's time for me to get rid some of them?
Like my friend said, just like a sea turtle?
Or perhaps my mood swings is due to hormone imbalance?
Currently having period, so I think it's okay for me to be emotional?
Insomnia, no idea is because of mood swing or I slept too early just now?
Maybe crying is just a way to make me feel tired so that can fall asleep easily?
But I guess it doesn't work at all, at least not yet?
"A song of storm and fire"- the song that best described my mood swing.
I think I should watch some anime to calm myself down.
Night.

12.08.2012

Time past in a blink of an eye.
Bf is back to Semenanjung already.
Currently experiencing "temporarily" long distance relationship
We are 1623.48KM apart from each other
But our love will never be deteriorated due to distance.
As we promised each other,
We will hold each other hands to face any obstacle.
Although he just left, but I started to miss him already.
23 days without him, it's not the end of the world.
But it is definitely a hard time for both of us.

We have taken many photos during this trip,
but I do not have all of them yet,
so stay tune for the coming post.
I will blog more detail IF I'm in a "good" mood,
or just upload the pictures and let the pictures tell the story
IF I'm in a lazy mood. LOL

Byee =)

04.08.2012

Was wondering how to start this post and what to blog about.
I guess it's my responsibility to keep this blog "alive". LOL
Just briefly talk about my current life, a small update to you all.
I'm having a long long holiday which is one and a half month.
Half month is gone, and one month to go and I'm going back to hometown soon.
You know what? Bf is coming back together with me =)
BUT he is sick now =( Slight fever, hope he get well soon!!
Haven't pack my luggage yetttt! Just don't feel like doing so, LAZY!
Hope you guys enjoy your day too :)

02.08.2012

I have always take my hat off to elderly people. Most of the times.
Because they had been through a lot of things in their life.
They are wise. They knew a lot of things about life and people.
That's the reason that I came out after all the things that I been through in my life.
It took me almost twenty years to come to that realization.
I used to be the most naughty child in my family, most rebellious. But I've changed.
I tend to "lecture" the younger one, because I don't want them to repeat that mistake that I did.
If you don't like it, I cut it off. That's my way of doing stuff. I wouldn't feel offended at all.
But you asked me to cut it off and criticized me? That's really annoyed me a lot.
I don't know whether your criticism was just a joke or what, but I feel offended by you.
I may be not as smart as you, and I may be wrong for certain things.
But criticize me in that manner, that's really pissed me off.

Hey kid,
you didn't see what I saw,
you didn't hear what I heard,
you didn't feel what I felt,
and you never experienced what I had been through of my entire life.

You are tired of my "lectures", I'm fine with that.
You told me to stop and I stopped.
Maybe there is a generation gap and that's explain why you don't understand my jokes.
But, you can't criticize me in that manner.

Fine, I would never ever try to "lecture" you anymore.

26.07.2012

People walk in and out of our life.
Who stay and who leave a significant trace?
Is this controllable or uncontrollable?

I think,
We cant control who is going to walk in,
but we are capable to decide who to stay or leave.
We cannot control what is going to happen on us,
but we can choose to how to react and respond.

We cant blame everything on nature,
nurture has responsibility on the outcome too.
This is a typical grey area.
Right or wrong? Depend on how you perceive it.

12.07.2012

Day before my last paper for final examination.

No mood to study at all, lack of motivation.

Anyway, I'm still trying hard to study. I guess. LOL

 Yesterday I had made a cover of Sayang Kinabalu by Kimin Mudin.

*trying to release some stress >_<*

This song was taught by sister

 when I wan back in home during semester break

Our family seems to be love music and enjoy singing =)

This video suppose to be up here yesterday

But the hostel's internet connection is "TOO FAST"

Have to keep trying to upload this video and now finally succeed.

LOLOLOLOL

Anyway, enjoy the video =)

Sorry for the low quality of the video ><

Lyric

Tinggi Tinggi Gunung Kinabalu

Tinggi lagi sayang sama kamu

Biru-biru hujung Kinabalu

Tengok dari jauh

Hati saya rindu

Kinabalu dekat di Kundasang

Banyak sayur boleh pilih-pilih

Apa guna pergi luar negeri

naik Kinabalu

Hati saya rindu

Semundak-semundak pun ramai menunggu 

Menari-nari lenggang sumayao

Sekali melihat melepak kulitnya

Sayang jatuh cinta

Sayang-sayang sayang Kinabalu

Keamatan pesta bulan lima

Sayang-sayang kita pergi tamu

Jalan Tamparuli 

Hati saya rindu

Sayang-sayang kita pergi tamu

Jalan Tamparuli

Hati saya rindu

Lastly, please wish me good luck for my final paper.

Need it so much! Pray hard for me ya ~~ ><

Wish you all have a good day too =)

Is Malaysia consider as a safe country? I wonder, and ponder and hope it is.
Every time I read newspaper, there will always have negative news.
I don't know whether is the media was exaggerating about the truth,
or this is what really going on in this country, Malaysia.
I'm tired of seeing those politic news.
The victims of the war between politicians is us, the people.
Seeing politicians fighting over for power, I'm sure there will be excitement,
but I guess there will be something called disappointment and suffers as well.
Despite of that, the safety issue has become a hot issue in Malaysia.
You can read a lot of news about this everywhere, facebook, twitter, and newspaper.
Just be extra careful and stay alert!

p/s: this is just a boring post but yet a feeling of mine toward Malaysia. LOL

21.06.2012

人生就好像一列正在行驶的火车

马不停蹄的向前行驶

从一个站到下一个站

错过了就回不到上一个站

就好像时间不能倒退

在这世界上没有什么事

是不会不过去

因为

世上无难事

只怕有心人

放开心胸

看看那辽阔的天空

告诉自己

今天会很好

明天会更好

就好像3 Idiots 的一句经典台词

"All Izz Well"

Just bored.

我常常会沉醉在自己的世界里

不去理会外面的人事物

只管呆在自己的安全区

不去想，不去看，烦恼不存在

有一段时间

我是这样安慰自己

活在自己所编织的谎言

世界的奥秘太深奥

人际关系的微妙太复杂

尽管多么的努力

最后得到的

也只有像那四个字一样

空空如也

到最后

我学会的

也只有

不要太执著

不然

到最后

受伤的

是自己的心灵

人类的心太脆弱

一碰就碎

所以要好好保管

PSY 216 Presentaiton

Yesterday was my PSY216 presentation!

Well, overall was okay.

Quite satisfied with my performance. lol

We took quite a lot of pictures after our presentation =D

This is my group :) 

Second Row starting from left :

Me, Winnie, Seow Yun, Shey Ni

The only guy there is our group leader, Mavic

Mavic complained that his head look so big in the first photo

That's why we took again!

Peace ? LOL

These three are my lovely college mates who I always hang out with

They all like to bully me ! lol

The caption for this photo in instagram :

"why I'm always the one who hold the camera?!?!" 

HAHAHAHA

Our Pity look after presentation! 

Seow Yun why you always like to make my face look bigger than yours?!

HAHA >_<

My lovely and talkative woman! HAHA

See! They always want me to hold the camera! 

>_<

This beautiful also is my group mate for PSY205!

By the way, she is Xin Ying =)

Blogging in the early in the morning!

Later afternoon got proposal dense with Ms Winnie and tutors!!

Wish me good luck yo >_<

P/s: I miss my boyf  

Our latest photo that took in his grandma's house

He look cute with his BIG EYES!

Computer hug!!! 

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*this computer hug is invented by him*