04.01.2013

It's raining cat and dog. Thunder and lightning are partying.
When these combined together, it terrified people especially children.
When I was a child, I used to be afraid of thunder and lightning.
There is one piece of my memories that is unforgettable.
I remembered there was a time which rain heavily with thunder and lightning.
I was alone, I suppose I was playing with myself.
When the thunder struck, I quickly ran into my mother's arms.
I feel safe and secure when I am around with her.
Heavy downpour and thunder always able to strike my homesick.
Because it remind me of my mother and home.
I'm blogging this at hostel, alone and away from my home.
The rain is almost stop and the dark cloud had started to scatter.
Although the rainbow is still hiding behind somewhere,
but I know it's time to stop indulging in homesickness.
It's time to move on and rock my world!

02.01.2013 - Malaysia. Boleh.

Recently, there was an incident that caused an uproar in society.
A teenager who was arrested because of attempted to rape a lady in a gas station's toilet.
The news had spread on Facebook tremendously before it was on the newspaper.
In my opinion, there were two reasons why this incident had caused public indignation.
Firstly, the age of the perpetrator. A teenage boy who tried to rape a young female adult?
This should be the front-page of the newspaper! However, it didn't. Malaysia.
Flashback when you are a teenager, where were you doing at that time?
When I was a teenager, I was playing with my neighbours at the playground.
How about you all? I bet you wouldn't try to rape people like the boy did.
This incident really shocked me when I first read the post on Facebook.
It made me wondered what did his parents taught him.
It made me doubted the quality of Malaysia's education system.
It made me start to worry about the humanity and morality of youngsters.
The world is changing, and I wonder it is still at the "right" track.
The second thing that caused public outrage was the police's attitude.
The police asked whether or not to let the boy go. Do you think this is the right way?
For me, NO. The boy's intention had told us there must be something wrong about the boy.
Although he is still young, but don't you think the victim deserve a justice?
I'm not saying that the boy should go to jail or what.
At least he should be taught about what is right and what is wrong.
A simple principle and yet the police failed to understand.
I strongly doubted the quality of the police.
Not all the polices are like that, but there will always some black sheep among them.

Well, I guess this is what people called "reality".

01.01.2013

What was the most memorable things happened on 2012?
A question I heard from radio when I was in the car this afternoon.

The first thing that came across in my mind was my first anniversary.
Despite that night had an argument with Him, it was still a wonderful and unforgettable day.
I know he had put a lot of effort to make this day memorable for both of us.
Well, his effort paid off. At least, I will not forget what happened on 24th September 2012.
Besides that, 14th February 2012 was also unforgettable to me too.
It was my first time in life to celebrate Valentine's day, and for him as well.
That day, after my class finished and heading back to meet someone.
I saw a well-dressed guy with a bouquet of rose standing not far away from me.
He was not anyone, but my love one. He is not only my lover, but also one of my family.
Like other couples, we will fight and argue, but we are still loving each other.
Although he is not perfect and has weaknesses, but I'm glad and happy to have him.
Baby, just want you to know that I love you!

Apart from my love story, the most  memorable day in uni life was Colloquium presentation.
 I'm not a good public speaker. I got extremely nervous when I do public speaking.
I have no choice but to overcome my stage fright. Bit-by-bit, I learn to become a good speaker.
Thanks to my lecturer, Ms Winnie who gave me a chance to present in Colloquium.
Also not to forget to thanks my group mates who did a very good job in our assignment!

Lastly,I had a memorable and meaningful conversation with a good friend.
She has successful opened my Pandora's box and make me cried. HAHA
The fact was she unintentionally made me shared my inner feelings with her.
Anyway, I have learnt a lot from her, especially during the conversation we had.

This is my answer if you were to ask me
"What was the most memorable things happened on 2012"

The world did not end at 21st December 2012 as what the rumors said.
For me, it actually means just live your life fullest!
Happy New Year to all of you!!

宝贝

近来他都很忙

最近这几个礼拜都没有睡好

希望这首歌能让他有个好眠

宝贝，别忙坏身子

我爱你 =)

12.12.2012

Its common that people inside their cars pose those weird poses to passerby.
I don't know whether you have this kind of experience or not, but I met some before.
It's not surprise for me if there are people posing weird pose to me inside their car.
Actually I found this quite amusing because those people are adults.
As an adult, posing such childish,ignorance or rather stupid poses to a passerby?
Seriously, I despise you and shame for you. For me, they are just making fun on themselves.
So, normally I will just ignore them, pretend you see nothing.
The reason why I bring up this issue is this happened to me on this morning.
If the "people" are normal citizens, then there is nothing big deal about it. Because its normal.
BUT, this time, the "people" is an authority figure, a policeman.
Today when I was waiting to cross the road, a police car passed by me.
The police car's speed was not fast, at least it was slow enough for me to notice the policeman's silly act.
The policeman in the passenger seat look at me and posed a peace sign with a silly and ugly smile to me.
And I was like, excuse me? A policeman? An authority figure? Seriously, I was speechless.
At that moment, what I felt was only disappointment and despair.
Although I understand that not all the policemen are like that, but that policeman really .........
All I can say is that policeman had jeopardized the policeman's image.
If there is a chance that the head of policemen is reading this,
PLEASE, make sure all the policemen outside are qualified to be a policeman.

领悟

计划永远赶不上变化

我永远赶不上改变的速度

只能停懈在过去

反复着重播我们的过去

告别1字头

迎接2字头

我们都不小了，该长大了

各自追寻自己的梦想

仿佛你走你的阳关道

而我走我的独木桥

随着时间与距离的侵蚀

彼此的亲密度也被腐蚀了

坦白说

一开始的心

犹如刀割

一天一天过去了

受伤的心终于止血了

但却碎了

好不容易复原

却多了一道伤疤

刚愈合的伤口

偶尔还是会阵痛

那痛，让我放弃了

一天一天又过去了

终于不再钻牛角尖

心胸放宽一点

学习不再执著

世界变快乐了

后来领悟到

原来改变有时候也意味着成长

适时候的改变

对你或我可能不是件坏事

也许当下是难以接受

但当改用平常心去看待时

世界又变更美丽了

今夜的我沦陷了

沉沦在那快乐回忆

想起我们以前的点点滴滴

嘴角不自觉的往上

原来我笑了

谢谢你们给我一个美好的回忆

有多少苦痛有你和我一起度過 一起承受

有多少快樂有你和我一起享受 一起感動

29.11.2012

Time flies. Wonder whether it's my illusion or time just pass quicker nowadays?
Officially done with all assignments. Hooray~ No more assignment!
But I still have one more presentation on this Saturday. Hope I can do my best.
Anyway, final is around the corner. Two more weeks to go.
My last exam is on 19/12/2012 which is two days before "the end of the world".
There is rumors going around about the world is going to end at that day.
Do you believe about this? @.@ I don't really believe about this though.
But if the world really ends, I hope it ends in a split second without pain. LOL

Yesterday I went to watch Twilight with my bf.
The movie was awesome. Bella looks so cool with her red contact lens!
Besides, The Cullen family is so arrogant! <3 awesome="awesome" is="is" p="p" twilight="twilight">You should watch it if you haven't watch yet.
By the way, there is one thing that I really don't understand.
Why male dislike twilight so much? It's a good movie! >-<

This is just an update from me =D
Have a nice day ~  

23.11.2012

虽然我没有很叛逆，但从来也没有很乖。

小时候的缺点，多的数不完。

我顽皮，顶嘴，不听话，还有人人所谓的“硬颈”。

在兄弟姐妹当中，“吃”最多藤条的是我。

到了中学，脾气更是坏到不行。

常常把我妈妈气到跳脚。

对，我就是那么的不乖。

我有一位长辈，是男的。

从以前开始我就知道他不喜欢我。

在那么多兄弟姐妹当中，他就是不喜欢我。

而我从来也没有当一回事。

以为我就是不合他眼缘。

可是后来从别人口中得知原来一切都是有原因的。

原来就是因为我不乖和叛逆。

的确，不乖和叛逆不讨人喜欢。

可是我从来都不会对长辈不尊重。

虽然有时候会顶撞父母，

也会和兄弟姐妹吵大架，

但是对长辈的最基本礼貌，我还是有的。

可是他就是从来不给我好脸色看。

我心想

就算你有多不喜欢我

难道不可以假装疼我一下吗？

难道给我好脸色看就真的那么难吗？

给我的关爱非得要那么吝啬吗？

就算是那样，可以不要那么明显吗？

那时我虽小，可我还懂得如何看人的脸色。

我确实是不乖

我也的确有叛逆过

可是人是会成长的

我也是有长大的一天和懂事的时候

如果我当年没有不乖和叛逆

那么我就不知道当时的我有多不孝和愚蠢

现在也不会时时警惕自己

要懂事

要孝顺

要尊重

和

要乖

小孩子需要的是

鼓励和关爱

虽然训话也很重要

但是不要对一个小孩表现厌恶

那小孩的心灵会受伤的

伤口已结疤

小孩也已变乖

迟来的接纳

却哭笑不得

以前写博客单纯只是为了打发时间和分享自己的生活。

当发现开始有人关注我的博客时，感觉还满享受的？

可是现在写博客的心情和刚开始写的时候不一样了。

两年前我开始了这博客，第一年我写了245篇。

几乎天天都有在更新，但去年却只写了181篇。

而将要结束的今年，目前只写了34篇。

有看到那大幅度的下滑吗？ 数字是无法骗人的！

究竟是为什么呢？为什么不再天天更新了呢？

看回以前写的东西，就觉得自己好幼稚好蠢。

以前写博客时，我可以完全不去顾虑别人的感受。

现在长大了，渐渐开始懂得有些事，只能摆在心里。

因为长大了，所以不再肆言无忌，学习隐藏。

每当写到一半的时候，自己会问“这样写可以吗？”

太多感受要顾虑，所以我放弃了在这里述说我的思绪。

Learning is an endless process. 

People should never stop learning. 

So, people change throughout their life.

When I was chatting with my friend yesterday,

which told me exactly the same thing.

Indeed, change is inevitable in life.

However, the point is whether the changes are good or bad.

This was what I replied my friend.

Two years ago, when I first came here, I was naive. 

Now, I'm no longer that naive anymore.

My perspective on many things have changed.

I have been through a lot of things as well.

And I learned things that teachers/lectures wont teach in class.

First and foremost, I learned to appreciate my family.

Children only learn how important is family when they leave home.

They are the only one who will love you for who you are.

No matter how bad the fight you had with your family,

they will still forgive and forget.

After all, we share the same blood in our body.

Besides, I also learned not to have too much of expectation.

Sometimes, expectation is the one that tear people's heart apart.

My heart was once engulfed by mountain of sorrow,

because of the reality doesn't match with my expectation.

Certain of expectation, nevertheless, is good for us.

But, bear in mind that high expectation can stop your heartbeat. 

There are

23.11.2012

26th September 2012

26th September 1992
A baby girl, that's me, was born.
Millions thanks to my parents for bringing me into this world.
For me, birthday is just an opportunity for gathering and presents! HAHA
But sometimes a happy birthday would be perfectly fine for me.
Because someone remember your birthday *without looking on fb's reminder*

I don't like surprise.
But if you insist to give me one? Feel free to do so. LOL
But don't expect me to give you the "surprise" look @_@
I didn't pretend to not to be surprised, I swear~
It's just that I don't know how to express "surprise".

Anyway, I had a fastastic birthday this year.
I had a one month early pre-celebration with my family! LOL
I had received many blessings from all my family and friends on my birthday.
College mates had successfully "surprise" me =)
A gathering with my crazy friends, although some were not there. >.<
And a mini yet warmth celebration with boyfriend and his family ^.^

I got unexpected birthday presents from friends, him and his family.
Seriously, never expect that I would receive those things.

My lovely college mates gave me a cupboard!
They showed up at hostel with this heavy present and a cake day before my birthday!
Seriously, so touched and surprise! They are so lovely and cute!
They planned to assemble the cupboard for me, but end up I assemble it myself. LOL
It was an interesting experience, first time assemble a cupboard myself =) HOHO
The moment I finished assembling the cupboard, I felt the sense of accomplishment!

Thank you to my lovely college mates: Seow Yun, Shey Ni and Winnie 

Love you all so muchhhhhhhhh !!!!! =)

My collections of books and present from him


Had a great dinner with my crazy friends day before my birthday

But there were two person missing =(

One flew to Portsmouth to study

One was busy on that day =(((((((

Anyway, had a great time with them =)

Boyfriend said he booked me on 26/09/12

So, no choice I have to spend my birthday together with him HAHA =p

We had a lunch at midvalley and window shopping for awhile.

Then, back his home and had dinner and CAKE, CHEESE CAKE!

Him

ME

Me with my cake =)

*Ignore my outfit* 

Boyfiend and I =)

He looks happier than the birthday girl!

 

His Brother: Wah Wah, Him and Me =)

Cake, CHEESE CAKE! My favorite cake !!

*don't know why I cant rotate this picture =(*

Got a colorful bracelet from his mother, Auntie Grace =)

Got a pen from him ~~ 

Biibii, Thank you so much for everything !! ^.^

Overall, I had a wonderful birthday =)

24th September 2012

I promised him to blog about this, so that's why I'm here. LOL
I'm the kind of person who will keep my promise but it might be delayed. hoho~

Last year 24th September was the day that I started a journey together with HIM.
The beginning of this journey was not easy, because there were a lot of obstacles.
However, we managed to overcome those obstacles together with each other.
I was once thought about giving up during that time, but luckily I did not made that choice.
He was the one who stood firmly for our relationship.
He had eased all doubts, insecure, and sorrow during back time.
He was the one who held me tightly when I thought of giving up.
I feel so lucky that his faith was so strong during the hard times.

He said he fall in love with me at first sight.
He said he love me first before I've even fell for him.
He said he slim down just because to see me.

I was touched when I heard for what he said.
A guy who fell for you just because of a fb picture?
A guy who still insist to love you even after met in real life?
A guy who exercise extremely to slim down just to meet you?
Okay, I'm touched =)

He still loves me although I'm not the girl that he expected
He pamper me a lot no matter in what circumstances.
He had never really scolded me from the beginning until now.
He has almost all the qualities that a girl who wish her bf would have.
He is not anyone but a very important person to me.
As he is my guy, my man, my bf Enough talking, lets the picture to tell the story :)

A surprise from HIM

Wo de sha bao bei!

A gift from HIM

Dinner time

HIM

ME

The guy that would act silly with me in front of the camera! 

Love this picture and I don't know why! >.<

Gift for Him

A very ugly scrapbook that made by me T_T

A card that my by meee :)

L.O.V.E

Put everything inside the box, including a disc.

A disc that full with love <3 p="p">

HIS & HERS

Lastly, end this post with his fav picture of us <3 p="p">

 Good night! 

04.10.2012

Thought of planning to blog about my birthday and my anniversary as I promised to someone.
But I've change my mind, I think maybe it's time for me to do some reflection and improve.
Thought of writing this in Chinese, but don't know why ended up with English. LOL

I know that I'm lacking some skills that is vital for survival in this society.
I know that I have tons of shortcomings that could affect my survival in this society.
Yet, I'm learning them bit by bit and improving in a very slow pace.
Indeed I've changed and improved, and I thought I had a good progress.
But in fact, it was not enough at all. At least, not good enough.
There are still more things for me to be improved, tons of them.

Sometimes I speak without processing the words carefully,
and it ended up with offence or hurt other people.
I didn't really meant to be sarcastic or bragged,
I just blurted out as a joke and I know it's a bad joke.
I only realized it after the words was out of my mouth.
I know this would damage the relationship,
but it was not my intention at all and I don't want this to happen either.
So, sometimes I rather to keep my mouth shut,
because I'm afraid of getting people offence of what I said.
As I really don't want to lose any friends because of this silly mistake.
I try to change when I realized, but it has already became one of my bad habit.
I will try my best to learn how to talk wisely, but it takes times.
I hope it's not too late for me to start changing right now.

Sometimes, when I get frustrated or annoyed by something,
I will show a "shit face" without realizing I was doing it,
and throw a temper in front of people without realizing it.
Maybe it seems to be so normal for me to behave in such way,
therefore me myself is not even aware of such misbehavior.
I know that I have a bad temper since long time ago.
When I say bad temper, it is really BAD.
Although I have changed and my temper is not as bad as LAST time.
However, it is still "not good enough".
I know the people around me do not deserve for my bad temper.
For people who tolerate with me, they are just simply being kind to me.
But I know that they don't owe me, they can just push me away.
So, I want to change for my own good and also a return for them.
I am trying to improve my temper, trying so hard, yet little progress.
Because of this, I also make other people upset about me.

I'm a person who have a short "antenna"- insensitive
I don't realize my misbehavior as it has became a bad habit of mine.
So, I really need someone to point out my shortcomings for me.
As I really did not realized about what I've done was bad or
I didn't even realized about it at all.

Sometimes, I feel like there is something wrong with me.
The something wrong here means a weakness.
I really want to change but I do not know what is that weakness.
I cannot pinpoint the flaws by myself, as my eyes are folded by my big ego.

If I've said or done anything stupid that offense you, I'm really sorry about that.
I promised I will try my best to improve my weaknesses.
But I don't guarantee how efficient I am going to be.
After all, I'm just a normal human that with lots of weakness waiting for me to improve.

18.09.2012

Yesterday, I was burning the midnight oil.

As I was reading journals to prepare today's meeting.

And what he did was really touching.
He stayed awake and accompanied me throughout the night.

He made a cup of coffee for me to stay alert.

He entertained me whenever I was sleepy or bored.

He can choose to sleep on his comfy bed, but he didn't.

He chose to stay awake just to accompany me.

Throughout the night that we spent together, I realized something.

I love the way how we talk to each other.

I love the way we love each other.

And I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with this man.