我常说 “真正的委屈是说不出口”
那么也许说出来，就变得不委屈了吧？
我来自的地方和这里相比之下
我的城市突然变得好小
那么，容许我自称“小城市的女孩”
坦白说，大城市和小城市真的有差
大城市的人说话都比较拐弯抹角
小城市的人说话都比较直肠直肚
来自小城市的我说话比较直，比较冲
不像大城市的人说话总是会有所保留
那么，容许我自称“来自小城市的直肠直肚的女孩”
我这人天生一副“臭”脸
如果我不笑的话，脸真的比臭豆腐还要臭
可是我不笑的时候，不代表我真的不爽或生气
好啦，我知道我的脾气不是说很好
就算有那一瞬间我真的有不爽
可是我会很快收拾自己的心情
我也许是有点情绪化，脾气也不是很好
可是当我不笑的时候，我不一定是在发脾气
那么，容许我自称“来自小城市的直肠直肚的臭脸女孩”
所以当这位“来自小城市的直肠直肚的臭脸女孩”来到大城市时
她，有点适应不良。有句话还真的说得好，“江山易改，本性难移”
就算她再怎么努力改掉说话很冲得性格都好
她始终都做不到像大城市的人说话那么八面玲珑
就算她没有“很冲”的意识，大城市人也会觉得被冒犯
有时候她不笑的时候，就算没有发脾气
也会被别人误以为是在发大小姐脾气
她也很无可奈何，因为脸是天生的呀
难道要她一天二十四小时都在笑吗？
她，不善于表达。尽管很努力尝试表达自己所见，
也只会让人觉得“这人很固执”
当她放弃发言权，别人又误以为她在发脾气
可是没有人会想到她也许只是累了放弃了
她不想让人觉得她是个太过执著和顽固的人
所以选择不说话，安静下来，安抚自己的情绪
可是天生“臭”脸的她，却让别人误以为在闹情绪
说真的，
活在别人的眼光里好累。
尝试做个大城市的人也好累。
一直被人误会的感觉更累。
我尝试了，可我永远都只会是个
“来自小城市的直肠直肚的臭脸女孩”
别人眼光里的鄙视，厌恶与误会
带给了我无形的压力，悲伤与委屈
坦白说，我也厌倦这样的自己
我不想要一直活在别人的眼光之下
我努力过，可是我却还是我
我改不了我那小城市的性格
我累了，也放弃了
我学会不要那么在乎别人的眼光
我学会不渴望别人接纳的眼神
我学会了更懂得保护和爱惜自己
我常说 “真正的委屈是说不出口”
那么说出来的委屈就再也不委屈了
做人当自强，在那里跌倒就要在那里爬起来。
Never pretend to become someone who is not you.
It's okay to strike to become a better person.
But pretending someone else is you, that's not the case.
It's inevitable that people will evaluate and judge you.
But they don't know the story behind your name.
Just because of you are not like them,
doesn't mean you are not good enough.
I am who I am.
I'm proud of myself.
My name is Melissa Sen Yen Yen.
Saturday, March 9, 2013
Monday, March 4, 2013
For HIM
从来没想过幸福会那么靠近我
这一切一切都要归功于你
如果没有你出现在我生命里
我想我不会像现在那么幸福
这世界上除了父母
我想也只有你那么傻
会把我当成公主疼爱
对了
我有没有告诉你
如果我是个公主
那么我绝对是个
野蛮公主
这世界上除了家人
也只有你那么傻
会无条件的包容我
火爆的脾气
大小家的性格
还有所谓双重标准
我想也只有你那么傻
无条件的包容我
有时候
我自己也很怀疑
你为什么会爱上我
心想自己的缺点可不少的我
还有什么值得被你爱
哈哈
宝贝啊，为什么你会那么爱我呢？
你可知道你的爱会把我宠坏吗？
谢谢你那么爱我
在这陌生的城市里
因为有你在这里
我才有“家”的感觉
是你在这陌生的城市里给了我个家
你不但给了我你的爱
还与我分享你父母对你的爱
有时候真的觉得你好傻
宝贝，要记得多疼惜自己呀！
傻猪
你那么爱我
我怎能不爱你呢
我不但会爱你
而且还会越来越爱你哦
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Happy Birthday to Seow Yun
Last year I promised you to make a handmade present for your 2012 birthday.
Actually I prepared this for long time, but I didn't managed to finished it due to many reasons.
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HAPPY 21st Birthday Seow Yun! HEHE =D
Actually I prepared this for long time, but I didn't managed to finished it due to many reasons.
Can you see the yellow package that I pinned on my board?
Yes, it's your belated handmade birthday present!
I pinned it there for almost a year already I guess? HAHA
Although this present is a year late, but finally I finished it in this year before your birthday!
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It suppose to be look like this! HEHEHE
Can you the card? Actually I wrote that in 2012! LOL
Sorry for the BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT!
It's something simple, reallyyyyyy SIMPLE from me.
29.01.2013
Grownup world is not as fun as what I expected when I was a kid. The older I become, the greater the fear toward it. Life is not easy, especially grownup world. Never expect life to be easy on you. This was what I have been told by my lecturer. But who doesn't want to have an easy life? It's our nature for wanting a good life. Unfortunately, sometimes what we got is only disappointment. Last time, I used to think that friends should accept you unconditionally for who you are. However, the reality doesn't work that way. I understand the fact that not everyone will like you and accept you for who you are. But at least, you will hope that the one you see as friend will like you and accept you. Well, sometimes things just don't work as what you wish. I had been turned down by my "friends" because of my bad habit or rather my weaknesses. Perhaps we just couldn't click with each other I guess? That's the only reason I can keep telling myself. Although I really want to get along well with a group of friends, but sometimes I just feel that I don't belong to this group. I feel like I am an outsider. No matter how hard you tried, you just feel like the chemistry is not right! No common topics and interests at all. Sometimes, it make me wonder am I normal? Perhaps I am the outlier. Sometimes, even if you put a lot of effort to maintain the friendships, it doesn't guarantee that your effort will paid off. Well, maybe this is what we called "LIFE". People always said that you must treasure your high school friends because they are the one who be friend with you regardless of who you are. Somehow I think this is quite true to me. OF COURSE, you may meet some true friends even after high school life. I met some, I guess? How about you?
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Friday, January 4, 2013
04.01.2013
It's raining cat and dog. Thunder and lightning are partying.
When these combined together, it terrified people especially children.
When I was a child, I used to be afraid of thunder and lightning.
There is one piece of my memories that is unforgettable.
I remembered there was a time which rain heavily with thunder and lightning.
I was alone, I suppose I was playing with myself.
When the thunder struck, I quickly ran into my mother's arms.
I feel safe and secure when I am around with her.
Heavy downpour and thunder always able to strike my homesick.
Because it remind me of my mother and home.
I'm blogging this at hostel, alone and away from my home.
The rain is almost stop and the dark cloud had started to scatter.
Although the rainbow is still hiding behind somewhere,
but I know it's time to stop indulging in homesickness.
It's time to move on and rock my world!
When these combined together, it terrified people especially children.
When I was a child, I used to be afraid of thunder and lightning.
There is one piece of my memories that is unforgettable.
I remembered there was a time which rain heavily with thunder and lightning.
I was alone, I suppose I was playing with myself.
When the thunder struck, I quickly ran into my mother's arms.
I feel safe and secure when I am around with her.
Heavy downpour and thunder always able to strike my homesick.
Because it remind me of my mother and home.
I'm blogging this at hostel, alone and away from my home.
The rain is almost stop and the dark cloud had started to scatter.
Although the rainbow is still hiding behind somewhere,
but I know it's time to stop indulging in homesickness.
It's time to move on and rock my world!
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
02.01.2013 - Malaysia. Boleh.
Recently, there was an incident that caused an uproar in society.
A teenager who was arrested because of attempted to rape a lady in a gas station's toilet.
The news had spread on Facebook tremendously before it was on the newspaper.
In my opinion, there were two reasons why this incident had caused public indignation.
Firstly, the age of the perpetrator. A teenage boy who tried to rape a young female adult?
This should be the front-page of the newspaper! However, it didn't. Malaysia.
Flashback when you are a teenager, where were you doing at that time?
When I was a teenager, I was playing with my neighbours at the playground.
How about you all? I bet you wouldn't try to rape people like the boy did.
This incident really shocked me when I first read the post on Facebook.
It made me wondered what did his parents taught him.
It made me doubted the quality of Malaysia's education system.
It made me start to worry about the humanity and morality of youngsters.
The world is changing, and I wonder it is still at the "right" track.
The second thing that caused public outrage was the police's attitude.
The police asked whether or not to let the boy go. Do you think this is the right way?
For me, NO. The boy's intention had told us there must be something wrong about the boy.
Although he is still young, but don't you think the victim deserve a justice?
I'm not saying that the boy should go to jail or what.
At least he should be taught about what is right and what is wrong.
A simple principle and yet the police failed to understand.
I strongly doubted the quality of the police.
Not all the polices are like that, but there will always some black sheep among them.
Well, I guess this is what people called "reality".
A teenager who was arrested because of attempted to rape a lady in a gas station's toilet.
The news had spread on Facebook tremendously before it was on the newspaper.
In my opinion, there were two reasons why this incident had caused public indignation.
Firstly, the age of the perpetrator. A teenage boy who tried to rape a young female adult?
This should be the front-page of the newspaper! However, it didn't. Malaysia.
Flashback when you are a teenager, where were you doing at that time?
When I was a teenager, I was playing with my neighbours at the playground.
How about you all? I bet you wouldn't try to rape people like the boy did.
This incident really shocked me when I first read the post on Facebook.
It made me wondered what did his parents taught him.
It made me doubted the quality of Malaysia's education system.
It made me start to worry about the humanity and morality of youngsters.
The world is changing, and I wonder it is still at the "right" track.
The second thing that caused public outrage was the police's attitude.
The police asked whether or not to let the boy go. Do you think this is the right way?
For me, NO. The boy's intention had told us there must be something wrong about the boy.
Although he is still young, but don't you think the victim deserve a justice?
I'm not saying that the boy should go to jail or what.
At least he should be taught about what is right and what is wrong.
A simple principle and yet the police failed to understand.
I strongly doubted the quality of the police.
Not all the polices are like that, but there will always some black sheep among them.
Well, I guess this is what people called "reality".
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
01.01.2013
What was the most memorable things happened on 2012?
A question I heard from radio when I was in the car this afternoon.
The first thing that came across in my mind was my first anniversary.
Despite that night had an argument with Him, it was still a wonderful and unforgettable day.
I know he had put a lot of effort to make this day memorable for both of us.
Well, his effort paid off. At least, I will not forget what happened on 24th September 2012.
Besides that, 14th February 2012 was also unforgettable to me too.
It was my first time in life to celebrate Valentine's day, and for him as well.
That day, after my class finished and heading back to meet someone.
I saw a well-dressed guy with a bouquet of rose standing not far away from me.
He was not anyone, but my love one. He is not only my lover, but also one of my family.
Like other couples, we will fight and argue, but we are still loving each other.
Although he is not perfect and has weaknesses, but I'm glad and happy to have him.
Baby, just want you to know that I love you!
Apart from my love story, the most memorable day in uni life was Colloquium presentation.
I'm not a good public speaker. I got extremely nervous when I do public speaking.
I have no choice but to overcome my stage fright. Bit-by-bit, I learn to become a good speaker.
Thanks to my lecturer, Ms Winnie who gave me a chance to present in Colloquium.
Also not to forget to thanks my group mates who did a very good job in our assignment!
Lastly,I had a memorable and meaningful conversation with a good friend.
She has successful opened my Pandora's box and make me cried. HAHA
The fact was she unintentionally made me shared my inner feelings with her.
Anyway, I have learnt a lot from her, especially during the conversation we had.
This is my answer if you were to ask me
"What was the most memorable things happened on 2012"
The world did not end at 21st December 2012 as what the rumors said.
For me, it actually means just live your life fullest!
Happy New Year to all of you!!
A question I heard from radio when I was in the car this afternoon.
The first thing that came across in my mind was my first anniversary.
Despite that night had an argument with Him, it was still a wonderful and unforgettable day.
I know he had put a lot of effort to make this day memorable for both of us.
Well, his effort paid off. At least, I will not forget what happened on 24th September 2012.
Besides that, 14th February 2012 was also unforgettable to me too.
It was my first time in life to celebrate Valentine's day, and for him as well.
That day, after my class finished and heading back to meet someone.
I saw a well-dressed guy with a bouquet of rose standing not far away from me.
He was not anyone, but my love one. He is not only my lover, but also one of my family.
Like other couples, we will fight and argue, but we are still loving each other.
Although he is not perfect and has weaknesses, but I'm glad and happy to have him.
Baby, just want you to know that I love you!
Apart from my love story, the most memorable day in uni life was Colloquium presentation.
I'm not a good public speaker. I got extremely nervous when I do public speaking.
I have no choice but to overcome my stage fright. Bit-by-bit, I learn to become a good speaker.
Thanks to my lecturer, Ms Winnie who gave me a chance to present in Colloquium.
Also not to forget to thanks my group mates who did a very good job in our assignment!
Lastly,I had a memorable and meaningful conversation with a good friend.
She has successful opened my Pandora's box and make me cried. HAHA
The fact was she unintentionally made me shared my inner feelings with her.
Anyway, I have learnt a lot from her, especially during the conversation we had.
This is my answer if you were to ask me
"What was the most memorable things happened on 2012"
The world did not end at 21st December 2012 as what the rumors said.
For me, it actually means just live your life fullest!
Happy New Year to all of you!!
Friday, December 14, 2012
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
12.12.2012
Its common that people inside their cars pose those weird poses to passerby.
I don't know whether you have this kind of experience or not, but I met some before.
It's not surprise for me if there are people posing weird pose to me inside their car.
Actually I found this quite amusing because those people are adults.
As an adult, posing such childish,ignorance or rather stupid poses to a passerby?
Seriously, I despise you and shame for you. For me, they are just making fun on themselves.
So, normally I will just ignore them, pretend you see nothing.
The reason why I bring up this issue is this happened to me on this morning.
If the "people" are normal citizens, then there is nothing big deal about it. Because its normal.
BUT, this time, the "people" is an authority figure, a policeman.
Today when I was waiting to cross the road, a police car passed by me.
The police car's speed was not fast, at least it was slow enough for me to notice the policeman's silly act.
The policeman in the passenger seat look at me and posed a peace sign with a silly and ugly smile to me.
And I was like, excuse me? A policeman? An authority figure? Seriously, I was speechless.
At that moment, what I felt was only disappointment and despair.
Although I understand that not all the policemen are like that, but that policeman really .........
All I can say is that policeman had jeopardized the policeman's image.
If there is a chance that the head of policemen is reading this,
PLEASE, make sure all the policemen outside are qualified to be a policeman.
I don't know whether you have this kind of experience or not, but I met some before.
It's not surprise for me if there are people posing weird pose to me inside their car.
Actually I found this quite amusing because those people are adults.
As an adult, posing such childish,ignorance or rather stupid poses to a passerby?
Seriously, I despise you and shame for you. For me, they are just making fun on themselves.
So, normally I will just ignore them, pretend you see nothing.
The reason why I bring up this issue is this happened to me on this morning.
If the "people" are normal citizens, then there is nothing big deal about it. Because its normal.
BUT, this time, the "people" is an authority figure, a policeman.
Today when I was waiting to cross the road, a police car passed by me.
The police car's speed was not fast, at least it was slow enough for me to notice the policeman's silly act.
The policeman in the passenger seat look at me and posed a peace sign with a silly and ugly smile to me.
And I was like, excuse me? A policeman? An authority figure? Seriously, I was speechless.
At that moment, what I felt was only disappointment and despair.
Although I understand that not all the policemen are like that, but that policeman really .........
All I can say is that policeman had jeopardized the policeman's image.
If there is a chance that the head of policemen is reading this,
PLEASE, make sure all the policemen outside are qualified to be a policeman.
Thursday, November 29, 2012
领悟
计划永远赶不上变化
我永远赶不上改变的速度
只能停懈在过去
反复着重播我们的过去
告别1字头
迎接2字头
我们都不小了，该长大了
各自追寻自己的梦想
仿佛你走你的阳关道
而我走我的独木桥
随着时间与距离的侵蚀
彼此的亲密度也被腐蚀了
坦白说
一开始的心
犹如刀割
一天一天过去了
受伤的心终于止血了
但却碎了
好不容易复原
却多了一道伤疤
刚愈合的伤口
偶尔还是会阵痛
那痛，让我放弃了
一天一天又过去了
终于不再钻牛角尖
心胸放宽一点
学习不再执著
世界变快乐了
后来领悟到
原来改变有时候也意味着成长
适时候的改变
对你或我可能不是件坏事
也许当下是难以接受
但当改用平常心去看待时
世界又变更美丽了
今夜的我沦陷了
沉沦在那快乐回忆
想起我们以前的点点滴滴
嘴角不自觉的往上
原来我笑了
谢谢你们给我一个美好的回忆
有多少苦痛有你和我一起度過 一起承受
有多少快樂有你和我一起享受 一起感動
29.11.2012
Time flies. Wonder whether it's my illusion or time just pass quicker nowadays?
Officially done with all assignments. Hooray~ No more assignment!
But I still have one more presentation on this Saturday. Hope I can do my best.
Anyway, final is around the corner. Two more weeks to go.
My last exam is on 19/12/2012 which is two days before "the end of the world".
There is rumors going around about the world is going to end at that day.
Do you believe about this? @.@ I don't really believe about this though.
But if the world really ends, I hope it ends in a split second without pain. LOL
Yesterday I went to watch Twilight with my bf.
The movie was awesome. Bella looks so cool with her red contact lens!
Besides, The Cullen family is so arrogant! <3 awesome="awesome" is="is" p="p" twilight="twilight">You should watch it if you haven't watch yet.
By the way, there is one thing that I really don't understand.
Why male dislike twilight so much? It's a good movie! >-<
This is just an update from me =D
Have a nice day ~
Officially done with all assignments. Hooray~ No more assignment!
But I still have one more presentation on this Saturday. Hope I can do my best.
Anyway, final is around the corner. Two more weeks to go.
My last exam is on 19/12/2012 which is two days before "the end of the world".
There is rumors going around about the world is going to end at that day.
Do you believe about this? @.@ I don't really believe about this though.
But if the world really ends, I hope it ends in a split second without pain. LOL
Yesterday I went to watch Twilight with my bf.
The movie was awesome. Bella looks so cool with her red contact lens!
Besides, The Cullen family is so arrogant! <3 awesome="awesome" is="is" p="p" twilight="twilight">You should watch it if you haven't watch yet.
By the way, there is one thing that I really don't understand.
Why male dislike twilight so much? It's a good movie! >-<
This is just an update from me =D
Have a nice day ~
Friday, November 23, 2012
23.11.2012
虽然我没有很叛逆，但从来也没有很乖。
小时候的缺点，多的数不完。
我顽皮，顶嘴，不听话，还有人人所谓的“硬颈”。
在兄弟姐妹当中，“吃”最多藤条的是我。
到了中学，脾气更是坏到不行。
常常把我妈妈气到跳脚。
对，我就是那么的不乖。
我有一位长辈，是男的。
从以前开始我就知道他不喜欢我。
在那么多兄弟姐妹当中，他就是不喜欢我。
而我从来也没有当一回事。
以为我就是不合他眼缘。
可是后来从别人口中得知原来一切都是有原因的。
原来就是因为我不乖和叛逆。
的确，不乖和叛逆不讨人喜欢。
可是我从来都不会对长辈不尊重。
虽然有时候会顶撞父母，
也会和兄弟姐妹吵大架，
但是对长辈的最基本礼貌，我还是有的。
可是他就是从来不给我好脸色看。
我心想
就算你有多不喜欢我
难道不可以假装疼我一下吗？
难道给我好脸色看就真的那么难吗？
给我的关爱非得要那么吝啬吗？
就算是那样，可以不要那么明显吗？
那时我虽小，可我还懂得如何看人的脸色。
我确实是不乖
我也的确有叛逆过
可是人是会成长的
我也是有长大的一天和懂事的时候
如果我当年没有不乖和叛逆
那么我就不知道当时的我有多不孝和愚蠢
现在也不会时时警惕自己
要懂事
要孝顺
要尊重
和
要乖
小孩子需要的是
鼓励和关爱
虽然训话也很重要
但是不要对一个小孩表现厌恶
那小孩的心灵会受伤的
伤口已结疤
小孩也已变乖
迟来的接纳
却哭笑不得
以前写博客单纯只是为了打发时间和分享自己的生活。
当发现开始有人关注我的博客时，感觉还满享受的？
可是现在写博客的心情和刚开始写的时候不一样了。
两年前我开始了这博客，第一年我写了245篇。
几乎天天都有在更新，但去年却只写了181篇。
而将要结束的今年，目前只写了34篇。
有看到那大幅度的下滑吗？ 数字是无法骗人的！
究竟是为什么呢？为什么不再天天更新了呢？
看回以前写的东西，就觉得自己好幼稚好蠢。
以前写博客时，我可以完全不去顾虑别人的感受。
现在长大了，渐渐开始懂得有些事，只能摆在心里。
因为长大了，所以不再肆言无忌，学习隐藏。
每当写到一半的时候，自己会问“这样写可以吗？”
太多感受要顾虑，所以我放弃了在这里述说我的思绪。
