回忆盒

又来到这个熟悉的房间
它曾经是如此的金光灿烂

现在却变成了暗淡无光

一个被我强制遗忘的房间

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手里紧握着钥匙

犹豫不决

打开还是离开？

最后我选择了打开

抱着五味杂陈的心情

慢步走进了这房间

这里什么都没有

就只有一长桌子

桌子上，我看见了那怀旧的盒子

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盒子铺满了许多灰尘

看了我好心酸

眼泪不禁地留下来

因为那里面装的

是我回忆的一部分

是我和他的回忆

我轻轻的把灰尘扫走

然后紧紧地把它抱着

它曾经是我最珍贵的宝藏

可是这些都只是从前的我

我小心翼翼把它放回桌面

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我知道我不该沉迷在过去

可是双手却不听使唤打开了盒子

一段段的回忆慢慢从盒子漂出来

播放这我和他从前的一点一滴

心顿时揪了一下

双手按在胸口上

试图减轻心里的痛楚

眼看回忆就要慢慢的不见

我伸出手试着把它抓住

可是手却停在半空中不动了

理智告诉我是时候把他忘掉了

充满挣扎的我不知道该怎么办

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最后理智战胜了

我败给了理智

收回停在半空中的手

我转身不去看

但我知道回忆飞远了

滴答滴答

时间慢慢地过去

而回忆都飞远了

转身望着空盒子

我竟然开始大笑 

笑着笑着却发现

脸上滑落了一滴水

我抚摸我的脸颊

才发现原来那是我的泪啊 

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眼泪好像不听使唤似的

不论我如何地压抑着

却还是哭了出来

我崩溃了

我跌落在地上

又哭又笑

简直就好像疯婆子一样

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滴答滴答

时间慢慢地溜走了

我擦干了眼泪告诉自己

“坚强一点，世界还在等着我呢！”

深吸了一口气

脸上从新挂起笑容

带着疲惫身躯的我

离开了那空荡荡的房间




咩咩 笔

350th Post. 30.05.2011

Well, I have neglected my blog again! I'm so sorry.

I just don't know what to blog about anymore =(

BUT!! Today is different!!! 

Today Tai YunHan is my inspiration for today post!

FINALLY, got something to blog about =P

In case if you don't know who is him, he is the guy who wore black colour shirt.

The one who inside the pool was Mr Lee, the man among us xD

Actually I was inside the picture too, look for me~

How I know him? I think is because of Stephy?

Because he use to hang out with Stephy , CH, and Mei Yan.

So when we form our Kueng Kueng Family we eventually know each other?

He is an introvert person, damn quiet until I beh tahan him sometimes.

But luckily he is an anime freak x) So we still have some common topic! 

Eunice will beh tahan us if we started to talk about anime! HAHA

He is a very nice and kind person. 

We went his house to celebrate Yann's birthday LOL

The house in the picture is his house! 

OMG, his house got swimming pool!!! *envy eyes*

Another thing that special about his house is CCTV.

You can find CCTV everywhere. Damn creepy~

I told you that he is a quiet person right?

That day he spoke much more words than usual! 

What a day which worth to celebrate xD

Sometimes I love to chat with him.

My sometimes are refer to the times that I'm having problems.

Such as emo, dilemma and etc etc. 

The first time I chat with him because I was not happy.

I don't remember why I don't happy because it was so long ago *i think so*

And during that time he was also not so happy too.

Until now I cant forget the joke he told me,

"Its good for two emo person to chat together, because negative negative will become positive"

I was like LOL when I read this!!!! 

OMG, YUNHAN IS JOKING! THIS IS NOT A JOKE MAN! 

Anyway, that day he sure cheer me up!

If you're having dilemma and you don't know what should you do,

feel free to come and find him to have some suggestions.

Because he said he talk like a grandpa xD

Oh yeah, he said he can't help if your problem is about love xD

Well, he definitely is a good/nice/great/awesome/wonderful/beautiful? friend!

Opps, did i said beautiful? HAHA~! I think handsome should be more appropriate? HAHA

He is still single so if you are interested please leave a message to me.

I will arrange a date for you two x) HAHAHAHA

Lastly, will end this post with a picture of me and him.

Trying to act romantic scene but FAILED x) HAHA

THE END.

I have nothing that you want or need.
I don't understand what you want from me.
You have your own life and I have mine too.
We are just like two parallel lines, might be close but never intersect.
I'm happy and fine with this situation.
We both know that the history will never happen again.
And yet you still asked me the silly question.
And yet you request me for such things?
Don't you think that you are mean to do so.
Memories are precious but its painful too.
I unblock you but I didn't unlock the memories box.
I don't need your sorry as your sorry is nothing but rubbish to me.
I might be a little bit too harsh to you, but i rather be harsh to you than to myself.

I know you wont read this but still just want to express my feeling.
I hope you always remind that we are just like two parallel lines.
We will never have interaction anymore from now on.
You said you will try to do whatever I wish, and this is what I wish for.
Maybe few years later, miracles will happen and those parallel lines might meet?
Who knows? Anyway, good luck and bye =)

23.05.2011

I miss my home, but I don't feel like going back.

I know what i have said is contradict but this is how i felt recently.

Because I don't have the sense of belonging, sound so irony right?

Home is suppose the place you belong to but I cant find the sense of belonging.

I feel like I'm a stranger in home for some reasons. 

My friend even make a joke about this.

I laugh when she jokes but she didn't know what my heart was crying.

It hurt me a lot when she said that but its true though .

Its like I'm nothing to them =(

Happy Belated Birthday Post =)

This post is dedicated to a girl who love Hello Kitty very much, but afraid of cat.

Can you see the photo that I holding? That's her =)

My dearest babe, Renee Tsen Choi Ling =D

She is damn pretty, love her very much.

Oh ya, Happy Belated Birthday to you yaaa =D

I'm gonna blog about the process of making a book for her.

Well, this is so not me to do this kind of stuff?

I'm a super duper lazy person and I don't know arts at all!

So you can see that I'm kinda "suffer" during the process of making =S

These are the photos for the book!

Actually this book is fulled of PHOTOS and with captions =)

See, how lazy I am.

Do you know how many photos that I have printed?

It was about 35 ++, i can't remember the exact number.

So the book is quite thick =S

I love these two photos!

Because we both are so CUTE =D and also the monkey too xD

" The Story Of Meow"

Wonder why I put this as cover? 

Purposely just to freak her out! HAHA

The book is not beautiful at all if compare to others one.

But I hope she likes it as I put all my heart in when I was doing it.

To be honest, during the process I kinda want to give up!

Because this is not things that I do and so tiring you know?!

But somehow I'm still manage to finished it and gave to her =D

Last night I called her at 12.00am, actually I planned to call earlier.

However, her phone was out of battery that time.

Anyway, I still managed to call and greet her =D

I actually even plan to sing a birthday song and play with guitar.

But, PLAN FAILED. HAHA

During the call, I lied to her that I never prepare any present to her.

She siad : Yorr, where can like that geh. You fast fast write a card for me la!

Well, since it was her birthday so I really prepare a card for her xD

She even requested me to write something touch for her too! 

I will do whatever you wish just to see your smile =)

Your smile made my day =D

For our kueng kueng family birthday tradition, we sure will write something touch to birthday girl.

Something like how we met, the first time outing, first impression, own feelings and so on.

So I'm going to write that too since its our tradition right? HAHA

And you also requested me to do so what ! xP 

How we met? How we get along? 

I think we both know the answer already right? HAHA

So we keep this as our little secret la, okay?

When I first saw you, I don't really like you.

Why a? For some reasons lor~ HAHA

They how come can get along? 

Err, I think we both are 38 po? HAHA

First outing? Which gang you refer first? 

I think the book can give you this answer xD

Till now, I never regret to know you.

You always are there for me whenever I need you.

You never force me to do something that I don't like.

You always take good care of me, mentally.

I appreciate what you did and for return I will love you more xD

*Nothing gonna change my love for you*

I mean it when I wrote this for you =)

Unless you do something that break my heart =(

I know I wrote a lot of crap here.

Let me clarify the main purpose of this post.

Happy Birthday Ya~ and I love you =)

p/s : OMG, I have said so many times I love you! @.@ 

Sincerely, 

MEH MEH

无助

Hey, you know what? My heart is aching.
It ache not because of someone but you, my friend.
I thought you know me well, but this is what I thought.

You are not anyone, but someone that is important to me.
You are not anonymous, but someone who used to care me a lot.
You broke my heart and not just once, but twice.

Have you ever wonder how i feel when you do such things to me?
Have you ever stand on my side and think what's my feeling?
If you say yes, I'm doubt with your answer.

Do you know the pain that you gave me is double then others?
Because you are not anyone but someone that important to me.

I'm tired, tired of thinking whether what should I do.
I'm tired, tired of always be the one who approach first.
I'm tired, tired of finding reasons to convince myself anymore.

You've changed,
you are no longer the one that I know.
you are no longer the one that I care.
you are no longer the one that I love.

I've changed,
I'm no longer know you anymore.
I don't know how to care you anymore.
I can't convince myself to continue love you anymore.

Please,
let me to know you again,
let me to care you again,
give me a reason to love you again.

A Song of Storm and Fire ( Tsubasa Chronicle)

Today gonna introduce one of my favorite songs to you guys.

This song is actually a song from my favorite anime, Chronicle Of The Wings aka Tsubasa Chronicle.

Every time I listen to this song, I feel sadness and loneliness.

I felt in the way maybe is due to the anime storyline, i guess.

But I really love this song very much =)

Kurogane, Sakura, Mokono Modoki, Shaoron, and Fai D. Flowright.

These are the main characters of the anime.

Sakura is actually a well-loved princess of Clow Kingdom.

She falls under a spell that causes her memories to scatter about the cosmos.

Her memories became into a feathers and fall into different dimension of world.

Shaoron; Sakura chilhood friend, is going to help her retrieve her memories by collecting the feathers.

In order to go into different dimension of world, Shaoron goes to Yuuko for help.

Yuuko, the dimension witch will help Shaoron in exchange Sakura will never remember Shaoron 

even though Sakura had retrieved her memories. What a cruel request for both of them. 

They are in love with each other but Sakura will never remember about Shaoron =(

This is the part of the synopsis.

If you are interested , please go watch !

I strongly recommend you !!!

15.05.2011

Hello people~ I'm sure you all miss me very much! HAHA :P

It has been a while that I never come here and update this blog.

Opps, I found spiderweb and dust all around her. 

Its time for me to clean my blog again!!!!

Sorry for being such a irresponsible blogger again.

Because I just don't feel like to blog about anything.

Anyway, I'm back =) I will try to be a responsible blogger!

The world is changing in a blink of an eye.

I cannot catch up the changes that brought up by the world.

I have no idea what is going on around me. 

Anyway, I'm just being emo for the changes around me. HAHA

Forget to tell you guys that I've graduated from foundation.

Now, I'm officially a degree student! =)

I'm starting a new journey~

A new chapter of my life~

Today went to MidValley for movie~
Plan to watch Fast and Furious 5 but the time is not "ngam"
So at the end watched Priest.

Many people said that this movie not nice.

But I think it was quite good =)

At least, I did enjoyed watching the movie!

Nice right?

Please ignore the right leg, >.<

overall its still consider good laaa =)

其实每个人的背后都有属于自己的辛酸

原来永远真的很远

不要随便就说永远这两个字

因为你不知道永远到底有多远

那些说永远不会生气的

其实也是个谎言而已

因为这世界上不可能有完美脾气的人

更何况有我这种得寸进尺的人在

我很傻，我很容易相信别人说的话

我很笨，我想相信可是我怕受伤害

Sorry, I  forgot that you are just my friend.

I shouldn't  ask too much from you.

You've pampered me too much.

More than what a friend should do.

Thanks and I appreciate for what you did.

Maybe you're right, I'm just a sadist.

I bring noting but just sorrow and problems.

Maybe I should just disappear from this world.

Then everyone will be happy and peace.

04.05.2011

Last night went out with high school friends, Xiao Koo, John and Eve.
As usual, we went to Metro play pool! ahahahahahaha
Even though I'm not good in it, but I still enjoy playing it =)
Then yum cha session lorrrr =D we talked a lot about the past and future too.
Glad that to know that everyone is doing great.
Later we went to beach have a walk. Its scary to go beach at night. HAHA
I had a lot fun last night, thanks to them =D
Thailand got ah kua, kk also got lea. Damn beautiful some more!
Last night they bring me go see ah kua! OMG!
Feel damn "zhi bei" after saw them! ahahahahahaa
Sorry no photo for this post! so this post will be a lame post.


As time age, people changed too.
The matter is just whether the changes are in good way or bad way.
This is something that people cannot avoid, and so called inevitable.
I wish no matter how I change, I'm still me.

02.05.2011

I don't like people ffk me.

I hate people ffk me.

I despise people ffk me.

If you ffk me with a valid reason, I'm fine with that.

If you tell me first before I ask you, I'm okay with that.

But if you ffk me without telling me, I'm not okay with that.

If people ffk you, mean that they forgot about you.

I'm sure that everyone of you sure know how it feels right?

FFK is a thing that will make my volcano explode.

I seriously seriously do not like people ffk me.

The moment you promise people, the moment you making people expect something.

When you cant fulfill your promise, people's expectation cannot be achieve.

At the end, people feel disappointed.

High expectation, High performance, High Satisfaction.

High expectation, low performance, low satisfaction.

High expectation, NO PERFORMANCE, Disappointment. 

Well, today I'm just another fool waiting for nothing again.

Maybe I'm born to be ffk by people, who know?

MELISSA, ACCEPT THIS AS YOUR FATE.