26.06.2011

Why yesterday until now you don't let me connect to internet?
I'm so disappointed that the internet connection break down until NOW.
I'm currently at McD, just to online and do my assignment.
Yesterday I was planning to do my assignment, but I can't even open any webpage.
My lappy was connected to internet, but cant opened any webpage.
How could you treat me like this? HELP RESIDENCE, why you don't fix the problem? =(
Sigh, complain stop here. No point to keep complaining.
Lastly, I'm begging YOU please fix the problem as soon as possible.
Thank You very much.


So yesterday I end up with watch anime, playing guitar, record stupid video and read newspaper.
Another wasted day and thanks to the stupid internet that don't let me to online. =.=
Gonna share a song to you guys, sorry for the low quality of the video >.<

一边是友情     一边是爱情

两边交错一起     我站在那里了

天空下雨了     我的心哭了

泪水和雨水混合     我都搞不清

我无法自拔     爱着一个他

我无法控制     开始去恨你

我控制不了     不去不爱他不恨你

我讨厌这样的自己

我不喜欢这样的你

他的一切都不再属于我

属于你     不是我

一边是友情     一边是爱情

两边都无从选择     让我都慌了

哦    我忘了    

我早已失去了资格

再对他说     我爱你

哦     我爱他     真的很爱

但他却早已离开了

我的世界

22.06.2011

Feel like writing something but I don't really know what can I write though.
Now the time is 1.46am, normal people should sleeping like a pig now.
But these people exclude those "night cat" like me xD HAHAHA
Recently I didn't have any good sleep, insomnia niaaa =(
Even though if i was lying on my bed, I still couldn't sleep.
Oh yea, recently I kept dreamed about some weird dreams.
Sigh, to be honest it was kinda disturbing. >.<
My mood is not really stable lately, especially when I'm alone.
Too many things to worry about but nothing much I can do to solve my problems.
Perhaps, go with the flow is what I can do for now.

Two days ago, roommate was back from China.
Actually there is no big difference whether she is here or not.
Basically I don't talk much to her, precisely in one day we can don't talk to each other.
In fact, nothing much can talk with her, generation gap is too big. LOL
By the way, she is really really old if compare with me. No discriminate when saying this.
Somehow, we like two strangers but force to stay in the same room.
Something like, "井水不犯河水" I live in my own world and she lives in hers own world.
I found out that i don't like to socialize with my roommate, despite who they are.
I don't know why but the fact is I don't talk much with my roommate.
If i find out why, I will tell you guys =) HAHA

Now only left one more assignment to work on before final.
We are assigned to write a literature review, its so "ma fan".
You need to read many journals then select few that most suitable for your topic.
Then abstract the important information to write for the literature review.
Basically this is what I need to do for this assignment.
Sound easy? ACTUALLY ITS NOT!!
Especially on the finding & reading & selecting journals part.
That is the most annoying part but too bad that I need to do this for the rest of my life.
Sigh, what to do >.< 我忍你! HAHA

That's all I think for now, is time to force myself to sleep.
Good Night people =)

20.06.2011

Gonna blog about yesterday.

Actually nothing special happened yesterday.

I just playing with my friend's Iphone and took some pictures with my friends xD

So this post will be full of photos instead of words >.<

The owner of the phone, Joe Mokky Mok xD 

Me and Fiona x)

Mr Tai YunHan and Me

My kawaii short short and Me xD

Miss Apple Yan and meeee

Irene and I =)

Me and Miss wOONG kit YAN

Ini perempuan keep remove tag on facebook!

*pling plang* tak suka you 99

Me and another Joyee xD

ME AND MY BELOVED JIE JIE

Long time no see her already.

But then yesterday met her in college!!

Weeeee~ happy =)

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If you don't know what actually is going on,

then please don't come and bullshit in front of me =)

Do you know why? Because its annoying.

前天晚上，我做了一个非常可怕的恶梦。
一个没有恶魔鬼怪却又让我打从心里感到害怕的梦。
一个让我回忆起我以前的一段黑暗时期的梦。
我并不怕提起那一段黑暗时期，可是我却很怕它又再次发生在我身上。
我不知道如果它又发生了，我还有没有活下去的勇气。
我真的真的不想再一次经历那痛苦，真的不想要。

我知道失去了以后，才更懂得珍惜现在拥有的。
可是，为什么一定非我失去不可呢？
为什么一定要我经历那些痛苦呢？
其实我梦到的是，我又开始脱头发了。
我真的不想再经历那些黑暗的时候了。
我不敢要求什么完美的日子。
我只求个平凡的日子，难道都不可以吗？

我不想再过着戴帽子的日子
我不想再看到别人同情的眼光
我不想再看到别人厌恶的眼神
我不想再从镜子里看到丑陋的自己
我不想再躲在屋里不敢出门
我不想再次打碎我的信心了

我不想再有轻生的念头了

我更不想看到我家人为我担心了

我真的真的真的不想再次经历这些了

你知道当你自暴自弃的时候

看到妈妈为你哭泣的时候

那种心情有多难受吗？

你知道当你知道你无能为力

却只能接受事实的时候

那种无奈有多难受吗？

你知道每天晚上以泪洗面的那种滋味吗？

你知道众人的注目与眼光有多让人难受吗？

你知道连自己都觉得自己是丑八怪的怪兽的感觉吗？

我知道这些都过去了

而我写这么多不是要别人来同情我

只是那个梦让我回忆起难堪的时候

让我的心情很不安，很难受

我只想发泄以下而已
我也会累的 =(

父亲节

本来想放一张我跟爸爸的和照
可是后来才发现，我好久没有和他一起拍照了
最后一张和照是我们一起去玩Go Kart时拍的
可惜没有Soft copy，因为是N年前拍的
所以可以想像我有多久没有和爸爸拍照了吧？

我记得小时候，因为吃太多热气的巧克力饼干而导致我生病。
嘴巴脱皮，所以吃东西很辛苦。
爸爸还用汤匙喂我和凉水呢～

还有啊，有一次因为顽皮掉进沟柒
当然没有掉进去啦，因为及时钩到东西支撑我
哈哈，最后还是朋友叫爸爸来救我的
爸爸就好像大力士，一手把我拉起来的
还被他臭骂了一顿呢　哈哈

我记得我小时候是个非常胆小鬼
每次作恶梦后，都会去敲爸爸妈妈的房门
然后问他们说：‘我可以和你们睡觉吗？’
我想在四个小孩当中，就只有我才会这样做吧？
哈哈哈　有时候还真的连妹妹都不如啊

在我妹妹还每出世的时候，我可是家里的小魔鬼
哥哥和姐姐都讨厌死我了　哈哈
恩，在我妹妹出世以后，我还是他们心目中的捣蛋鬼
哈哈哈哈哈　我真的很顽皮　绝对不是开玩笑的顽皮

爸爸妈妈都很疼我
当然该骂的时
还是会骂的狗血淋头
该打的时候
还是会被打的很够力

我爸爸是个非常和蔼可亲的人
可是当他生气起来也是很恐怖的哦
我很常被他罚站，面壁思过等等
爸爸很少打我的，藤条侍候都是妈妈的专利

随着年龄的增长，我再也不像从前一样
我变了很多，是好是坏，还不知道
不过呢，我还是很爱我的爸爸
当然还有我的妈妈啦
虽然我已经好久好久没有跟他们说一声“我爱你”

爸爸，
谢谢你那么辛苦赚钱养家
谢谢你所给我的一切
我知道你很疼我和爱我
我也很爱你哦
希望你以后都健健康康
我会让你感到骄傲的
爸，谢谢你。

19.06.2011

我忘了在很久以前

我就失去了资格

心得报告

刚刚看完一部偶像剧，就想赖着你。
本人觉得还满不错看，就典型的偶像剧。
男主角通常都会爱上其貌不扬的女主角。
女主角通常都是个贫穷，善良又傻气的女生。
偶像剧的剧情变化不大，可是就是有很多女生爱看。
因为这样的剧情发生在现实生活的几率不高。
试问，有那一个男生会不喜欢漂亮又聪明的女生？
也许这样的男生或许还存在在这个世界上，可是我想不多吧？

每一次看完偶像剧，心情就会很变的很低落。
从来不敢想像自己是女主角的我，其实对爱情还是有一定的向往。
对幸福也是有一定的期待，原因很简单，因为我是女生嘛。
总感觉自己离幸福很远很远，一个不论我多努力也无法抵达的目的地。
而我要的爱情很简单，可是爱情总是为难我。
每一次都爱上一个不该爱的人，简直就是自讨苦吃。
犯贱，非常适合形容爱情的受害者。
明知道没有可能，却越踩越深，无法自拔。
明知道没有结果，却还放手一搏，无法自制。
所以说这些人，是不是很犯贱？

最近我的心，生病了。它不舒服，它不开心。
脑子虽然很想帮忙，可是却无从下手，不知所措啊。
虽然我很努力去忽视问题的存在，也几乎成功忘掉它的存在。
可是这并不代表问题就消失了，它依然还是一个绊脚石。
可是这问题不是我想要解决就能解决的。
这绊脚石我搬不动，所以我只能适应它的存在。
也许有问题的是我自己吧？
要怪罪的话，也只能怪自己吧？

Lazy People.

I found out that I'm a lazy person.

(I think I never hardworking before? >.<)

Today plan to send my dirty cloths to laundry but I was too lazy to go down.

HAHAHAHAHA

Plan to do assignment right after back from college, but FAILED, no mood to do.

So end up rotting in my room. HAHAHA

OMG, I should be stress instead of so relax @_@

Assignment 2 due on next Monday.

Psy105 test on next Tuesday.

BUT BUT BUT

I havent start to do any preparation yet =S

In order to prevent myself died from boredom, I have made something funny.

A comparison between me and two anime characters xD

Gin Ichimaru, from Bleach =D

Monkey. D. Luffy from One Piece x)

HAHA, I know I look silly!

Enjoy =)

我知道我是一个笨女孩

爱上一个不该爱的人

我知道我们没有可能

我却放不开手

爱上个不该爱的人

不该犯的错

所以 I'm sorry

爱上你    我的错

不该   和你聊天直天明

不该给你甜蜜昵称

不该习惯你的一切

不该   不该紧握的双手

不属于我的怀抱

不属于我的一切

爱上个不该爱的人

不该犯的错

所以   I'm sorry  

爱上你   我的错 

我的错

P/s: Sorry for the low quality of video >.<

16.06.2011

Hmmm.. I found out that I keep neglect my blog recently.

I'm sorry for being such an irresponsible blogger.

Well, this is not the first time and wont be the last time. HAHA

But I will try my best to be a responsible blogger. (try only >.<)

Three days ago, I stole took anime from my friend, Jason.

Since that day, I transformed to anime freak again. LOL

I finished watching 100++ episode in two days!

Oh ya, the anime that I watched recently was One Piece!

OMG, this anime is damn nice and awesome!

This anime is one of my favorite anime =)

This anime is about pirate =D

Watch it for more details !!!!!

My favorite characters are the 

Captain, Monkey. D. Luffy and the Doctor, Chopper!

OMG, they are so so so cute <3

I'm so in love with them LOL

Okay, I admit that I'm anime freak~

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

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We will meet a lot of people in our life.

Strangers, acquaintances, colleagues, friends or even lover. 

Some people stay for a long time but some just pass by and leave.

Things like this can consider as fate but we have the right to manipulate it in certain extend.

"The End"

Well, life goes on and we must live better than yesterday.

=)

Random Post.

The song is 一个像夏天一个像秋天 from 范玮琪.

This song is played and sang by me.

Sorry if i sing badly and damage your ear =S 

What make me to do this video clip?

I guess I was too bored?

Well, as a resident, I have lot of free times.

Hostel life is very simple and also known as dull or boring.

Our only entertainment is our laptop, seriously.

Of course we do have a television at level 1 but you wont like to watch with strangers right?

Oh yea, we also have a ping pong table here? 

So as you can see, how BORED free am I here =S

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Actually this post was plan to post on 10 June,

but because of slow connection speed and I cant upload my video so this post has postponed. 

And I'm finally succeed to upload the video.

I made this video just simply because I feel like doing this.

If you didn't appear in the video, doesn't mean you're not important, Okay?

That's all for this post =)

12.06.2011

Wonder why I post this photo?

Wonder who is the person sit next to me?

Well, I post this photo because I wanna blog about this person.

Because he is someone that kinda special to me.

By the way, his name is Hee Jiun Yeong.

Why is he so special to me?

I think is because he is the most suitable person to talk with?

He is not belong to my group but he is my close friend.

So I can tell him everything but not something.

I can tell him what i feel what think regardless whatever matter.

I can just vomit out anything that I cant tell others to him.

Well, you can say that he is my dustbin >.< HAHA

Please don't angry if you read this xD

Just pretend that I didn't write this and you didn't read that la x)

He is very kind and nice to me.

I guess it is because he is gender bias xD

I'm so glad that I'm a female LOL.

Enjoy hang out with him because I feel comfortable when I was with him.

I mean I no need to hide my true feelings in front of him.

Just to clarify our relationship in case you're wondering about that.

He definitely is my bf. One of my male friends and also my best friend.

Do I like him? Well, the answer is obvious. Its a YES =)

This like is not the like that you are thinking now.

This like is belong to friendship.

Well, maybe more than friendship because we talk like brother x)

In conclusion, we're just good friend.

Sorry for disappoint you guys if you expect us to be more than friend.

But that is no doubt that he is a good friend and I like him so much as a friend of course.

And I know he likes me too, RIGHT HEE JIUN YEONG?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Well, he cant say no also! xD

Mr Hee,

I don't know when was the first time we met.

But I know that 11/6/2011 was the first time we watch movie! 

So please don't imba la okay?

HAHAHA

08.06.2011

This is a song that I compose by myself.

Its about love and like.

Actually this song is quite random, 

I mean I thought of this when I showered this afternoon.

This is not the first time i compose a song, in fact its the second time.

I hope you like it, just wanna share it to you guys.

Lyric:

爱和喜欢 有什么不一样

爱你 爱你 还是喜欢你

我搞不懂 也不清楚

只想 有你 在身边

想看见那笑容

想看见那身影

想躺在那扩大的肩膀

你哭我就哭

你笑我就笑

一起等待那天空

我小手拉大手

你大手牵小手

相约一起到永久

爱和喜欢 没什么 不一样

爱你 爱你 也是 喜欢你

P/s: this song is not mean to anyone. LOL xD

可惜不是你

This song was introduced by a special person.

I fall in love with this song when I first listened to this song.

This song sure brought me back some special memories.

Today I want to sing this song to that special person.

Thanks for introduced such a nice song to me.

Thanks for being such a nice friend to me.

Thanks for what you had gave me, especially memories.

But, you're not the one.

I didn't play the full song but just the chorus part.

Why? Because I only know how to play the chorus part LOL

And also the chorus part lyric is the most meaningful.

The special person no longer stalk my blog,

so I really don't know whether that person will see this short clip or not.

But I don't bother that because i just want to post it out xD

不是每一个故事都有结局，就好像不是每一段恋情都有结果。

你爱的人也许不爱你，而爱你的人你可能不爱他。

你想要的，也许你永远也得不到。而你不想要的，却随手可得。

有时候，爱情可真让人头疼也让人心烦。

但是就算爱情如何折磨我们，我们却还是对它死心塌地。

这就是所谓的“犯贱”，人的特征之一。

如果时间可以从来，我想回到过去，想办法改变它。

可是我不会让自己那么做，因为我也许会失去现在所拥有的一切。

过去的遗憾或许不能被改变，可是未来却掌握在自己手里。

每个人都有属于自己不能改变的过去，都有属于自己的遗憾与内疚。

回忆纵使再这么美丽，那也只是美丽的浮云，都只是海市蜃楼。

停留在过去的人，是无法看到未来的。

未来只属于勇敢面对过去，而不是停顿在那里。

岁月不留人，在你原地踏步的时候也许你又制造了另一个遗憾。

不要再让遗憾制造更多的遗憾。

放宽心胸，从另一个角度去看这世界。

或许生命会变的更加有意义，世界会更美丽。

p/s: 有些事，说倒容易，做的时候却有心无力。

咩咩 笔

04.06.2011

Some of my friends said that it has been a while that i didn't update about my daily life.
Like what have i done for today and etc etc etc.
Well, in case that you are so curious about my boring life, then I shall update you guys?

I have assigned my first assignment on Monday, it was an outline.
The topic that I chose was "The pursuit of truth is greater than the chase for knowledge. Discuss"
Many people said that this question is risky as you might "lost" when you were writing it.
It's true that and I kinda "lost" when I was writing the outline.
Anyway, I somehow managed to finished it just now.
Big clap for myself =)

When I'm in hostel, I don't really like weekends.
Because I don't know what should I do beside study.
Therefore, I usually sleep until almost noon then only wake up.
Sometimes when I wake up too early, I will force myself to sleep back.

In order to prevent boredom kill me, I chose to watch anime!
Actually I have finished watching all the anime in my laptop,
but no choice I have to watch again and again @_@
The luck anime that chose by me was "Pandora Hearts"
It was another good anime! You should watch it =) if you love anime!

My room was so messy so I decided to clean it up.
So that it wont "look" so messy! xD
Oh yeah, I washed my toilet again. x_x
This is so not me, seriously~  HAHA

After finish reading what I wrote, I serious think that this is a lame post! HAHA
If you manage to read until here, thumbs up for you xD

Ciao ~

04.06.2011

曾几何时

那走廊是

那么的热闹

那么的拥挤

现在

那走廊

却变成了

冷冷清清

不再拥挤

因为

大家都不在了

曾几何时的我们

是多么的快乐

那时侯的我们

简单

我想念那热闹的走廊

我想念那拥挤的走廊

我

想

你

们

了

=(