26.11.2010

Finally all the presentations was over!!!!

Sorry for didn't update blog so frequently =(

I was busy for the assignment and presentation recently.

And now it had over, but but but...

Final Exam is waiting for me!!! =(

What a hectic college life I have!

Gonna show you guys some pictures =)

Me and Kit Yann =)

Eunice, Me and Kit Yann!

Three crazy fellows =P

Me and Eunice =)

You guys won't believe what I found in our lab! 

Can you spot the blue thingy on the chair???

It was a condom! OMG~

Really wth-ing when I saw this!

And I swear it really not belong to me!!!! >.< 

Today went to college even though I don't have class!

Went there to copy exam time table and have breakfast or lunch with HIM.

You wont believe what actually Eunice, Roy and Vincent did in Mama Kitchen!

For more information, please call them!!!! >.<  

Can't believe that I actually hang out all day in college!

Chit-chat with lots of friendsssssssssssss =)

And took pictures too >.< 

 That's me!

Heng Wei and I!

Denzie bought this to me!

And said tomorrow I need to wear it to college! LOL

HAHA! 

I think that's enough for today! 

Good luck for those who have prerentation!

ngek ngek ngek =p

24.11.2010

对不起，
我缺乏安全感。

今晚，
我们擦肩而过，
你却没有发现我。
是我不够吸引力，
还是你心没有我？

对不起，
我真的很需要安全感。

今夜，
我的心都痛了，
想你想地心疼了，
可是，你却。。。

很抱歉，
可我的心真的痛了。

我的心已经有太多的伤痕了
别再为我的心添加新的伤了

我的心超载了
再也容纳不下伤了

对不起，
可是我心真的痛了

“做人要有礼貌”
这是一个非常简单的道理
而长辈也每次唠叨我们这一句

接受别人的恩惠
就要说声谢谢
做错事了
就要说声道歉

这些都是最最最最基本的礼貌
可是就是有些人不懂这些道理

总有些人
不知感恩
不知羞耻

做错事了
道歉也不会说
还要责怪他人

真怀疑他们脸是用什么做的
真怀疑他们脸到底有几厚

一次
两次
都算了

可是每次都这样
未免也太过分了

做人不要
那么过分
不要自私
凡是三思

因为这世界上是有报应的
你给人什么
人家就给回你什么

23.11.2010

Two more presentation left, which are human communication and marketing!
No more powerpoint for this semester ! Yeahhhhhh =)
Finally I can sleep early tonight! =D

Just now went to MidValley with HIM =)
Accompany him buy shirts, I found out that he loves Levis a lot!
We also watched "Death Place", a horror movie!
I thought I will never watch any horror movie anymore, but ...................
This movie was damn scary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But I got HIM sit next to me =)
At least there is someone there for me <3

That's all for today ! HAHA
I'm sorry that lately I have become more and more lazy!
But I really busy for my assignment recently!
I'm damn tired! Good Night!

p/s : I will reply you as soon as possible when I have an idea, EVE =)\

晚安健康宝宝　

22.11.2010

我的人生有新的转变
只因有你的出现
我也许是个傻瓜
但我只愿当你的傻瓜
我喜欢被你牵着手的感觉
因为会让我很有安全感
多希望你能一直牵这我的手
永远都不放开
我只想告诉你
我很想你，宝贝

19.11.2010

Can't believe that Second semester is going to end soon.
Can't believe that Final Examination is coming soon.
Can't believe that I'm still survive until now!

24 hours are not enough for second second semester.
24 hours are not enough for us to hang out together.
24 hours are not enough for me being crazy!

Never regret for coming Help to study!
Never regret for knowing you all!
Never regret for whatever I did!

College friends rock our life just like high school friends do!
I never thought that I will meet such awesome friends in Help.
The truth is, I have know many many good friends here =)

Eunice Toh Sze Theng! One of my first three week classmate!
She is the first person that I wanted to know more about her =)
Don't ask me why, I just got that feeling that we can get along well x)

Renee Tsen Choi Ling! My dearest Onee-Chan!!!
At first I don't really life her, but thing changed after I discovered she is jut another "fei cai".
Thanks to Nicholas, because of him I know such a good friend.

Celine Wong Kit Yann! A very kind and sweet girl!!!
She had two same class with me during 1st Semester, that's how I know her!
She always take good care about me! You will regret if you don't know her =)

Lionel Chooi! Also one of my first three week classmate!!
He was the only friend in my English class during 1st semester, that's how we get along!
He always calm me down during presentation, and listen my crap, bring laughter to me =)

Aaron Looi! Also my another first three week classmate !!
He is my only gor gor in Help , but he has a lot of mui mui~ HAHA
He will be there for me whenever I need someone to listen to me! Thanks Ya!

Nicholas Low Jie Yang! He is the 1st person that I can get along well in Help.
Many things happened between us, angry him because of his stupidity!!!!!
Arghhhh! Anyway, he is consider a "nice" guy I guess. "cross fingers at the back"

Roy Lee Sze Yung! He is under Yann! I mean Yann's Boyfriend la =)
I will never know him if he is not Yann's boyfriend, he definitely is a nice friend!!!
He is a funny person, and always bring laughter to our hectic college life.

Kok Mei Yan! I really cannot remember how I know her =(
But She is another nice friend I knew in Help!
She really cute and a caring person! She still single! You can go after her =P

Stephy Chen~ A very tall girl in my college >.<
I like to chat with her because she reply very fast NOT LIKE OTHER TAKDE REPLY PUNYA!
She always has the different thought, you will never know what is in her mind @.@

Stephy Foong! A crazy girl that I know recently~ HAHAHA
She has a kid's look but don't judge a book by its cover!!! IF NOT, you "DIE DIE" laaa...
She is crazy, smart, fun, and somehow kind person!!! =) Fun to hang out with her =)

There are many other friends that I haven't write.
I think I need eternity to write out all of them!!!
Please don't sad if I didn't mention you!
You are still special for me ya! =) CHILL!

I think I better stop here, my post is quite long already!
Later people beh tahan ma! Say I "long gas"
OMG, rojak english come out again! HAHA
Ciao. Miss ya!

17.11.2010

I wonder why I'm so weak? HAHA

I'm sick for quite long already and yet haven't recover.

I hate asthma come find me when I'm weak =(

Sometimes I will feel hard to breath, lack of oxygen.

Feel like dying soon!! HAHA

But the irony that is I used to it already.

Sometimes I just feel like how good if I die now, so that I wont suffer the pain anymore

This was my negative thought when I was too free or emo.

Please don't worry, I appreciate my life very much.

Last night I went to sing k with HIM, roommate and their friends at Garden.

I really love and enjoy singing very much! =)

Please date me out for sing k!!!!!!

I know I should not go sing k because I'm sick but I went!

I admitted that not all the time was fun but I enjoyed because he was beside me.

He really take good care of me last night =)

He is so cute and sweet =) HAHA

I miss him so much! hahahahaha "shy shy"

Thanks God I still have my voice after sing k session!

Because I have 3 presentations next week =(

And I haven't prepare yet, not even one!!!

OMG!! I'm a dead meat!!!

I found out that I have been so lazy lately!

OMG, I'm going to fail all my subjects if I continue so lazy!

MELISSA! PLEASE DON'T SO LAZY CAN OR NOT?

"okay, I will try my best!"

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHHHAHAHAHHAHA

These are my appointments, so many bookings from others T_T

19 November, CTS wanna test me how well I understand it !!

22 November, English want me to present my research paper !!

23 November, CTS again, it want me to present about SEX EDUCATION!!

25 November, my group and I have a date with Miss Renee !!

conclusion: I'm dead soon =( Can't sleep for so many days =(

SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD 

In order to prevent me from procrastination, I need to make a to-do-list!

1. Do marketing powerpoint.

2. Do CTS powerpoint

3. Do English poverpoint

4. Study for CTS quiz! 

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5. STUDY FOR FINAL =(

Gonna end this post with my photos =)

Latest look of me xD

16.11.2010

What actually is in your mind? I have no idea about it.
You acted nothing and text-ed me questioning me why yesterday I behave like this.
I replied,
"The way I treat you today is the way you used to treat me, but the only difference is I double the effect."
You told me that you don't understand, and I don't really care.
I don't the care the reason why sometimes you ignore me anymore.
Whether is my problem or your problem, is none of my business anymore.
Don't come and question my why, after you did such stupid things to me.
Don't tell me that you didn't aware that you are actually ignoring me most of the time.
If you say you really don't know about it, then you can jump off the building now.
Because I have never seen such stupid, idiot, blur people in my life.
Sorry, I think I was the one which is stupid, idiot, blur people.
Because I used to like you for such a long period.
But luckily it was a history now, and it had a big full stop.
I think I'm not that important in your life, so no need to bother me anymore.
Since I don't give a damn on you anymore; you also no need to give a damn on me as well.
What was in your mind? What is in your mind?
These questions, I don't know and don't want to know the answers anymore.
Since you used to ignore my existence, then continue it.
So, don't come and question me WHY anymore.
Is fine if you don't like me, as i don't like you too.
Bye =D

15.11.2010

Can you please just get out of my life?
Don't come and bother my peaceful life, can or not?
I really don't know what is in your mind?
You think very funny to fool me is it?
When I try to talk with you just like what a friend does,
but what the hack respond you gave me?
You ignore me, MOST OF THE TIME.
You turned away from me, when I was talking to you.
You kept your mouth shut, when I was talking to you.
After so many times you ignored me, and now you come and talk to me nicely?
Well, don't you think that you have a "thick" face?
SO, who you think you are???
I'm not your toy or tool! OKAY!
Have a good mood then come and talk to me, but if bad mood then ignore me?!?!
So you think that I'm stupid enough that can let you fool me like a twit, is it?
You think that I'm a clown that can entertain you when you are bored?
 Okay, if last time I may or will entertain you but not now!
I have my pride, i need to stand on my ground firmly and protect it.
My pride is not worth for you to fool, don't you understand that?
If you don't like me, fine! Someone will appreciate me and love me.
I treat you as a friend but you treat me like a dog??
Just who you think who I am? I'm definitely not your pet!
I'm FINE if my life without you, JUST GET LOST okay?
WOW, give you one more phrase, PLEASE BOG OFF =)

12.11.2010

Yesterday was miserable. My heart sank and I could feel a lump in my throat.
Darkness mercifully engulfed me, and tears welled up in my eyes.
I could not handle the emotions that filled me at the realization that you are actually using me.
What are you thinking? I don't know and no longer want to know.
You have hurt me until my heart is broke and cannot be mend.
I'm tired to catch up your pace, I give up.
You now can enjoy your life without me. Good bye.

Yesterday, I felt emptiness and loneliness.
I was all alone in my room, I can't find anyone can to talk with.
It felt like I was walking against the strong wind at the road all by myself.
I try to find someone in my friend list, but there is no reply from anyone.

My world turned upside down.
I was exasperated and heartbroken and had no idea how to recover.
Breath, I told myself. I decided to go for a walk, I can't stand for it anymore.
I called someone to accompany me to have a walk.
I don't want to stay in the room alone!
I went to the supermarket, I walked like a zombie, aimless.
I have no idea what to buy, all I knew was just keep walking.

Dark clouds were just at the right timing, I could feel  the raindrops on my face.
Tears and raindrops mixed together naturally, like they were born to meet each other.
I no longer can differentiate tears and raindrops.
Disheartened, you brought a mountain of sorrow to me.
Every inch of my being ached in extremed pain, but you know nothing about it.
All you know is you, yourself.

I can give you all I have but not my pride.
My pride is the only thing that I cannot give out.
If you don't love me, please don't fool me with your dirty tricks.
I had enough of sorrow that you brought to me!
I cannot take it anymore, I give up.
You are making my heart dying, and I'm not that twit to let you success.

Is time for me to say goodbye to you.
Is time for me to love myself more.
Is time for me to protect my pride.

I'm fine if my life without you,
even though is hard at the beginning,
but I know I can overcome the obstacle.

Without you,
I still have my family and friends beside me.
You are not the Sun and I'm not the earth.
I'm just who I am. I'm an independent single lady.
And my name is Melissa Sen =)

10.11.2010

Sorry for "dumping" my blog so long, recently really busy =(

I have Marketing quiz for tomorrow and yet I haven't start study.

In addition, I need study 4 CHAPTERS! Seriously not 1 or 2 is 4!

But luckily is the quiz is mcq format =P

Today I skipped CTS class.

Because there is no difference whether i got attend the class or not.

I just go there and pay attention not more than 15mins then fall asleep.

Some more the teacher always ignore my existence!!!!! 

Well, going to his class is wasting my time.

SO that's why I rather talk crap with friends also don't want to attend class.

Don't worry  about my result, so far I haven't fail any CTS's quiz or exam.

Maybe soon will be? HAHA! I don't know!!

So during cts class, I actually at corridor with this two leng lui =P

the one who on chair is Shan and the without face is Stephy.

Is Stephy Foong not my Stephy Chen >.< 

And you can ignore their wierd/funny/whatever position

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

WELL, THEY ARE BEST FRIEND =D

Don't think too much!!! HAHA

They are awesome in the way they are.

If you found the way, you will definitely be happy to know them.

College friends rock our life just like high school friends do =)

This is the result when two people are too free and nothing to do in the toilet.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

You know what, carry a person and run in the corridor really tiring.

Even though that person is damn skinny. HAHA

Well, but I do enjoy the process! xD

Since college is the place for us to being crazy,

COLLEGE LIFE ROCKS IF FRIENDS ARE AROUND YOU =)

SEE MY BLACK EYES!

THANKS TO TERM PAPERS!!!!

My hair is so long, is time for me to cut!

BUT I HAVE NO TIMES =(

Today Human Comm. Replacement class was DAMN AWESOME =)

I'm loving it! HAHA

Is time to say BYE BYE again. 

Don't miss me yaaaaa =D

HAHAHAHAHA

Ciao.

08.11.2010

Hey peeps!
Sorry for long time didn't update my blog.
Recently I was quite busy, i guess? HAHA
I just don't have the right mood to write at here, sorry @.@
As I told you guys, 2nd semester is the most hectic one.
Assignment are just killing me slowly, I prefer exam =(
My new roommate sometimes is so busy body.
I don't like that, though I have nothing to do with that.
What a lifeless life. Seriously living with an old woman is not a good things.
Anyway, I think I still can bear with her? Perhaps ~.~

Yesterday I went to SS2 McD for Marketing assignment discussion with Nich and Cwei.
We did discuss about marketing assignment, but most of the time we are crapping.
HAHA. Yet we took a lot of pictures there.

OH MY!!! HAHA

Cwei said this is the epic one =D

Nicholas's head so big !

CANT SEE ME LA

No eyes see, no ears listen, no mouth to say

LOL

SO CUTE  =D

woohoooooooooooo~ xD

I love this one too =D

McD session was fun and crazy, yet I enjoyed every moment :) 

At night went to SS2 again, with Lionel, Denzie, Natalie

We went to eat there, then I back hostel with Vincent

Because they all plan to study at McD, so I back hostel tumpang Dai Lou's car

the most unbelievable thing was I slept before 12a.m!!! HAHA

Today I sleep until 12a.m, because I have a sweet dream =)

Went to lunch at AliMaju with roommate.

Actually nothing special happened today, like usual.

McC called me, we talk for almost 1hr i think?

So long we didn't meet, miss him :P

Due to I slept too much today, I think I won'st sleep tonight?

I need to rush my marketing report!!!! HAHA

Jie Jie said I look cute in this picture =D

*shy shy* HAHAHAHAHAHHAA

天秤

身为天秤,出生在秋天的天秤,忧郁是与生俱来的-----尽管人前你见不到一个愁眉苦脸的天秤,甚至很多人认为天秤是一个大大咧咧的粗线条.天秤太善于伪装,或者说,不愿意让不了解的自己的人过多地知道自己的心情. 在爱中,尤其如此.天秤的爱永远像是暗恋:有好感的时候,听到对方的名字，看到对方的身影,都会有一种不一样的感觉,但是自己会很克制不表现出来.即使有机会在一起,在众人当中,天秤跟谁都谈笑自如，亲切有加,惟独对自己在意的那个人,远远的,只用余光感受他的存在.他的一个表情,一句话,都在天秤心里引起阵阵涟漪.这样做的结果,往往是求近而得远.但是没有办法,天秤就是这样无法克服自己的本能.面对喜欢的人,会莫名地自卑羞怯.其实天秤是很善于和异性相处的,从小到大,也不缺乏哥们似的朋友.但是,对自己喜欢的那个人,她做不到那样洒脱.哪怕只是主动地打个招呼,也会紧张对方会不会看透自己的心思.天秤期待爱,但又恐惧爱的力量会将自己拖入万劫不复的深渊. 即使两个人最终相爱了,天秤依然表现得冷静有余,热情不足.她会在任何时刻想到你,天气的变化，随便遇到的什么人或者事,念头一闪就转到你的身上去.她会在夜晚想着你的好或者不好,高兴或者难过地默默流泪.她会设身处地为你想很多很多,甚至想得太周到连你自己都想不到的周到.她会为你的某个失误找各种各样的借口,在质问你之前已经原谅了你,但是还是要你一个解释,一个简单的合理或者不合理的解释就轻易能让她释怀.她会为要不要给你打电话或者发短信犹豫很久,生怕打扰到你或者令你不方便不耐烦.她会想象出无数个美好的相处场景,沉浸其中不能自拔. 但这一切,她不会让你知道.天秤并不缺少爱的能量,但缺少爱的勇气.或者说,如果有什么是天秤不能为你做的事情的话,那就是放弃自尊.自尊是天秤的最后一块堡垒,生死共存.天秤看上去开朗,其实细腻而心重.她一生都在期待真正懂她的感情的那个人.你来了,她有多么激动;可是,她又不敢相信那个人真的就是你.她等得太久太苦,以至于都绝望了.所以当那个人出现的时候,她反而慌乱失措了.她不知道如何在一个热烈的爱人与优雅的女人之间做出选择,你更喜欢哪一个呢?她不断地问自己.一方面,她也在不断地问自己:我这样做会不会失去自我?他会喜欢这样的我吗?如果她不喜欢,我怎么样做回自己? 这样复杂而强烈的情绪,你不会真正体味得到.天秤掩饰得那么好,只会对你微笑,即使流泪,也是静静的,不会哭喊发作.如果有伤害,她会一个人反复回味,直到在痛的重复体验中失去痛的敏感,再原谅你,继续.她不大会谴责,不大会推卸责任,她永远把错先揽在自己一边.甚至归结为自己个性的缺陷.天秤在爱里的自卑使她不得不这样在黑暗里爱着.她怕你知道她的"不好",她自以为是的不好.也怕你为她而难过伤心,那样还不如她自己独自忍受.也许伤到最后,天秤发现自己无力再承受了,她会安静地走开.绝望与崩溃,也不会让你看到,哪怕她痛苦到极点,你看到的,仍然是一个平静的天秤;顶多,有些冷漠.那冷漠也未必是针对你,很可能，是针对爱的. 天秤知道,最输不起的,就是感情.交付起来,是一点点,一滴滴,直至沦陷;破碎时,却是大厦倾颓,天昏地暗.她了解人性中的任何世俗与卑微的心理,她怕自己柔弱的爱情成为这些丑恶的猎物.-----这就是天秤,即使受伤,她依然会把过错归于人性的弱点,而不会,真正地去恨.你看到她淡淡地来,淡淡地去了,却不知道,她的心无声地碎裂成了什么样子. 天秤的爱情就像在上演的一部电影，他们就在这出戏里，眼看着它从开始到结束。落幕并不可怕，秤子们在乎的是他们成就了一部电影。 　　

天秤不喜欢落入俗套中的爱情。与 天秤爱过的人，也许回头来看，都不知道该怎样去评价那个秤子。爱着的时候是淡淡的，离开的时候也是淡淡的，甚至，连分手的理由都不屑追问。假如一个秤子在你面前掉了一次泪，你决不会想到她在背后曾为你哭过无数回。 天秤的爱情有些自闭。他们喜欢纠缠在回忆里，幻想里，那些破碎不堪的画面对他们来说就意味着完整。其实，做秤子的爱人真是轻松得很，你不用刻意去安排什么浪漫的场合，你什么都不用做。因为， 天秤都有一颗浪漫的心。只要心里有爱，再平凡再普通的事也被他们美化了。 　　

天秤的内心真的是很温柔。这种温柔绝不是娇柔做作的那种，而是有一颗明事理的心。 天秤懂得尊重别人，这并不是人云亦云，事实上，秤子没有那么多的好奇心去在乎每个人的想法，对自己不在乎的人，又何必较真呢？这是秤子做人的道。而对于自己爱的人，他们的一言一行秤子会拿来奉做“圣经”。 　　

天秤喜欢钻牛角尖，没错。一旦他们爱上一个人，就很难再去相信自己的直觉。他们会抓住对方的一句话，一个举动，然后暗地里穷分析，直到得出自己最确信的答案。当然，他们得出的结论也是相对客观的，秤子不会傻到蒙蔽自己。但，殊不知这天底下最难测的就是人心，而喜欢猜心的秤子往往是被自己弄得筋疲力尽的。 　　

爱情是一个人的事。 天秤肯定对这句话大有感触。爱上了，倒反而寂寞了，因为想把自己交给一个人去了解，可这个人懂吗？值得吗？面对着眼前这个若即若离，神秘又淡然的秤子，谁又会想到他们的内心正起着暗涌。而相反的，爱上秤子的人会在某一天突然却步了，想要放弃了。原因只有两点：一是感到缺乏安全感。摸不透秤子的想法，热度也不够，温温的。要知道这世上的俗人千千万，也许他们在认识你的第一天就想着跟你上床，而秤子期待的爱情是首先要建立在精神上的，美的，有幻想空间的。于是，分道扬镳。二是感到秤子的爱是种负担，因为秤子的爱里容不下一粒沙。其实，秤子最喜欢的是和自己过不去，但，人永远无法超越的却是自己。秤子的这个结老也打不开。 　　

天秤多有自虐倾向。他们天生就懂得“悲剧艺术”的魅力，他们的爱情里要是没有一点悲剧色彩，就好象是不完美的。矛盾吧？！虽然，秤子们追求的是幸福美满，但他们又喜欢作茧自缚。失恋的秤子，往往不会寻找什么好的途径来忘却，相反，他们会找出所有的情歌来听，让自己沉浸在其中无法自拔，直到自己都撑不下去为止。 　　也许，只有那种历经坎坷，途径九九八十一难最后才修得正果的爱情才是他们内心最最向往的。所以，要是没有一点“分量”的感情， 天秤有时就会“分心”。 　　

天秤就是这样的，爱到后来也不知道自己在爱什么，冷暖自知...... 很多人讨厌天秤，说天秤们难以捉摸，变化莫测，最会当和事老。其实只是他们不了解天秤，上帝的失误让天秤成为了最悲伤的星座，但是善良的天秤们却是单纯的让人觉得可爱。所以不要琢磨天秤，试着理解天秤你就会爱上她们。 爱上天秤的人也不要困惑，我们是一群没有安全感的孩子，所以我们逃避，我们恐慌，如果你真的爱你的天秤，就把你所能给她的你最大的安全感都给她，最后你会发现爱上一个天秤是多么幸福！

A letter from a lost sheep.

亲爱的天父，

神，我遗失了对你的信心。我甚至质疑你的存在和你对我的爱。打从我出世开始，我就已经认识你了。从我懂事以来，大人们总是对我说天上住着一位天父，他很爱我们。 也许是从小就有人对我灌输这个概念，我从来都不曾质疑你的存在。我是个在教会长大的小孩，从小就听着你的教导。随着年龄的增长，我和你的距离也开始增加。可是我也还是相信着你。直道我跟随我的牧师，去到了一个新的教会。我开始对你认真起来，和你的距离也逐渐缩小。当我开始全心相信你的时候，你却把我对入地狱。你让我经历了一段生不如死的过程。主啊，当我在寻求你时，你在哪里啊？当我迫切需要你的时候，你在哪里？我祷告寻求你的答案，可是你却不曾回应我。在哪一段生不如死的过程，我失望透顶，心都痛的流血了。亏我起初还满怀抱着对你的信心与期望，深信你会保护我。结果当我在最需要你的时候，你却不在我的身边。那时候的我恨你，埋怨你，甚至诅咒你。我恨你为什么让我经历了一些生不如死的经验，我埋怨你没有把我救出来。当然这时候的我已经失去了我唯一的理智。如果说这是你对我的试探，那么我只能说，我输了，彻底的输了，还把我的信心都输给魔鬼了。主啊，我真的不是所谓的女强人，我也有软弱的一面。主啊，我输掉了我的信心，你可以教我如何取回吗？你知道吗，我怕，如果我的信心取回来了，你又会给我试探。主啊，我真的希望你是真的存在的。主啊，我真的希望你是真的爱我的。主啊，你可以给我个回应吗？告诉我你是真的，一直都存在，一直都爱我。主啊，要是你不是真的，我都不知道该怎么办好。因为我一直以为你是我生命的依靠，为我的生命铺路。主啊，你可以抱抱我吗？好让我感觉你的温暖与你的爱。身在异乡的我，有时候你真的是我精神上唯一的依靠。主啊，我累了。你可以接我回天家吗？我爱你爱的好累，我爱我自己也爱得好苦，爱他也爱得无力。未来的路我看不见也摸不着。阿爸天父，你可以教我该怎么办吗？我真的很辛苦，我真的累了。我可以回天家了吗？

天父阿，我迷失了。

你可以来解救我吗？

可以抱抱我吗？

迷失
的小羊

04.11.2010

Hi! My nearly dead blog.

Thanks God You are still alive =)

Recently I was quite busy for assignments as I mentioned before.

Good New is I finished and submitted my English research paper.

Thanks to Mr Justin Gor Gor who helped me a lot on this xD

Bad News are I still have Marketing report and Human Comm. report.

Luckily that it is group assignment if not I'm dead already.

Because we need to write about 2000 to 2500 words for each report.

Next week would be a stressful and busy week.

Because assignments are due on coming next week and I have marketing and cts quizzes as well!
OKAY, I feel like wanna run away from HELP already!!! And flee back to Sabah !!! xD

Stop day dreaming and be realistic, COPE WITH STRSS, MEH! I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!!!

Fine fine fine, lets talk about something that can motivate myself =)

I got my marks for my CTS midterm instead of quiz 1 first.

Supposed to be the teacher should distribute the quiz 1 first, but.......

Fine, my mark is not that bad but I'm satisfied with the mark.

I seriously don't like my CTS lecturer, I think most of his students dont like him too.

My other subjects like Advanced English, Human Communication and Marketing results are not bad at least I didn't fail any of them. *Clap hands for myself* =)

I have new roommate AGAIN. My previous roommate doesn't want to study at HELP.

My roommate is from China. She is already 26 years old and seriously NOT TALL at all.

Compare to her, I'm really look like a giant! HAHA xD

She is going to study master in here, but before that she need to take English course first.

That's all I know about her, ermm.... I forgot what's her name already!! LOL

SORRY! I will remember her name next time, *probably*

Let's talk about something else xD

Yesterday when I reach hostel, then I slept like a pig until today 4am!!!

Then I watched the hong kong drama, 读心神探.

This drama was awesome!!! Love it very much.

I hope that there is coming second season xD

Today I skipped marketing class, felt a little bit guilty now.

As someone said that we paid for to attend the class and skip class is NOT GOOD. xD

I think I'm not going to skip class next time ( *think only laaa*) AHAHAHA

OH YA! Today I ate TWO SLICES of CHEESE CAKE!!! WOOHOOO!!!

YUMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYY =) I'm loving it xD

BUT I gonna be fat fat fat fat fatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt =(

Don't care laaa..... AS LONG AS IM HAPPY!!!!!

I wanna show you guys a picture xD

This is my FIRST TEDDY from a friend =)

HAHA!!! It used to sleep beside me but now no more =(

Because it now at KK and now I in KL >.<

Plus I now have MONKEYS TOO!!!

HAHAHAHHA

K la~ My post is so long already.

Bye and take care ya people =)

02.11.2010

2nd Novermber =)

Today is a special day for someone.

Today is my little sister's birthday.

Happy Birthday ya JING JING =)

Today I called her just to say Happy Birthday then I hang up the call.

LOL. FUNNY. SORRY NO PRESENT.

You sister is too poor already and you also didn't buy me present :P

I know I'm a good sister.

This is the truth.

To Jing Jing,

You know what, sometimes I really dont LIKE you lea.

Just like our elder sister used to don't like me last time.

This is just a cycle so you accept it la, OKAY?

I know today is your birthday but i have a request to you.

Can you please don't call my nickname since you are younger than me.

I know is awkward for both of us since you USED to call me like that.

BUT can you please at least try to be more respect me as your sister.

You are younger than me, this is a face that would not change FOREVER.

So please do put this in mind if you read this =)

AND,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY =)