30.01.2010

First time I enjoy Sunday so  much since the second semester =D
Today I didn't go church because I was too tired and could not wake up on time >.<
Plus my buddies went back to their hometown so no people accompany.

Today went to Jamie's house "bai nian" >.<
I know it was a bit early to "bai nian",
but because during CNY, few of us are not here so yeah~! haha
Eve came my house wait Gordon to come and fetch us xD

We chit-chat for whole day long at Jamie's house, WEEE~!
Even though we seldom contact each other lately,
but it doesn't affect our friendship =D RIGHT? HAHA
I might changed a bit but I'm still the miss monkey that you guys know =D

Love you all like usual <3<3<3

We took some pictures after a long long conversation =D Showtime~

 Happy Chinese New Year =D

I know I became fatter already!

STOP POKING MY ROUND FACE T_T

Girls Group Photo with Auntie's Ang Pau $v$

This year is rabbit year laaa >.<

Eve

(Jamie said eve become 又老又黑又干)

(so mean right :P  HAHAHA)

Jamie 

(evil culprit who said something mean)

Michelle 

(SICK CAT)

Gordon

(also aka Gor Gor)

(same hometown with my dad)

(stay in the same taman with me)

(TWO DAYS OLDER THAN ME)

(so he is my brother la =D)

Plan to write more but no mood already.

Bro using pps and eat line like hell!

Cannot upload pictures! SIENZ 

That's all for today la !

See ya! 

29.01.2011

Today plan cancelled due to some reasons.
So yeah, didn't go out with friends today.
But went out with my cousin today.
Accompany her to buy somethings~

I have no ideas what's wrong with my eyes.
Feel like I'm going to be blind soon. =(
Maybe lack of sleep i guess? Hmmmmmm

My family keep ask me to re-cut my fringe.
They want me to cut "liu hai" >_<
They keep persuade me to do so >_<
Well, maybe I will go cut a "liu hai" LOL

偶尔还是会想起

偶尔还是会想念

可是当偶尔过去了

就不再想起或想念

就算偶尔再怎么放不下

当偶尔过去了就自然放得下

我的步调或许有点慢

可是总有一天

我还是会抵达终点

That's all for today.

I'm fatigued and totally exhausted.

Thanks to my sister =S HAHA

Good night  and sweet dreams!  

28.01.2011

You know what, today I went to barber shop and had a hair cut.
Actually not much difference compared to last time.
The only difference was just my fringe became shorter?
And also my hair become "thinner" ??
Well, I will take a photo and show you guys one day =)

Today went out with my old friend. Genevieve.
I know her for almost 9 to 10 years ?
I don't really remember when we first met.
We went to UpperStar had our dinner at 6am?
Then I accompany her to attend her college talent night.

In the talent night, I met few of my secondary school friends.
What was surprised me was HO JEONG YIH!!
OMG, he changed a lot!!! >__<
Now he can dance! and yet he perform in talent night!
You can't imagine how noob he was during secondary school!
Opps =D I should not say that! LOL HAHA

Tonight I met 2 weird persons!
Well, they are just too funny until I don't know how to describe them! LOL
Anyway, I'm sure tonight I drank too much water!
Keep Yum cha ~ @.@

Reality is just too real and mean.

Adults are too selfish and ego.

The world is just too unfair and cruel.

I know one day I will become adult too.

I know one day I might behave like a adult too.

But for now, I just cant understand why the world must be like this.

I just don't know how to deal with the world, adults, and reality.

Suddenly, I felt the burden on my shoulder become heavier and heavier.

Suddenly, I'm afraid of getting older and refuse to become like an adult.

Sigh. I know life is not easy but why don't it become simple a bit?

I know I am asking too much already.

Bear with that with a smile =)

That's all for today!

Sorry for not putting any pictures >.<

Actually plan to put some pictures to introduce the people that I mentioned.

But too bad, I'm too tired and lazy. HAHA

Ciao.

By Blue Mel

27.01.2011

Hello people =)

I'm no longer in my hostel already!

Currently now at Kota Kinabalu =)

Sabahan, COME DATE ME =D

My room is no longer my room. LOL

Now I have to share room with my sisters!

Not that bad but I just don't use to it yet.

Cleaned my wardrobe with my sister.

Throw the old(really old) shirtssss away! 

HAHAHAHAHAH

Not throw, is donate! lol >_<

You know what,

I seriously need a hair cut!

You see my fringe!

Damn long wei =(

Need to clip my hair then just can see my face =(

OMG

I spotted something!

BLACK EYES! SO BIG!

A big Credit for SzeYung! =)

Thanks for sending me to airport!

And also my KL friends who call me before my flight =)

Only one heartless people didn't call or even text me!

Renee hor, that person no heart de right =( sam tam jor 

wakakakakakakkakaka

To all my college friends,

please study hard for your quizzes and good luck!

(condition is if you have any quiz)

Happy Holiday =)

ENJOY!!!

That's all for today =)

Good Night !

26.01.2011

Finally Econ's Quiz 1 was finally over.

Well, it was kinda difficult.

But I tried my best already =)

Today accompany my friend to MidValley to shopping.

I'm quit impressed by his speed! Woots =)

He used 1 hour to buy 3 cloths and finished his dinner.

Well, this was really efficient wei :P

Tonight had Auntie's Ann as dinner =)

Yummy! I just love to eat the pretzel~

I love the original one >.< I don't like those weird flavor @.@

Yeah! Tomorrow is the day =D

Tomorrow I'm going back to my hometown!

Weeeeeeeee!!! Cant wait already >_<

But I haven't pack my stuffs yet ~ LOL

Even though I cant wait to back KK,

But I'm just too lazy to pack! @.@

I'm a lazy bum! Yea, I know that!

Oh ya, I have a new NickName =)

Meh..Mermaid 

LOL 

I know I'm random! 

wakakakkakaka :P

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I hate people fail to keep an appointment.

I hate people ffk me.

You never know how the disappointment hurt my heart inside.

You never know how the feel of being ignore by your friends.

You never know know how the feeling of being left out by your friends.

I never blame on anyone.

The one I can blame is only me, myself.

Accept the fact and smile are all I need/can to do.

有时候

太过在乎

会变的太过执著

太过在乎

甚至放下身段

收敛脾气

压抑着自己的情绪

到最后

失去自我

换来的却是失望

也许因该尝试不要太过在乎

因为这样自己才会更开心

25.01.2011

Tomorrow I'm going to sit for my Economics Quiz 1.
Well, I really not good in Econs!
Just now during Econs class, I thought the teacher was using Alien Language!
OMG, I will become dead meat soon =(
But I will try my best to do well! =)

2 more days to go! =)
I'm going back Kk on this Thursday!
Weeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!
Cant wait to see my family and friendss !!!
Oh ya! I miss my bolster too! ^^

I really love my Psychology lecturer =)
She is really hot and cool!!!!
Well, I just love her class la =)
Because we learn and play at the same time!!

Just now I was reading my previous blog.
Well, memories like replay in my mind.
Don't know how to describe my feel.
But I know that I'm fine =)
Like my friend said,
Let the past become history! =)
Well, I think I should listen to him ^v^

Wish me luck for my quiz!
I need a lot of them =(
May God be with me!
(this is what we call 临时抱佛脚)
(Oppss, is 耶稣脚 ! Im a Christian :P)

21.01.2011

1.54am

I'm still awake and yet drinking a cup of hot milo.

Somehow, I enjoy this moment =)

I just finished my statistic tutorial 3,

And I felt a small glow of satisfaction.

I like the feeling when I solved a mathematic question!

But sometimes statistic is just not my cup of tea.

Anyway, I will bear with that since its a core subject. SIGH~

Recently, I feel like my health condition is getting worse compared to last time.

This is all because I'm obstinate. LOL

I refuse and kinda lazy to take medicine!

Unhealthy lifestyle is also another reason too.

I will try to improve my health!!! (try la)

Today my dad called me!

He now is working in Ranau =(

He is still working because of us.

He is alone in Ranau but yet he still choose to go there because of us.

I know he call me because he is lonely!

I feel so sorry to my dad!

My result is not good enough that can make him proud =(

I miss you dady! =(

I love you!!

I will study hard!

There are no time for me to think of others things!

I need to study hard so that I wont disappoint my parent!

6 more days to go =)

I miss my home!

* I will smile until the end of my day *

No face to see!

My statistic lecturer is so nice and fun =)

Even though I don't really like statistic that much,

But I enjoy her class very much!

Plus all my sui po-sssss are there >.< 

During free time, I played CS with MuiMui =)

This was my first time to play CS!

And I won ^.^ WEEEE

I killed her for 25times and she killed me for 20times!

AHAHAHAHAHAH

It was fun to play but I got SERIOUS HEACHACHE  after playing CS!

T _ T

Watched this movie at MidValley with 4 sha po-ssss

Oh Ya, Kit Yann bought the ticket!

THIRD ROW FROM THE FRONT!

After watching the movie, my neck, eyes, waist were damn pain lea!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

JUST KIDDING! 

Anyway, the movie was nice!

It was a typical local movie that only Malaysian will understand!

"我接受不到咯" 

It also kinda touch =)

If you are Malaysia, you should watch it!

Women are always labelled as shopaholic.

Well, somehow that I'm agreed with this statement!

I like to shop but not as crazy as others.

And I don't like to go shopping with friends! lol

I know I'm a weirdo! Please bear with me! 

My 5 sui po-sssss sure are shopaholic! 

WAKAKAKAKAKAKAAK

I wanted to dye my hair!

But family don't let me to do so!

SIENZ!

That's all for today!

Wish you have a great day because I have one today!

Good Night and Sweet dream =)

* I will smile until the end of my day =) *

19.01.2011

Wanted to write something but currently my brain is totally blank.

Now my mood like sitting on a roller coaster ~

Sometimes feel very happy and sometimes feel kinda down.

Well, I can't really describe what me feel now.

Even though I have used to the pain in my heart, but it still pain.

Someone told me that I'm ain't that weak

Feeling heart pain doesn't mean that you are weak.

I really trying my best already!

I cant control how my heart feel.

No matter how hard I try I will still feel the pain.

Even though it hurt, but I'm not standing on the same ground anymore.

It maybe just a small step, but I'm moving forward.

I smile even though it hurts me.

I pretend to be happy even though it hurts me.

"Smile!" I always remind myself to smile!

Thanks for reminding me that I'm ain't not that weak =)

Recently, I seriously think that

I'm STUPID, DUMB, COWARD, IDIOT

Anyway, 8 more days to go!

I want to fast forward the time! PLEASE! 

* I will smile until the end of my day =) *

OMGG

You know what

I think I'm the most stupid person in this world!

URGHHHHHHHH

Can go bang the wall already! 

LOL!

I'm a serious DUMB DUMB

LOL!

cant even understand what I'm typing right now!

LOL! 

CIAO!

17.01.2010

刚刚看完了一个系列的爱情小说

“八楼公寓” 这是一个很不错看的系列

如果你也喜欢看爱情小说

你应该也会喜欢这个系列的小说

我很喜欢看小说

真的真的很喜欢 

因为那样的爱情很完美

可是却永远都不会发生在现实生活里

原来爱情就是那么难

最近一直过着颓废的生活

是时候收拾心情振作了

不可以再颓废下去 

再撑多十天就没事了

再忍多十天就可以回家了

I will smile until the end of my day =)

I dont like 

"err okay"

or

"Z"

or

"..."

Dedicated to Someone

January 13 was a special date for someone
Somehow, it became a special date for me too
Because the someone is kinda special for me
So do you know who is the someone?

She is a caring person
She care so much for her friends
She has the biggest smile on her face
Oh ya, she is crazy too
I saw her tears before
Well, tears just don't suit you baby!

I think I'm the last one who tell you
"Happy Birthday" on January 13
I didn't greet you that day when we were together
You thought I forgot already right?
HAHA, actually I remembered!
Since I cant be the first one then I want to be the last!
So that you can remember me forever!

That's my baby Yann =)

14.01.2011

My mood was not really good recently.
I have serious homesick and something else happened.
I was kinda depressed and moody.
But I think I feel better now, i guess >.<
Today talked a lot with Denzie =)
Thanks for accompany and tell me a lot of shit i mean things!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAH
AND I USE ONE MSG TO GET A STARBUCK FROM HIM!
WOOOOOOOTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
NGEK NGEK NGEK
Stop talk crap! wanna sleep early tonight!
Having insomnia lately! =(
I WANT SLEEP EARLY! TOMORROW STUDY ECON!

我真的想家了
我要回家
真的很想很想回家了
我不想再这里呆下去了
我要回家
一直告诉自己
要坚强
要微笑
要撑着
可是我
不想　
再坚强
再微笑
再撑下去
我想回家
现在就要
谁可以带我回家
我真的不要在这里
我很辛苦
我要回家

暧昧

暧昧是一场美丽的陷阱

暧昧也是现在所谓的潮流

可是暧昧永远不属于爱情

它连爱情的边缘都沾不上

暧昧就好像毒品一样

明知道它伤身也伤神

可是却始终也舍不得放手

最后搞得自己遍体鳞伤

试问我们还能够抵抗多少次的暧昧？

暧昧是属于勇敢玩家的游戏

没有铁石心肠的人最后不要碰它

因为输不起真心

到最后还失去了知己

我陷入了美丽的陷阱

犯了一个不该犯的错

输掉了真心也失去了知己

你的话让我哭笑不得

不知因该感动还是伤心

虽然你残忍的要求我

但我无法再把你当成朋友了

你那所谓的“最好的朋友”

就让我们当那所谓的“最熟悉的陌生人”

我知道你很疼我这个好朋友

所以请你以后别再靠近我

当作最后对我的温柔

Memories

If memories are deletable,

Would you delete those somber one?

If memories are playable,

Would you keep replay those jubilant one?

Something had wet my face

I thought it was the sky who crying

But it wasn't the raindrops but my tears

If memories are deletable

I want to delete all the memories that about you

Whether is delighted moment or disheartened moment

It memories are playable

I want to replay all the delighted moment that without you

Unfortunately 

Memory is beyond our control

We neither can delete the memories or replay it

Memories will never be deletable unless we lost our memory

You are hurting me, MEMORIES!

You broke my heart

And now I have to mend it

Even though the wound had recovered

But sometimes it still hurt

EXCRUCIATING PAIN

Mountain of Sorrow

Handling with mountain of sorrow was not as easy as ABC

My life seemed like completely out of balance

Every inch of my being ached in extreme pain

Especially my heart because it was broken

It was like thousand of knives plunging into my heart

The most irony thing was I had to smile

As I vowed that I will smile until the end of my day

I wanted to dissolve into tears badly

But I was dehydrated

I have no more tears left in the window of the soul

I embraced myself tightly in the middle of the rains 

So that raindrops can pretended to be my tears

How I wished that the autonomic division of my body will stop functioning

So that my heart will stop beating and my lungs will stop breathing

Silent Love

There are many ways to love a person

But what I choose is to be silent

It may sound stupid or coward

But I think that is the best for me now

Because there is no difference whether you know it or not

There will always no answer for me

Therefore I rather to be silent

And wait the love to fade away one day

I just don't want the past to repeat once again

A silent love from me to you 

Thanks to you , I learnt a lesson.

Forcing myself to forget you is useless

but to wait the time to erode my love

It may be hurt at first, but there are no wound that would never recover

It may took eternity or just even a blink of an eye

I don't know how long it took for me to forget a person

But I'm sure one day I will.

Every wound in my heart is a lesson that I learnt from different people.

10.01.2011

Today is not my day.
My mood is kinda down today.
Well, it maybe due to homesick or whatever.
Whenever my mood is down, I will keep walking around.
So just now I went out and walked and walked.
I walked from Mcd till RHB Bank, then to Mama Kitchen?
I don't know how many round I walked from point A till point B.
I felt calm when I am keep walking, because my brain wont function.
I mean I choose to stay focus on walking. LOL
Well, I know I sound stupid but this is how I make myself calm.
Anyway, I feeling better now. At least better than just now.
I hope this wont happen again =( Because I just don't like it.
Anyway, next time when you saw me walked like a zombie,
you will know what's wrong with me!! LOL
HAHA! Good Night

I miss home =(

Happy Birthday to my dearest cousin, Ying Ying!!

Sorry for delaying your wish >.<

Because I was damn sick recently !!

I am damn miss home now after I saw the photos she posted on facebook!

I'm the only one who missing!

Now I'm damn imba!

Now I am in LS 8 with a group of insane college friends!

They are playing CS with lots of sound effect!

It is fun to watch them play!!! 

Funny!!!

09.01.2011

Finally I finish watching Bleach! Still waiting for the coming episodes! 

I'm so in love with Anime, please don't ask me why as i don't know the answer too!

Anyway, plan to study but failed! End up with facebooking, chating, and blogging.

There is a rumour that about Facebook is going to closed on March.

Well, I don't know it's true or not but I don't like it =(

Facebook has become part of our life, it may have bad influence but it is cool!

Hope that the news is not true as I love facebook!!! =D

Today I text-ed him, glad to know that he is doing well recently.

Well, it was me who chose this ending. 

I don't deny that I will miss him, but i never regret for what i had chose.

Life goes on, memories will fade one day too. So be happy with what you have!

HAHA! Stop crapping if not someone will kill me!

Today I went to Jusco Kepong with Faiz and one Korean guy(I don't remember his name)

We watched Seasons of the Witch! Its nice but kinda scary T T

Anyway, enjoy it too!!!!

Heachache now =( Gonna stop ! wanna oi oi ! See ya!

08.01.2011

Tonight is the first time I watched movie in 2011.
Well, big credit for Nicholas and Aaron!!!!!
Thanks for bringing me out for dinner and movie.
So that tonight I no need to eat maggie again!!!
I have continuously eat maggie for these 3 days!!!
We went to MidValley to watch movie!!
We watched the Gulliver's Travels!!
Well, It was really lame but we enjoy it!!!
Really enjoy when hang out with them!!!
Thanks for tonight!! =)
Didn't you notice that I keep using "!!!" ??
AHAHAH! The reason is because i am too HYPER now!!
hahahahahhahaha
GOOD NIGHT and SWEET DREAM!!!!
I SUPPOSE TO SLEEPING NOW!! HAHAHA

I'm back.

Hey~ It has been awhile that I didn't update my blog.
Oppss.. I saw dust and spiderweb are everywhere!!
It's time for me to clean up my blog!!! HAHAHAHA
College had started for a week! Anyway, so far so good!!
All my lecturers are cool and awesome, I guess.
Anyway, I will try my best this semester!
Because I would not want to stay here for another semester.
By the way, this would be my last semester if I didn't fail.
My God bless me and be with me all the time, AMEN =)

Recently, the aura of lazyness has engulfed my soul!
I have turned into super duper lazy people!  LOL
And this need to thanks to ANIME! >.<
I have addicted to it so much! I LOVE ANIME!
Anyway, I will stop Anime for awhile.
I need to concentrate on my study now.
Lazyness only allowed in the first week of this semester!
So I still have one day to be lazy! NGEK NGEK NGEK!
Ciao.

错的人

明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬

朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
但是做人已经那么累
假惺惺的想要逃
在爱里连真心都不能给
这才真正的可笑

爱得太真太容易让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易不顾一切满是伤痕
我太笨明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身


明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬

朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
但是做人已经那么累
假惺惺的想要逃
在爱里连真心都不能给
这才真的真正可笑
爱得太真太容易让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易不顾一切满是伤痕
我太笨明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身

可能在爱里面这样算笨
可能永远没有所谓永恒
但是我不愿放弃这里面一点点可能
宁愿笨也不想要悔恨

爱得太真太容易让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易不顾一切满是伤痕
我太笨明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但我还是奋不顾身
我太笨明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但我相信有点可能