宝贝

近来他都很忙

最近这几个礼拜都没有睡好

希望这首歌能让他有个好眠

宝贝，别忙坏身子

我爱你 =)

12.12.2012

Its common that people inside their cars pose those weird poses to passerby.
I don't know whether you have this kind of experience or not, but I met some before.
It's not surprise for me if there are people posing weird pose to me inside their car.
Actually I found this quite amusing because those people are adults.
As an adult, posing such childish,ignorance or rather stupid poses to a passerby?
Seriously, I despise you and shame for you. For me, they are just making fun on themselves.
So, normally I will just ignore them, pretend you see nothing.
The reason why I bring up this issue is this happened to me on this morning.
If the "people" are normal citizens, then there is nothing big deal about it. Because its normal.
BUT, this time, the "people" is an authority figure, a policeman.
Today when I was waiting to cross the road, a police car passed by me.
The police car's speed was not fast, at least it was slow enough for me to notice the policeman's silly act.
The policeman in the passenger seat look at me and posed a peace sign with a silly and ugly smile to me.
And I was like, excuse me? A policeman? An authority figure? Seriously, I was speechless.
At that moment, what I felt was only disappointment and despair.
Although I understand that not all the policemen are like that, but that policeman really .........
All I can say is that policeman had jeopardized the policeman's image.
If there is a chance that the head of policemen is reading this,
PLEASE, make sure all the policemen outside are qualified to be a policeman.

领悟

计划永远赶不上变化

我永远赶不上改变的速度

只能停懈在过去

反复着重播我们的过去

告别1字头

迎接2字头

我们都不小了，该长大了

各自追寻自己的梦想

仿佛你走你的阳关道

而我走我的独木桥

随着时间与距离的侵蚀

彼此的亲密度也被腐蚀了

坦白说

一开始的心

犹如刀割

一天一天过去了

受伤的心终于止血了

但却碎了

好不容易复原

却多了一道伤疤

刚愈合的伤口

偶尔还是会阵痛

那痛，让我放弃了

一天一天又过去了

终于不再钻牛角尖

心胸放宽一点

学习不再执著

世界变快乐了

后来领悟到

原来改变有时候也意味着成长

适时候的改变

对你或我可能不是件坏事

也许当下是难以接受

但当改用平常心去看待时

世界又变更美丽了

今夜的我沦陷了

沉沦在那快乐回忆

想起我们以前的点点滴滴

嘴角不自觉的往上

原来我笑了

谢谢你们给我一个美好的回忆

有多少苦痛有你和我一起度過 一起承受

有多少快樂有你和我一起享受 一起感動

29.11.2012

Time flies. Wonder whether it's my illusion or time just pass quicker nowadays?
Officially done with all assignments. Hooray~ No more assignment!
But I still have one more presentation on this Saturday. Hope I can do my best.
Anyway, final is around the corner. Two more weeks to go.
My last exam is on 19/12/2012 which is two days before "the end of the world".
There is rumors going around about the world is going to end at that day.
Do you believe about this? @.@ I don't really believe about this though.
But if the world really ends, I hope it ends in a split second without pain. LOL

Yesterday I went to watch Twilight with my bf.
The movie was awesome. Bella looks so cool with her red contact lens!
Besides, The Cullen family is so arrogant! <3 awesome="awesome" is="is" p="p" twilight="twilight">You should watch it if you haven't watch yet.
By the way, there is one thing that I really don't understand.
Why male dislike twilight so much? It's a good movie! >-<

This is just an update from me =D
Have a nice day ~  

23.11.2012

虽然我没有很叛逆，但从来也没有很乖。

小时候的缺点，多的数不完。

我顽皮，顶嘴，不听话，还有人人所谓的“硬颈”。

在兄弟姐妹当中，“吃”最多藤条的是我。

到了中学，脾气更是坏到不行。

常常把我妈妈气到跳脚。

对，我就是那么的不乖。

我有一位长辈，是男的。

从以前开始我就知道他不喜欢我。

在那么多兄弟姐妹当中，他就是不喜欢我。

而我从来也没有当一回事。

以为我就是不合他眼缘。

可是后来从别人口中得知原来一切都是有原因的。

原来就是因为我不乖和叛逆。

的确，不乖和叛逆不讨人喜欢。

可是我从来都不会对长辈不尊重。

虽然有时候会顶撞父母，

也会和兄弟姐妹吵大架，

但是对长辈的最基本礼貌，我还是有的。

可是他就是从来不给我好脸色看。

我心想

就算你有多不喜欢我

难道不可以假装疼我一下吗？

难道给我好脸色看就真的那么难吗？

给我的关爱非得要那么吝啬吗？

就算是那样，可以不要那么明显吗？

那时我虽小，可我还懂得如何看人的脸色。

我确实是不乖

我也的确有叛逆过

可是人是会成长的

我也是有长大的一天和懂事的时候

如果我当年没有不乖和叛逆

那么我就不知道当时的我有多不孝和愚蠢

现在也不会时时警惕自己

要懂事

要孝顺

要尊重

和

要乖

小孩子需要的是

鼓励和关爱

虽然训话也很重要

但是不要对一个小孩表现厌恶

那小孩的心灵会受伤的

伤口已结疤

小孩也已变乖

迟来的接纳

却哭笑不得

以前写博客单纯只是为了打发时间和分享自己的生活。

当发现开始有人关注我的博客时，感觉还满享受的？

可是现在写博客的心情和刚开始写的时候不一样了。

两年前我开始了这博客，第一年我写了245篇。

几乎天天都有在更新，但去年却只写了181篇。

而将要结束的今年，目前只写了34篇。

有看到那大幅度的下滑吗？ 数字是无法骗人的！

究竟是为什么呢？为什么不再天天更新了呢？

看回以前写的东西，就觉得自己好幼稚好蠢。

以前写博客时，我可以完全不去顾虑别人的感受。

现在长大了，渐渐开始懂得有些事，只能摆在心里。

因为长大了，所以不再肆言无忌，学习隐藏。

每当写到一半的时候，自己会问“这样写可以吗？”

太多感受要顾虑，所以我放弃了在这里述说我的思绪。

Learning is an endless process. 

People should never stop learning. 

So, people change throughout their life.

When I was chatting with my friend yesterday,

which told me exactly the same thing.

Indeed, change is inevitable in life.

However, the point is whether the changes are good or bad.

This was what I replied my friend.

Two years ago, when I first came here, I was naive. 

Now, I'm no longer that naive anymore.

My perspective on many things have changed.

I have been through a lot of things as well.

And I learned things that teachers/lectures wont teach in class.

First and foremost, I learned to appreciate my family.

Children only learn how important is family when they leave home.

They are the only one who will love you for who you are.

No matter how bad the fight you had with your family,

they will still forgive and forget.

After all, we share the same blood in our body.

Besides, I also learned not to have too much of expectation.

Sometimes, expectation is the one that tear people's heart apart.

My heart was once engulfed by mountain of sorrow,

because of the reality doesn't match with my expectation.

Certain of expectation, nevertheless, is good for us.

But, bear in mind that high expectation can stop your heartbeat. 

There are

23.11.2012

26th September 2012

26th September 1992
A baby girl, that's me, was born.
Millions thanks to my parents for bringing me into this world.
For me, birthday is just an opportunity for gathering and presents! HAHA
But sometimes a happy birthday would be perfectly fine for me.
Because someone remember your birthday *without looking on fb's reminder*

I don't like surprise.
But if you insist to give me one? Feel free to do so. LOL
But don't expect me to give you the "surprise" look @_@
I didn't pretend to not to be surprised, I swear~
It's just that I don't know how to express "surprise".

Anyway, I had a fastastic birthday this year.
I had a one month early pre-celebration with my family! LOL
I had received many blessings from all my family and friends on my birthday.
College mates had successfully "surprise" me =)
A gathering with my crazy friends, although some were not there. >.<
And a mini yet warmth celebration with boyfriend and his family ^.^

I got unexpected birthday presents from friends, him and his family.
Seriously, never expect that I would receive those things.

My lovely college mates gave me a cupboard!
They showed up at hostel with this heavy present and a cake day before my birthday!
Seriously, so touched and surprise! They are so lovely and cute!
They planned to assemble the cupboard for me, but end up I assemble it myself. LOL
It was an interesting experience, first time assemble a cupboard myself =) HOHO
The moment I finished assembling the cupboard, I felt the sense of accomplishment!

Thank you to my lovely college mates: Seow Yun, Shey Ni and Winnie 

Love you all so muchhhhhhhhh !!!!! =)

My collections of books and present from him


Had a great dinner with my crazy friends day before my birthday

But there were two person missing =(

One flew to Portsmouth to study

One was busy on that day =(((((((

Anyway, had a great time with them =)

Boyfriend said he booked me on 26/09/12

So, no choice I have to spend my birthday together with him HAHA =p

We had a lunch at midvalley and window shopping for awhile.

Then, back his home and had dinner and CAKE, CHEESE CAKE!

Him

ME

Me with my cake =)

*Ignore my outfit* 

Boyfiend and I =)

He looks happier than the birthday girl!

 

His Brother: Wah Wah, Him and Me =)

Cake, CHEESE CAKE! My favorite cake !!

*don't know why I cant rotate this picture =(*

Got a colorful bracelet from his mother, Auntie Grace =)

Got a pen from him ~~ 

Biibii, Thank you so much for everything !! ^.^

Overall, I had a wonderful birthday =)

24th September 2012

I promised him to blog about this, so that's why I'm here. LOL
I'm the kind of person who will keep my promise but it might be delayed. hoho~

Last year 24th September was the day that I started a journey together with HIM.
The beginning of this journey was not easy, because there were a lot of obstacles.
However, we managed to overcome those obstacles together with each other.
I was once thought about giving up during that time, but luckily I did not made that choice.
He was the one who stood firmly for our relationship.
He had eased all doubts, insecure, and sorrow during back time.
He was the one who held me tightly when I thought of giving up.
I feel so lucky that his faith was so strong during the hard times.

He said he fall in love with me at first sight.
He said he love me first before I've even fell for him.
He said he slim down just because to see me.

I was touched when I heard for what he said.
A guy who fell for you just because of a fb picture?
A guy who still insist to love you even after met in real life?
A guy who exercise extremely to slim down just to meet you?
Okay, I'm touched =)

He still loves me although I'm not the girl that he expected
He pamper me a lot no matter in what circumstances.
He had never really scolded me from the beginning until now.
He has almost all the qualities that a girl who wish her bf would have.
He is not anyone but a very important person to me.
As he is my guy, my man, my bf Enough talking, lets the picture to tell the story :)

A surprise from HIM

Wo de sha bao bei!

A gift from HIM

Dinner time

HIM

ME

The guy that would act silly with me in front of the camera! 

Love this picture and I don't know why! >.<

Gift for Him

A very ugly scrapbook that made by me T_T

A card that my by meee :)

L.O.V.E

Put everything inside the box, including a disc.

A disc that full with love <3 p="p">

HIS & HERS

Lastly, end this post with his fav picture of us <3 p="p">

 Good night! 

04.10.2012

Thought of planning to blog about my birthday and my anniversary as I promised to someone.
But I've change my mind, I think maybe it's time for me to do some reflection and improve.
Thought of writing this in Chinese, but don't know why ended up with English. LOL

I know that I'm lacking some skills that is vital for survival in this society.
I know that I have tons of shortcomings that could affect my survival in this society.
Yet, I'm learning them bit by bit and improving in a very slow pace.
Indeed I've changed and improved, and I thought I had a good progress.
But in fact, it was not enough at all. At least, not good enough.
There are still more things for me to be improved, tons of them.

Sometimes I speak without processing the words carefully,
and it ended up with offence or hurt other people.
I didn't really meant to be sarcastic or bragged,
I just blurted out as a joke and I know it's a bad joke.
I only realized it after the words was out of my mouth.
I know this would damage the relationship,
but it was not my intention at all and I don't want this to happen either.
So, sometimes I rather to keep my mouth shut,
because I'm afraid of getting people offence of what I said.
As I really don't want to lose any friends because of this silly mistake.
I try to change when I realized, but it has already became one of my bad habit.
I will try my best to learn how to talk wisely, but it takes times.
I hope it's not too late for me to start changing right now.

Sometimes, when I get frustrated or annoyed by something,
I will show a "shit face" without realizing I was doing it,
and throw a temper in front of people without realizing it.
Maybe it seems to be so normal for me to behave in such way,
therefore me myself is not even aware of such misbehavior.
I know that I have a bad temper since long time ago.
When I say bad temper, it is really BAD.
Although I have changed and my temper is not as bad as LAST time.
However, it is still "not good enough".
I know the people around me do not deserve for my bad temper.
For people who tolerate with me, they are just simply being kind to me.
But I know that they don't owe me, they can just push me away.
So, I want to change for my own good and also a return for them.
I am trying to improve my temper, trying so hard, yet little progress.
Because of this, I also make other people upset about me.

I'm a person who have a short "antenna"- insensitive
I don't realize my misbehavior as it has became a bad habit of mine.
So, I really need someone to point out my shortcomings for me.
As I really did not realized about what I've done was bad or
I didn't even realized about it at all.

Sometimes, I feel like there is something wrong with me.
The something wrong here means a weakness.
I really want to change but I do not know what is that weakness.
I cannot pinpoint the flaws by myself, as my eyes are folded by my big ego.

If I've said or done anything stupid that offense you, I'm really sorry about that.
I promised I will try my best to improve my weaknesses.
But I don't guarantee how efficient I am going to be.
After all, I'm just a normal human that with lots of weakness waiting for me to improve.

18.09.2012

Yesterday, I was burning the midnight oil.

As I was reading journals to prepare today's meeting.

And what he did was really touching.
He stayed awake and accompanied me throughout the night.

He made a cup of coffee for me to stay alert.

He entertained me whenever I was sleepy or bored.

He can choose to sleep on his comfy bed, but he didn't.

He chose to stay awake just to accompany me.

Throughout the night that we spent together, I realized something.

I love the way how we talk to each other.

I love the way we love each other.

And I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with this man.

08.09.2012

Currently having mood swing.
It was like falling down from heaven to hell.
Tears was like unstoppable.
It burst out from my eyes, I cant stop it.
If you were to ask me what's wrong with me,
I would tell you that I have no idea at all too.
Maybe my life was too happy and I have stored too much of tears.
So maybe it's time for me to get rid some of them?
Like my friend said, just like a sea turtle?
Or perhaps my mood swings is due to hormone imbalance?
Currently having period, so I think it's okay for me to be emotional?
Insomnia, no idea is because of mood swing or I slept too early just now?
Maybe crying is just a way to make me feel tired so that can fall asleep easily?
But I guess it doesn't work at all, at least not yet?
"A song of storm and fire"- the song that best described my mood swing.
I think I should watch some anime to calm myself down.
Night.

12.08.2012

Time past in a blink of an eye.
Bf is back to Semenanjung already.
Currently experiencing "temporarily" long distance relationship
We are 1623.48KM apart from each other
But our love will never be deteriorated due to distance.
As we promised each other,
We will hold each other hands to face any obstacle.
Although he just left, but I started to miss him already.
23 days without him, it's not the end of the world.
But it is definitely a hard time for both of us.

We have taken many photos during this trip,
but I do not have all of them yet,
so stay tune for the coming post.
I will blog more detail IF I'm in a "good" mood,
or just upload the pictures and let the pictures tell the story
IF I'm in a lazy mood. LOL

Byee =)

04.08.2012

Was wondering how to start this post and what to blog about.
I guess it's my responsibility to keep this blog "alive". LOL
Just briefly talk about my current life, a small update to you all.
I'm having a long long holiday which is one and a half month.
Half month is gone, and one month to go and I'm going back to hometown soon.
You know what? Bf is coming back together with me =)
BUT he is sick now =( Slight fever, hope he get well soon!!
Haven't pack my luggage yetttt! Just don't feel like doing so, LAZY!
Hope you guys enjoy your day too :)

02.08.2012

I have always take my hat off to elderly people. Most of the times.
Because they had been through a lot of things in their life.
They are wise. They knew a lot of things about life and people.
That's the reason that I came out after all the things that I been through in my life.
It took me almost twenty years to come to that realization.
I used to be the most naughty child in my family, most rebellious. But I've changed.
I tend to "lecture" the younger one, because I don't want them to repeat that mistake that I did.
If you don't like it, I cut it off. That's my way of doing stuff. I wouldn't feel offended at all.
But you asked me to cut it off and criticized me? That's really annoyed me a lot.
I don't know whether your criticism was just a joke or what, but I feel offended by you.
I may be not as smart as you, and I may be wrong for certain things.
But criticize me in that manner, that's really pissed me off.

Hey kid,
you didn't see what I saw,
you didn't hear what I heard,
you didn't feel what I felt,
and you never experienced what I had been through of my entire life.

You are tired of my "lectures", I'm fine with that.
You told me to stop and I stopped.
Maybe there is a generation gap and that's explain why you don't understand my jokes.
But, you can't criticize me in that manner.

Fine, I would never ever try to "lecture" you anymore.

26.07.2012

People walk in and out of our life.
Who stay and who leave a significant trace?
Is this controllable or uncontrollable?

I think,
We cant control who is going to walk in,
but we are capable to decide who to stay or leave.
We cannot control what is going to happen on us,
but we can choose to how to react and respond.

We cant blame everything on nature,
nurture has responsibility on the outcome too.
This is a typical grey area.
Right or wrong? Depend on how you perceive it.

12.07.2012

Day before my last paper for final examination.

No mood to study at all, lack of motivation.

Anyway, I'm still trying hard to study. I guess. LOL

 Yesterday I had made a cover of Sayang Kinabalu by Kimin Mudin.

*trying to release some stress >_<*

This song was taught by sister

 when I wan back in home during semester break

Our family seems to be love music and enjoy singing =)

This video suppose to be up here yesterday

But the hostel's internet connection is "TOO FAST"

Have to keep trying to upload this video and now finally succeed.

LOLOLOLOL

Anyway, enjoy the video =)

Sorry for the low quality of the video ><

Lyric

Tinggi Tinggi Gunung Kinabalu

Tinggi lagi sayang sama kamu

Biru-biru hujung Kinabalu

Tengok dari jauh

Hati saya rindu

Kinabalu dekat di Kundasang

Banyak sayur boleh pilih-pilih

Apa guna pergi luar negeri

naik Kinabalu

Hati saya rindu

Semundak-semundak pun ramai menunggu 

Menari-nari lenggang sumayao

Sekali melihat melepak kulitnya

Sayang jatuh cinta

Sayang-sayang sayang Kinabalu

Keamatan pesta bulan lima

Sayang-sayang kita pergi tamu

Jalan Tamparuli 

Hati saya rindu

Sayang-sayang kita pergi tamu

Jalan Tamparuli

Hati saya rindu

Lastly, please wish me good luck for my final paper.

Need it so much! Pray hard for me ya ~~ ><

Wish you all have a good day too =)

Is Malaysia consider as a safe country? I wonder, and ponder and hope it is.
Every time I read newspaper, there will always have negative news.
I don't know whether is the media was exaggerating about the truth,
or this is what really going on in this country, Malaysia.
I'm tired of seeing those politic news.
The victims of the war between politicians is us, the people.
Seeing politicians fighting over for power, I'm sure there will be excitement,
but I guess there will be something called disappointment and suffers as well.
Despite of that, the safety issue has become a hot issue in Malaysia.
You can read a lot of news about this everywhere, facebook, twitter, and newspaper.
Just be extra careful and stay alert!

p/s: this is just a boring post but yet a feeling of mine toward Malaysia. LOL

21.06.2012

人生就好像一列正在行驶的火车

马不停蹄的向前行驶

从一个站到下一个站

错过了就回不到上一个站

就好像时间不能倒退

在这世界上没有什么事

是不会不过去

因为

世上无难事

只怕有心人

放开心胸

看看那辽阔的天空

告诉自己

今天会很好

明天会更好

就好像3 Idiots 的一句经典台词

"All Izz Well"

Just bored.

我常常会沉醉在自己的世界里

不去理会外面的人事物

只管呆在自己的安全区

不去想，不去看，烦恼不存在

有一段时间

我是这样安慰自己

活在自己所编织的谎言

世界的奥秘太深奥

人际关系的微妙太复杂

尽管多么的努力

最后得到的

也只有像那四个字一样

空空如也

到最后

我学会的

也只有

不要太执著

不然

到最后

受伤的

是自己的心灵

人类的心太脆弱

一碰就碎

所以要好好保管

PSY 216 Presentaiton

Yesterday was my PSY216 presentation!

Well, overall was okay.

Quite satisfied with my performance. lol

We took quite a lot of pictures after our presentation =D

This is my group :) 

Second Row starting from left :

Me, Winnie, Seow Yun, Shey Ni

The only guy there is our group leader, Mavic

Mavic complained that his head look so big in the first photo

That's why we took again!

Peace ? LOL

These three are my lovely college mates who I always hang out with

They all like to bully me ! lol

The caption for this photo in instagram :

"why I'm always the one who hold the camera?!?!" 

HAHAHAHA

Our Pity look after presentation! 

Seow Yun why you always like to make my face look bigger than yours?!

HAHA >_<

My lovely and talkative woman! HAHA

See! They always want me to hold the camera! 

>_<

This beautiful also is my group mate for PSY205!

By the way, she is Xin Ying =)

Blogging in the early in the morning!

Later afternoon got proposal dense with Ms Winnie and tutors!!

Wish me good luck yo >_<

P/s: I miss my boyf  

Our latest photo that took in his grandma's house

He look cute with his BIG EYES!

Computer hug!!! 

(  ^.^  )
<~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!I love you biii biii!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~> 
   <  )       (  >

*this computer hug is invented by him* 

28.05.2012

I have no idea why that the girl is so fancy about that guy. Seriously, WHY?
The girl is kinda good-looking, smart, nice and fashion, but the guy?
I'm not saying that the guy is ugly or stupid, but his attitude, no good
He is good in study, so what?! Who cares?
A person who talks without considering about others' feeling?
A person who don't know how to respect peers?
A person who is narcissistic and sarcastic!!!
Well, I just don't understand why the girl is so fancy about this fella.
Maybe this is my personal problem, but I just dislike him so much.
This fella, already transferred to another college.
Theoretically saying, we have no more interaction at all.
BUT he really does things without considering others.
Commenting sarcastic words on my picture? Get a life please.
I wonder it is so hard to be a little bit considerate ?
I wonder it is so difficult for not to be sarcastic?
And the most wonder is, why the girl is so fancy about him? WHY?!?!
No offense, I just cant see the good of him that she saw.
I tried to be nice, I tried to be good to him, but I don't find a point to do so anymore.
Don't like me? Hate me? Go ahead. I wont bother it at all.
I should get a life too. Being frustrated because of him? Not worth it at all.

23.05.2012

New semester has just begun one week ago
I am struggling with new semester while my friends are enjoying their holiday
Honestly speaking, feel so stress out when I look on my calender
All the assignment due date, presentation, and exams are so close to each other
Taking three subjects in a short semester (7 WEEKS ONLY) indeed is a stressful event!
Anyway, I will try my best and hope that everything will be fine, *hopefully*
Hope this semester will end soon so that I could go back KK and enjoy my long long holiday! =D
Oh yea, I got my result for last semester few days ago. It was okayy and kinda unexpected.
Well, I don't really expect what grade should I get because I think it will make me so stress.
HAHA, but my result was really satisfying me =D Hope that this will keep it up in this semester~

You know what?
I'm so lucky to have him in my life <3

*this picture was taken during one of the skype call recently when he was about to take shower #toplessBaby #Iloveyou

11.05.2012

"你不可能喜欢所有你身边的人，所有不要奢望所有人都会喜欢你。切记，切记！"
I posted this up on my Facebook today, many people liked it and agreed with me.
Since there are many people agreed and liked this status,so I thought of blogging it.
Today when I was checking Facebook news feed, I saw some updates from few people.
These few people, frankly speaking, I do not like them for some reasons.
No need to explain in detail why I do not like them or who are they.
The point is, I just don't like them even though they are still my friends on Facebook/reality.
I will still say hi or talk to them nicely/friendly if I met them on the street.
If I were the old-time me, I would definitely feel disgust about this.
Because I think that why must we behave in such way? It feel like a faker.
But when I grow older, I slowly understand the need of being fake in this world.
If you want to know why, go explore and find the answer yourself =)
After all, it is also part of our life experiences !
Anyway, when I saw these people updates, I felt disgust. I really do not like them.
Also, at the same time, a realization came into my mind.
If I could dislike a person, then others might also could dislike me too.
Although I never expect that everyone would likes me,
but I seem to be forgotten that there is a possibility that others might dislike/hate me.
It is just like a cycle. Repeating again and again among each others.
If you talk bad about people, others might also could be talking bad about you.
If you dislike a person, others might also could dislike you as well.
What you feel/do/think toward other people, others might also can feel/do/think toward you.
Well, I guess that's all for today. Anyway, this post is simply #justsaying
Cheers !

P/s:千万不要对号入座 =)

08.05.2012

我的宝贝很傻

舍得花钱在我身上

但却对自己很吝啬 

有时候真的替他很心疼 =(

还记得有一次我们在逛书店

看到一本收集周杰伦歌德吉他谱

看得出他其实很想收集这本书

因为宝贝本身就是周杰伦的粉丝

再加上自己也有在玩吉他

可是阿他却为了省钱而打消了这个念头

那时候看到他对自己那么吝啬 

但却很舍得为我花钱

真的替他很心疼

所以我决定自己私底下去买那本书送他

昨天刚巧和朋友出去

所以我就回到那书店买下那本书

这是包装过后的样子

这是我第一次为他包礼物

所以包得并不是很好看

之前的都是店员帮我的

但是这次我想亲手包

宝贝

希望你明白我送你这本书的用意

我希望你在疼我的同时

也要好好地爱惜自己

不要对自己那么吝啬

因为我会心疼的

对了

今天是我们在一起第228天

好意头哦 =)

嘻嘻

我爱你哦

我的傻傻宝贝

07.05.2012

People are amusing, including myself.
When we were kids, we wished to grow up to be an adult.
But when we grew up, we wished to be a kid like last time.
People just never satisfy for their current state and situation.
Believe it or not, greedy is just part of our human nature.
I have always wanted to become more mature.
But when I have become more mature, even though only a bit,
I wish I can go back to past and be a kid with no worries of life.
Being more mature just simply mean to have more responsibility.
Responsibility is just like a big stone that we carried on our shoulder.
Although I'm still far away from a mature person,
But I have started to realize the cost for being mature; lost of innocence.
Somehow, I wish to be a kid that have no worries for life.
But I'm aware that this is just an unrealistic wish that will never come true.
Well, all I can do is just accept this and embrace life.
Night is still young huh? I wonder.

Denial.

久违的揪心

是因为夜太黑太静

还是因为黑夜唤起心里的寂寞

眼泪不受控制

只管自顾自怜

盲目地从眼眶滑下

玩了一场大胆的游戏

其实早已经知道了结果

但却不想去想，不去承认

可是事实终究是事实

不论我多么努力去否认

它毕竟还是事实
残酷地存在着

我累了，不玩了

放弃了，无所谓了

06.05.2012

A naive student's feelings and opinion toward the country.

Thanks to advanced technology, information can be spread in a split second within people. This is  just like a double-edged sword, it bring pro and con at the same time. The pro is people can easily access to all kind of information, and the con is people might get manipulated by fake information. Facebook, Twitter or any online social network have already become a tool for Malaysian to spread information to others. For example, Bersih supporters, they updated their current situation to let other people know what was actually going on. There are a lot of information such as rumors and scandals regarding Malaysia's government, prime minister, polices, and also others officers. Well, I don't know whether the information that spread through the internet is true or not, but to be honest, it have a great impact on myself. Frankly speaking, the government, officers, police and even the prime minister disappointed me a lot. Well, I don't think that I am the only one who feel disappointed from these people. Last time, I never concern about what was going on in Malaysia. Because I was naive and thought that the country is doing great. But now, I slowly feel that it is not true. If the government is doing its own job, there will no people who would want to oppose it right? Even if there is other party who want to oppose oppose the government for the sake of political power, but the nation will stand on the government side IF the government is doing for the sake of the nation. I have no idea or right to judge whether the government is good or bad, because i do not know what is going on in the politic world. After all, I'm just a naive student. Every time I read the news, beside disappointment, still disappointment. Somehow, I feel like the world, especially my country is dying soon. Hopeless and helplessness. I am expecting a change that can change the situation. What change is I expecting? Who would bring the change? Seriously, I have no idea at all. I used to be proud to be a Malaysian, but now? I doubt. Malaysia Boleh? I wonder. One Malaysia? A fragile hope I guess. I have always been told to not to comment much about the government and politic. Reason? Internal Security Act, also as known as ISA. But what I have written in here is just what I thought, my opinion, my feeling. If expressing one's thoughts and feeling is against the law, then where is the freedom of speech? Ops, I forgot about that there are something called double standard and abuse of power.

01.05.2012

Writing this post in the mid of the night, also the first day of the month. 

Suppose that I should be sleeping now, but I'm still sitting in front of the computer.

It's 2.41 a.m. now, yet I'm feeling energetic and not sleepy at all. LOL

I think I have slept too much yesterday?! I slept for almost 12 hours!

By the way, final examination had over and holiday has just began!

Currently, enjoying my holiday while my business friends are suffering from exam!

My friends said that I'm evil because I purposely told them that I'm enjoying my holiday!

Its not true, in fact I'm just inspiring them to study hard and enjoy their COMING HOLIDAY xD

If you were to ask what's my plan for this holiday, I will answer you "anime, drama, movie"

I bet many people would think that is boring and lifeless >.< HAHA

But I enjoy doing this, so it is not lifeless or boring to me~~ > 3 <

Yesterday was my bf's mother's birthday! Happy Birthday Auntie! lol

*saying something to someone on blog who might not see it make me feel awkward @.@"

I was invited to dinner to celebrate Auntie's birthday.We had dinner at "口记", Yulek.

Although I do not know his family very well, but somehow I feel warm when with them.

By the way, bf bought a pen from Sworovski for his mother. Look NICE! *bling bling*

Oh yea! Today is also Denzie, a.k.a the green thing birthday!!

Happy Birthday ya DENZIE =D Wish you have a blast on your birthday!

I think I better go to sleep now! If not tomorrow will become.....................

Good night people! 

24.04.2012

17.04.2012

Before today ends, I feel like writing blogging.
I supposed to be studying, instead of being here blogging and facebook-ing.
But.. but.. I just don't feel like doing so! I have been studying since this morning.
Seriously, I am like intensive studying this few days.
And what sad to say that this got to last until next Friday which is my last paper.
I am just being like a "sponge", absorbing knowledge as much as I can. LOL
Kinda regret that I did not start doing revision earlier, *damn regretting*
Never mind, I will be alright, I guess... most probably?! hohoho
Kinda stress because Two of the exams are on the same day.
Anyway, hope the time can speed up so that I can enjoy my semester break!
Plan to watch anime and drama everyday! *until someone complain I ignore him
And read books that I bought but haven't read! *another favorite activity!
And.. and.. and ROT AT HOSTEL EVERYDAY! yayyyy!
Got to sleep now. Tomorrow will be another day for intense studying. T T
Night people =)

12.04.2012

Seriously, my blog is dying! Well, not only mine, most of my friends' blog too!
We are no longer that keen on blogging, maybe we are just not persistent enough.
Perhaps, we are just too lazy? Haha! For me, I think I'm the latter one? Hoho
Anyway, let's share about my recent life XD *just to keep my blog alive >~<*
This semester is going to end soon and that means final is coming soon as well.
I have no more class already, currently enjoying study break ~~
Study break suppose mean to be study but I think I have misuse this free time! LOL
Anyway, I'll start study right after I finish this post. I promise!!!
Recently, kinda miss my parents especially my mother =( I miss my mama!
But I'm not going back to hometown during this semester break >_<
I'm only going back on next semester break.
I'm going back there for almost one month!! HEHEHEHE =D
The longer I stay at outside, the more I understand the importance of home and family.
Though life in here is not as easy as at hometown, but I'm doing great here.
Because at here, I have met a guy who love me with all his heart :)
We have been through up and down, but we are still holding each other hands.
Frankly speaking, he is not my first boyfriend. In fact, he is the third one.
BUT, he is the first and only one who make me think that he is the right one,
the one that I can entrust my life to him, the one that I can love with all my heart.
Although he is not a perfect man and has some weaknesses, but he is perfect enough for me.
Its true that sometimes I will "beh tahan" him, but a couple should always tolerate with each other right?
Since he can "tahan" my bed temper, so why don't I tolerate with his shortcoming too? HOHO
I think I should stop here! Got to prepare for my final exam already :)
Hope you guys have a great life and don't forget to smile =)

Yesterday there was a 8.9 earthquake at Sumatra which caused tremors in West Malaysia.
Frankly speaking, where tremors happened, I didn't even feel anything at all.
This was because I was too concentrated  watching Naruto. >.<
After I was been told that there was a tremors, I only realized that "wow, there is an earthquake yoh"

Currently I'm addicted to anime. I'm watching Naruto! Hohoho
Leona Lewis sings  "Keep bleeding, Keep keep bleeding love",
and I keep watching, keep keep watching Naruto! lolololololol
Anyway, I've got to  stop watching anime for few weeks.
*Trying hard to switch to study mode*
This is because final exam is coming SOON :3
In order to ensure myself not to watch anime,
I have decided to return the harddisk back to bf. LOL
*This is the effective way to stop myself to watch anime*

03.04.2012

I think it was the best decision that I ever made for keeping a blog.
I started this blog two years ago when I was just arrived KL.
The reason why I started a blog was because I love to write.
I mean, I used to love to write a lot about my life.
I'm now no longer like last time that can write a lot anymore.
When I read back my previous blog posts, it was really fun and amusing.
However, it was also a good time for me to reflect my own life.
"You changed. Totally changed" My friends once said this to me.
Well, this is true. Indeed I have changed, but I'm not the only one.
When I noticed something in my life has changed, it made me feel no good.
However, I slowly then realized that there was nothing I can do.
Then. I slowly learn how to "move on" in life.

Currently listening to piano version of  A thousand years by Christina Perri.
I really love the beautiful melody that produced by piano, it calms me down easily.
It's 3:21 a.m now and I am still awake and blogging. LOL
I didn't stay up for so late with no reason, I was doing my assignment just now.
And I'm so happy that I'm done with it! Hooray~! Thumbs up for myself =)